Virgils pov/////

I curled in on myself. Trying to get my head out of orbit around the small room.

"Virgil I'm gonna walk in now. Okay?" Roman says after a few knocks. I just wanted to dissapear.

He opens the door closing it again as he walks over and softly takes me in his arms. Moving us so I was in his lap. I look away from him still. ..

"Virgil are you alright?" I just shake my head no. He softly runs his hands through my hair. "I'll stay here until you are-" I softly nod as he just.   ..... Holds me. Gently. In the dark. So... Comforting.

It was a while before he kisses my temple softly. Rubbing my sides. I inhale as I gain my composure back.  "Can I ask what that was about doll?" He softly fixes my hair as he asks.

"That's one of my ex's." I say quietly.

"I got that darling. Why did you run off? Was it just his existance-? Or the name he called you?" He asks. ... Why did I wanna tell him every thing?

"I didn't leave because my parents were homophobic. I left because they were transphobic-" I say in a stutter. Romans face is unreadable in this type of darkness.

"And he used your deadname?" He asks gently. .... Is he not recoiled? Is he not grossed out?

I nod against him. His hand still in my hair. "Are you not weirded out?" I ask overly confused.

"Virgil. I don't care what other people call you. What name. What pronouns they call you. You're just virgil. My friend and your a dude. That does dude things but also cool feminine things. That doesn't mean you're one or the other. I support you no matter what's on your birth certificate." He says so sweetly. I try not to let any tears fall from me. Melting against him. We stay silent for a while before I sniff and hoarsely thank him. My voice quiet. Weak. But I felt so protected..

"Virgil will you be-" there's a knock before Roman can finish his sentence.

"Virgil are you in there?" It was my brother. Janus. I fix my face before getting up and pulling roman up with me.

"Yes janus-." He cracks the door at my response. Looking at Roman curiously before back to me. "I'm okay- I'm fine." He softly checks over my features.

"You sure?" He was always the worried over protective brother. And now he just had dad vibes since he got Naga, his son. I nod. Walking out. One hand still in Romans leading him out. "Don't worry about them alright?" Janus says quietly to me. "Just have a good time- and I'll steal some wine for us? Deal?" I smile gently.

"Deal." He smiles and walks back off. Roman clearing his throat. "What were you gonna ask roman?" I look to him. But as soon as he opens his mouth Logan runs into us. Not hard or anything. Enough to knock Roman and I off balance.

"Ah- Roman sorry. Hi virgil. Ro your brother is here and about to declare a war with jan's parents." Me and Roman both sigh starting.

"He's a grown up. He can get out of this himself-" Roman states Logan nodding.

"If you're sure-?" Logan asks as Roman nods. Logan rolls his eyes walking off. I take Romans hand and sneak down a few halls. Then find a staircase.

"How is this not the top floor?" He asks I just shush him and take him farther up the stairs. There's a large balcony. We can see the whole city from there. All the street lights shining against us and our outfits. Music muffled but playing. The balcony was next to some of the arching glass of the downstairs bathroom ball.

I look at all the buildings. They were beautiful. Just as perfect as I remember. But I glance at roman and he's just looking at me a softness to his features that was just gentle and caring. He moved closer. Softly cupping my cheek with his hand. I feel my heart rate pick up. Face flushing.

Then he hops up on the gaurd rail. I gasp. "Roman please don't fall-" I say quickly. He chuckles at my reaction.

"Well this place is beautiful. Too bad we just are roommates. Nothing but killer friendship huh?" He smiles that bastard of a smile.

"Yeah definitely." I reply. His hand moves out to the city. "The sun is nearly gone- the lights are turning on-... A silver shine that stretches to the sea~" Is he singing?. I roll my eyes as he walks along the rail. Looking out then back to me. "We've stumbled on a view that's tailor made for two~ what a shame. Those two are you and meeee~" His finger trails quickly from my jaw to my chin. I scrunch my nose. Hoping up on the railing. He smiles more. "Some other guy and guy, would love this swirling sky. Yet there's only you and I. And we've got no shot." He points to me then himself. "This could never be. You're not the type for me." I laugh.

"Really?" I say sarcastically.

"And there's not a spark in sight
What a waste of a lovely night~~" I roll my eyes pushing him softly walking forward. 

"You say there's nothing here?
Well, let's make something clear
I think I'll be the one to make that call~" his face lightens as I continue the song.

"It's your call~" He adds playfully.

"And though you looked so cute
In your polyester suit."

"It's wool."

"You're right, I'd never fall for you at all." I spin. "And maybe this appeals. To someone not in heels
Or to any guy who feels, There's some chance for a romance." I look down but then back up to him. "But, I'm frankly feeling nothing." Saracasm infused in my singing voice.

"Is that so?" He asks smiling a condescending grin.

"Or it could be less than nothing." I chime.

"Good to know, so you agree?" He asks playfully.

"That's right~" I wink.

"What a waste of a lovely night." We sing together the last line. We dance a bit around the railing. Then I hop off him following.

"You wanted to ask me something?" I manage to say without sounding like a complete fool.

