CHAPTER 10

Maddie's POV  

             When I woke up I was still wrapped in Demi's arms. I tried to gently unwrap myself form her but at my movement her eyes opened and she looked at me sleepily, blinked a couple times, and then pulled me into a hug. "I love you." She whispered. 

Not for long. 

          I struggled against her embrace as I heard the truth behind those words. "Mads?" She asked, dropping her arms. I got off the bed and quickly came up with an excuse. "I just have to pee." She smiled and nodded, "I'll go make breakfast." She got off the bed and walked out of the room. I groaned and flopped down on the bed. Why do people have to eat so much? I took an anxiety pill, flushed the toilet just in case Demi was still close, and walked downstairs.

           Demi was sitting at the counter on a bar stool reading a magazine, when I walked in she looked up and smiled, "Breakfast's on the table." I nodded and shuffled to the table and sat down in front of a plate of eggs and bacon. Demi set the bottle of hot sauce in front of me and winked. "I didn't forget little-miss-Texas. I smiled weakly, ever since I was little i loved hot sauce on everything. But now, it was just extra calories. I slowly ate an egg and a few pieces of bacon. Making a deal with the demons that I would purge later. Finally i pushed my plate back and drank the water bottle Demi had set in front of me. Demi arched an eyebrow, "You're not hungry?" I shrugged, "My appetites been really weird lately. Sometimes I eat a ton, then sometimes I'm just not hungry." She nodded and smirked. "Awww puberty." I rolled my eyes and smiled, well, attempted to smile. Demi's face dropped when I did and she looked down. I knew that she wanted to talk about last night but was waiting for me to bring it up. Not going to happen. "So. What are we doing today?" I said, Demi shrugged, "We could go shopping." I rolled my eyes. Demi could literally go shopping everyday and not get bored once. "Nahhh." She pouted and tried to think of something else. "Movie date?" I smiled, when Demi came home we probably watch at least 50 different movies. "Sure!" Demi got up and cleared the plates then went to the huge movie rack. "Whatcha feel like watchin'?" She asked. I moved towards the stairs. "I don't care. I'm just gonna get some blankets and pillows." She nodded and I ran up the stairs to my room. I heard the credits start to play and knew I was safe. I walked into my room, and  knelt in front of the toilet. 

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            "Madddieeeeeee." Demi whined I laughed, but didn't give her the remote. "Maddie I have to peeeee pause the movie!" She said again. I laughed and finally gave in after five minutes of her begging. She jumped over the couch and ran up the stairs. Suddenly her phone went off, sneakily, I looked at it and saw a message from Marissa. 

Mar: You don't think anything serious is going on do you?" 

          I slid to unlock it and quickly read the rest of the conversation. 

Mar: Did you talk to her last night?

Demi: I tried to, but she just started crying so I sang her to sleep. I don't want to push her into anything. 

Mar: Has your mom noticed anything?

Demi: No i haven't talked to her yet.. Should I?

Mar: I don't think so.. Maybe just give Mads time to come to you?" 

Demi: Yeah.. I guess so.. But if she doesn't bring it up by the end of two movies I will. 

Mar: You don't think anything serious is going on, do you? 

              I quickly locked the phone as Demi came back down the staircase. "Much better." She plopped down next to me and pulled me into her side to cuddle. I couldn't stop thinking about those texts. We were nearing the end of our second movie, how did Demi plan on bringing this up? And Marissa. Did she suspect anything. Demi's phone dinged and she quickly typed on it, angling it so that I couldn't see. She put it in her lap but it immediately dinged again, this time I caught a glimpse of the message. 

Mar: Have you noticed any changes in her mood or eating habits? 

               My chest seized up and I started coughing. Demi dropped her phone and put a hand on my back. "Madison?!" I coughed and gasped for air. "Maddie?!" Demi said, alarmed. "I'm fine." I wheezed, "I just breathed wrong I guess." I said, gulping down air. Suddenly, music started playing and the credits were on the screen of our second movie. Shit. My breathing came out erratic and fast. I began to shake. "Madison." Demi said, I pushed away from her and started to hyperventilate. Shit. Shit. Get it together Maddie. My jaw locked and I gasped for air. I felt Demi pull me into her chest as the tears started. "Easy Mads, match my breathing. It's okay. Easy." I slowly started to calm down, and finally, the tears stopped. I sighed, and snuggled into Demi. She held me for a while, and kissed my head. Murmuring that its okay and to breathe into my ear. Finally, i pulled away and wiped my face. "Sorry." I said, ashamed. Demi shook her head, "It's okay, you can't control it. It's fine." I nodded and sat back onto the couch. I was exhausted. "I'm gonna go make us some tea, okay?" I nodded and she got up, taking her phone with her. I quietly walked after her, stopping just before the kitchen door. 

            "Marissa I know I said I would do it after the second movie but I can't." Demi said. There was silence,  Marissa was talking. "She started coughing and then the credits started rolling after the movie and she had a full blown panic attack. I don't know what happened." More silence. "After she calmed down I came into the kitchen to make some tea and now i'm talking to-" Demi got cut off as Marissa started talking again. Demi sighed, "Yeah, i'll try, but I gotta go, tea's ready.... Yeah, love you too." I sprinted back to the couch and did my best to look like I wasn't just eavesdropping. Demi came into the room a few second later with two steaming mugs. Demi sat next to me and handed me one. I nodded in thanks. We sat there for a couple minutes, sipping our tea, before Demi spoke. 

"So... You gonna tell me what happened last night?" 

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Oh my God this is so long :O 

Well I hope you guys liked the two reallly long chapters! 

Love ya'll

-Rachel