I don't like you
That's what I'm training myself to think whenever we come in contact
But unfortunately that's just me trying to believe a lie
I don't love you though
Of that I am certain
I doubt I will love anyone because the pain I feel now is already antagonizing
So to prevent further damage to an already broken toy, I have to safe guard my heart
But it's ok
I'm content with just liking you and occasionally craving you
I know this isn't healthy
But the ugly truth is that I'm desperate
So desperate that having a little of you as friends can quell my needs
Having a little of you is still sad though
And every time we talk then my heart breaks a little more
But it's ok
Because having all of you won't happen and I have come to terms with that
So I've settled to have only a little of you
And even though it's painful to admit
Me standing next to you as friends kills me on the inside
But I understand
What i want can't happen, won't happen
So it's ok
Because you're worth every tear shed and every pain felt