Chapter 15 of Save Me enjoy!

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❥❥❥❥Save Me ❥❥❥❥

•Short recap•
"You can see you know," he replied smiling. "You are my mate, after all, this all belongs to you." He said.

oh yeah I know baby I know 

"Yeah I know I can look at them, but I rather not drool at the sight of them," I told him honestly. I can feel blood rush to my pale cheeks giving them some color. I placed the clothes in his hands and hopped onto my bed and got on my side and left some room for Ryan to slip in. I turned on the t.v and we both watched Friends.

We somehow manage to bring our body's together and ended up cuddling, while the t.v on and the outside rain pouring in and that's how I fell asleep in the arms of my mate.

"I can see you trying to seduce me with those tight jeans of yours! Your ass is on full ass display for me. Come here let daddy have a little taste of his prize possession. You teasing me is not nice, daddy is getting upset. Come here, you dirty whore! I know you want it!" He shouted trying to catch up to me but I kept running, desperately trying to get away from him.

"Stop! Get away from me!" I yelled running farther away from Dylan, my mothers' new toy for the week. I ran with all my energy I had left in my body but I wasn't fast enough because soon enough I was knocked to the ground with him hovering on top of me.

"I called you and you didn't listen, now you are going to get punished." He said smiling darkly at me, it happened again.

That was the day I wish I've died

"Isa... Isa!" I heard a voice calling me but I couldn't respond, the dream felt too real.

He was coming for me

I didn't run away

I didn't make it

It's too late

I couldn't breathe

I opened my eyes desperate for air to enter my lungs, it was like I was trapped in the nightmare and couldn't get up. I saw Ryan to my left looking confused as ever. He doesn't know what is going on. He is not going to want me if I tell him.

He's going to leave you

He's not going to want you

He will leave

You will be all alone

Just like you should be

Alone

"Tell him, Isa, his wolf knows something is up. I'm hiding something from him and he is getting very upset." Violet said sadly. I don't want to tell him. Ryan brought my body closer to his and wrapped his arms around me bringing me into a tight hug, which calmed me down instantly.

He's my mate

"Isa it was just a dream. You're here, you're all good, you're with me, you're safe." He said.

No, I'm not

I tried to give him a smile but that dream was too real, too vivid. It wasn't a dream, it was a nightmare, it managed to bring me back to a place I hated where there were terrible memories I want to forget. I ended up crying and he pulled me closer to him. His body giving off a wave of warmth and I immediately relaxed again but I didn't stop crying.

"He feels your pain, Isa," Violet said. He rocked back and forth until I was breathing normally and stopped crying. "Ryan?" I said scared on how he's going to react.

It was now or never

I'm going to tell him

"Mmm," Ryan responded. I turned my body completely so I was facing him. I made sure to leave some space between us because I know he won't want to touch me when I tell him, he will be disgusted.

                                                                            My mate will reject me

"I have something to tell you and I have a feeling you are not going to like this at all," I told him.

"It's okay Isa you can tell me anything," Ryan said grabbing my hands and intertwined our fingers. "I totally understand if you don't want to talk to me or do anything with me ok," I said. He looked down at our hands then looked up. I can tell he was afraid of what I was going to tell him.

He should be

"I'm not strong to tell you the truth, I'm weak. I've been through some much shit in life and called so many things by my mother and her boyfriends that I believe them."

"From the hits, I receive to the times I've been raped I have felt worthless," I said getting tears in my eyes. I felt his body get stiffed when I mentioned the word rape. I know any at any moment he will let go of my hands and leave me.

"I'm wanted to end my life so many times, but I've stopped myself because something always held me back, it never felt right," I said as more tears fell out of my eyes. "I've been in and out of the hospital so many times. I had to work for my own money since my mother never had a decent job to get us food." I continued.

"I've got sent here by my mother, I got put in the hospital again when she came here. My dad and Sam then got me a therapist named Natalie, who I recently found out is your sister. That was the person I had to talk to the other day when you asked me to hang out with you and your friends. I was just too embarrassed to say that. You're going to be an alpha soon I believe and  I'm going to be a weak mate so just dump me while you can and find someone who can be there for you when you need them to be. Someone who doesn't have such a dark past behind them. I said finally looking up to meet his eyes.

"You will be crazy to believe I don't want you, Isa. You are even crazier to believe I will reject you. You have been through so much and I can tell that when I look at you, you never should have gone through any of that. You are my mate and I'll be stupid to let you go. I accepted you just the way you are and I don't want anyone different. I'm keeping you with m forever and always. The moon goddess changed your life's path for us to finally meet." Ryan told me sincerely.

This made me cry even harder. Once again he pulled me into his comforting arms and wrapped his arms around me tightly. "I'm a fragile piece of glass Ryan, and with one push I'll break so don't push me too hard," I told him.