"Nothing to worry about my dear~."

He kisses me. My entire body feels calm yet on fire. Like a raging water that ends up being large gentle waves. My fingers dust over his cheek holding him there gently. His hand traces my waist. Fitting perfectly.

I didn't want the connection to stop. Then my anxiety kicks in. Pulling away and my eyes look away. 'was this a good idea?'

"Darling." He pulls my head close to meet his eyes. "What's that brain of yours thinking of?" I blink at him.

"Maybe this isn't a good idea- maybe we shouldn't-" My hands fidgets with my gloves eyes flicking from him to the city lights. He looks down...

"Sleep on it then?" He asks. I look back to him. He did that just to comfort me. I melt at the offer and nod. "And not to tell the others?" I nod again. I clear my throat backing away from him.

I did photography on the side. So I pulled my phone out. "Stay right there fucko." I say playfully. He chuckles. His smile real as he looks out at the city. Looking away. Perfect shot. Then his eyes look to me. A smile plastered on his face, hand against half of his face as his elbow rests on the gaurd rail. I click the picture. Muttering, "Adorable- bastard."

He just chuckled as I looked back to the city. 'We should just forget all about this and go home forget this happened.-...... but what if we run into my parents...'.   

There's a ding on Roman's phone. He looks down at it. "Logan says he's driving Pat home. He fell asleep. So guess I'm riding with you?"

"Nah you should call a cab. Your dancing stinks." I smirk. Pulling his hand back down the stairs he just laughs. We get back to the party room. "Think you can help me sneak out then or do you wanna dance some more?" I offer. He just smiles and pulls my hand to the dance floor again.

(Small time skip brought to you by food poisoning in how I met your mother)

Hours pass as the party simmers down. We steal a bottle of wine before sneaking out. Giggling the whole drive home. Joking at eachother. Laughing, smiling. We get home I plop down on his bed. Laughing a bit.

He smiles at me. Laying next to me. I turn smiling at him. My mouth closed. The soft look of contentment washing over me. He looked at my lips again and I look at his. Before  he leans more in I look away.

"Thanks for tonight." I sit up. Standing and walking to the door. "See you tomorrow princey?" He smiles and nods-. I walk out to my room. Leaning against the door when I close it. Biting my gloves off. Grinning.

I get undressed and put on some normal clothes. Taking off my make up and the pins out of my hair. I lay down but then my mind starts to wander. 'you know this is a bad idea virgil. He just liked you tonight for the glitz and glamor.' I sigh. "Thanks random voice in my head. You know I was in a good mood?" I huff getting comfortable for bed.

'he didn't mind you being trans. Or he secretly thinks you're a freak like everyone else.' "Can't you just leave it at the good note?" 'No'.

'youre in love with him aren't you?'

"No no, no I'm not." And as if to call me out my spotify plays 'Wont say I'm in love' from hercules. I sigh and shake my hand quietly singing as I look through the pictures I took tonight.

AND now I put it on repeat.- what am I doing with my life-.

Meanwhile---

Romans pov/////

Legit internal screaming for hours.

Won't say I'm innnnn love no chance no way I won't say it!

(He's been singing as well for hours. Listen I just picture them singing this nonstop together.)

Finally I sing another song. "City of stars are you shining just for me-... Oh city of stars. There's so much that I can't see.... Oh woah. Is this the start of something wonderful and new or one more dream..... I cannot make true." I hum more to he tune. Memories of him singing with me drifting through my memory as I fall into a slumber.

Third person.//////

(Trigger warning- kissing? Heavy kissing?)

They spend the next few weeks awkwardly avoiding the topic but the tension in the room gets heavier the longer it takes. Eventually Logan and Patton go on a trip and it's just Roman and Virgil alone. They decide to play games. And they both becomes really competitive. Then before roman wins. Virgil kisses him. Roughly. Making him drop his controller as virgil wins. Virgil pulls away and looks to the tv.

"Hey look I won." He says trying not to laugh. Roman is so flabbergasted and angry he grabs Virgils face and kisses him deeply. Hand in his hair. Virgils hands slowly place the controller down as Roman ends up leaning him down on the couch.
Virgil holding Romans waist as romans tongue traces Virgils lips. He lets out a small gasp of air. Opening the entrance for Roman. Softly. Virgils hands trace under Romans shirt to his shoulders and holds him like that. Roman leaning down more against him. Roman let's out a small noise of pleasure. As his tongue dips deeper.

Virgil lets out a gentle whine as Roman holds him so softly. He adjusts as romans hand trails up Virgils torso.

(I just realized I forgot to mention that virgil had gotten top surgery and used testosterone so like..... Do with that information what you will.)

Roman disconnected the kiss as they stare silently at eachother. Both stunned by the previous actions.

Then Roman starts to speak which suprised them both.

"I love you."

(Alright everyone! How did you like that one. If any of you were wondering the songs were from a movie called la la land and I feel like those songs fit prinxiety almost perfectly. Thanks everyone for reading and leave a comment to tell me how you liked it or if you have any requests for the next chapter. Thanks and I will see all you dudes! In the next videoiiioo)