"I will never push you beyond your limits." He replied and somehow we fell asleep again. I felt a smile grow on my face knowing he won't leave me.

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I woke up feeling the sunlight on my face and felt an arm around my waist tighten.

"Don't get up yet." A deep raspy morning voice that belonged to Ryan said.

I must not be the only girl who finds the boys morning voice attractive, because that's was hella attractive. I snuggled into his arms again but kept my eyes open thinking about my midnight nightmare and me telling Ryan about my past.

"He didn't leave us, Isa, his wolf is very upset that you went through all you did but is happy to know you are with him now so he can keep you safe," Violet said excitedly.

"Yeah, he didn't leave us," I said happily.

My whole body was craving for his touch but I didn't know what to do I'm already in his arms.

"Violet help me please what's wrong?" I asked her.

Why was my body warming up?

Why was I craving him?

"You are going into heat soon Ryan needs to mark you soon. So you won't go all hyper and jump on every boy lap you see." Violet said.

"I won't go jumping on guys laps, I'm not like that Violet," I told her.

I'm not a hoe

"Ryan," I said as I tap on his chest that was covered with a shirt. I repeat it again but he doesn't budge. I then decided to push him, I pushed him hard, a little too hard since he ended falling off the bed.

Opps

My bad

"Haha!" I laughed loudly. "What was that for Isa?" Ryan said angrily since he was sleeping.

Aw did I wake up the princess from her beauty sleep?

He likes his beauty sleep

He doesn't need it though, he's already beautiful

So damn beautiful

His body was-

Ok this is not normal

"Um, Violet is telling me I'm going into heat soon so you have to mark me so I won't go on some other boys laps," I told him repeating Violets words and bit my lip because I'm so nervous on what he will do.

This catches his attention fully. "I-um o-okay yeah. We will go on a date, have fun then soon I'll mark you, but I don't want it to be planed fully because the unexpected is the best." He said.

"Yeah that's sound good about the date, we should go somewhere fun," I told him.

"Like a fair?" He asked.

"A fair? "I replied confused.

"Yeah with roller coasters, food stands, music playing, oh and you can win stuff animals." He answered. My eyes filled with excitement.

"Yes, I love to go to one I never been to one."

"Tomorrow at 6 sounds good?" He asked.

"Yeah that's sounds wonderful."

This will be my first date

Next day

I dressed in some black leggings that I borrowed from Emma, an oversized sweater with tribal print design, and my brown combat boots. I pinned my hair back put on some earring and a watch and the. applied some cherry Chapstick on my dry lips.

(Isa's outfit above)

The doorbell rang and I headed downstairs quickly grabbing my purse along the way and opened the door.

I saw Ryan dressed in his varsity jacket, some dark jeans and a pair of male Sperry's.

He looked good

He walked up to me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. "Ready to go?" He asked with a smile. "Yeah, I'm ready," I said with a smile as well.

We arrived at the fair and let me tell you I might have been seen as a crazy 5-year-old to others, but it was the first time I've been to a fair they have no right to judge.

I was jumping around everywhere like a monkey.
"Slow down Isa." Ryan laughed pulling me back to him.

"I'm sorry but look at all these flashing lights and listen to the music, it sounds wonderful," I said looking all over the park. I saw food stands a huge Ferris wheel around the back of the park, the swings, and some other roller coasters.

"Isa are you afraid of these roller coasters?" Ryan asked.

"They don't look that scary," I said looking at the fireball that went side to side then went all around to a full circle.

"Would you like to do something that you will remember forever tonight?" He asked with a small evil grin looking over to a line that was for a ride called slingshot. I saw two people coming up and they sat down on a little cattle car and were buckled up, the timer went off and with a BANG they were in the air doing circles.

Yeah never mind

That's scary

That's a no

I turned to Ryan and laughed nervously. "Look at that ride," I said pulling Ryan to the swings trying to get him to avoid that ride.

We buckled our seat belts and our feet were off the ground within a couple of seconds, the ride started to spin and I kept laughing along with Ryan.

"You pick a ride now," I told Ryan since we were taking turns. Ryan looked around until he saw the ride we eyed earlier.

"Will you do anything for me, Isa?" He asked.

That depends

"Yeah but it depends what it is," I replied looking at him nervously. I didn't have any time to process what was going to happen next because next thing I know I ended on top of Ryan's shoulder bouncing up and down as he ran.

"Buckle her up fast!" Ryan yelled. I tried getting up but Ryan held me back, the workers tried my seatbelt and Ryan settled down next to me.

What the actual fuck

Did they not hear my protest?

This is against my will

The car went back and kept rocking back and forth. "Ryan I'm going to kill you" I screamed when the worker said 1 and we were sent off at full speed straight ahead turning.

We stopped turning no we were swinging back and forth but I was still scared.

"You can open your eyes now Isa," he said slowly.

I opened my eyes turned to him and gave him the meanest look I could muster.

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Authors Note

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