Hello, oh my heart, this was really sad to write, lots of angst... read with caution. I have been working on this one for a while now, and I'm glad its finally ready. I really hope you like it, and please keep comments clean and Patton-friendly!

 warnings: character death, car crashes, serious illness, implied depression

Logan:

you walked down the long hall, your shoes clacking on the tile of the school hallway, towards the principals office, ready to face the principal and the teacher responsible for calling you. you sighed as you opened to the door to the head offices.

"they're in there" the administrator said, giving you a polite smile, trying to ignore how much you looked like you didn't belong there, you were happy with your life so far, with your dream job, and you past behind you, you were ready. 

you opened the door and stopped for a few seconds, you spotted the principal, who you had met before, and then the teacher. none other than Mr. Logan Sanders himself.

"Logan Sanders." Logan said as he stood up, recognition in his eyes, also a sadness as he scanned the child on the bench and then your slightly wrinkled face.

"Y/n." you said scanning Logan's face.

"I feel I know you?" Logan said, his eyes scanning your own, both of you know exactly who the other was.

"I have no idea what you are talking about, now... what has my child done wrong?" you said, walking past Logan and sitting on one of the chairs. he had to keep the pain inside as he sat, mere inches away  from you,

 he watched as the child hugged you, you whispering in its ear. as it nuzzled you, Logan remembering the daydreams of coming home to see you, your children running around, him pulling you in for one more kiss.

but he saw this would never be a reality, as you picked the child up, balancing them, as you grabbed your belongings and their backpack, headed out

Logan watched as you met someone in the doorway, speaking softly to that person, your child still balanced in your arms. Logan watched them glance at the child before leaning in, pecking your lips, you smiled as that person tucked some hair our of your face, Logan only now noticing the matching wedding rings.

Logan tried to keep the tears inside as he quickly ran to the staff bathroom, trying to keep his soft sobs inside. but failing as he truly realized how much he lost.

Patton: 

Patton was walking laughing with his significant other. after the break Patton decided it would be best to officially break it off. you got your dream job because of it, and Patton couldn't support you. but he soon found another love. one that he loved very dearly.

he was just now sitting at a table when he heard the door open, seeing a person, in fancier clothes, dark circles under their eyes as he watched them order something. their thing came quick as he soon realized it was you.

though he smiled at his loved one he couldn't help but glance your way. you looked pretty exhausted and lonely. you leaned against a wall, drinking your drink as you dialed the phone. you spoke softly into it, more wrinkles appearing on your face. you nodded at the phone, your eyes scanning the room, hopelessness rooted within them.

your gaze soon landed on Patton, he watched as tears pooled in your eyes, before you turned and walking out of the diner, Patton turning his attention back to his love, but you were outside, crying quietly in your car, wondering why it had to be like this

why couldn't you give up that invitation all those years ago, you loved Patton, you knew you always would, but he had moved on. you looked at him longingly through the window, seeing him kiss the whipped cream of his lovers nose, smiling. happy.

Patton was happier now, you kept repeating to yourself as you drove home, climbing into your soft pajama's and crying yourself to sleep.

Roman: 

Roman searched for you, far and wide, hunting you down, just wanting to say sorry, to get his angel back, but he never expected what he found, Roman was driving down the road, when he witnessed a car-crash. Roman quickly jumped out of his car to help, running over as he saw one family get out of one of the cars unharmed, he walked over the other car.

he easily recognized it as your as a agonized scream escaped his throat, him running towards it, nearly ripping the door off as your limp bruised body fell into his arms. you were still intact, your gorgeous face still shining, but with the unmistakable pale of someone who is no longer in this world.

Roman clutched on to you, begging you to come back to him, tears streaming down his face as he held you so incredibly close. Roman thought of all those Disney movies, how he would never get to watch those with you snuggling against his chest, you stealing his popcorn, then smiling at him because you knew he wouldn't get mad at you.

all most memories just came flooding as he begged you not to go.

the ambulance was called, and they had to pry you out of Roman's grip as Roman just scream and screamed and screamed, crying for you to come back, screaming that he loved you. sad his last words to you were 'where are you going' and 'I'm done listening, I want to keep you safe' 

he failed, he should have listened, and he should have kept you safe. now Roman was alone, in this world, without hope, because you were his hope. you were his angel.

Virgil: 

Virgil was so lost without you, his world quickly crumbling before him. he still saw you around, as you hung out with Janus more and more often, eventually growing very close with him, Virgil acted like he didn't care, but he did, he cared a lot. how could he just accuse you of that, you weren't cheating, Virgil knew that, but Virgil also knew he'd lost you, for good.

he soon heard that you and Janus had begun dating, and though he didn't mean to, he was kind of stalking you. his heart breaking seeing how happy and almost free you were and how many little kisses Janus constantly planted on your soft skin. Janus holding you close, Janus being the first one to try your cookies fresh from the oven, or the epic just dance competitions where Janus let you win, just to see your smile, Virgil could only watch

Virgil was a invited to the wedding, so scared to say anything, too scared to admit he still loved you, and would do almost anything to take that dreadful day back, to just trust you, like he knew he should have from the start. Virgil watched Janus lips meet yours. Janus lifting you up into his strong arms and carrying you out of the church. 

Virgil reapplied his eye shadow after crying in the bathroom, he couldn't bring it in himself to even say sorry, he watched at how happy you were to feed Janus some cake, while Janus fed you some as well. both of you loving it with a little smile.

when Virgil got home he couldn't take it anymore, and he soon just broke down crying. how could he think you could cheat, how could he have lost you, it truly sunk in at that moment he would never ever get you back.

Janus: 

Janus invited you to his wedding, as you had remained close friends, but you still loved Janus. you watched Janus falling in love again, with someone much better fitted for him. he smiled, looking down at them with living eyes, while you watched.

you were now helping get everything prepared, making sure everything was perfect, even if it wasn't yours, you were Janus best friend and nothing would change that, now that he was getting married, you would be only a best friend and nothing more.

everything was set, you gave Janus a pep talk, also giving his significant other a pep-talk as well. they hugged you, telling you amazing things about you, they had no idea you loved Janus, and you were so happy yet jealous they got to be with him.

Janus kissed his love with such passion that you couldn't help but wish it was you there. you couldn't help but wish he was holding you, whispering his vows to you, kissing you, holding you so close, but it wasn't you.

Janus spoke to you a lot after the wedding, and he started a family with his love, you becoming a close family friend. but the feelings still lingered. it was at that point you realized you would never move on from Janus Sanders.

but he thought it was better this way, and you would rather Janus be happy, than keep him for yourself, so you let go, watching him walk away, as you cried to yourself. convincing yourself this was the for the best. but you knew you were lying.

Remus: 

Remus didn't take the breakup well at all. he missed you so so badly, and even now, 8 months later, he could barely get out of bed. his life had fallen into disrepair as he searched for you. he wanted you back so badly he screamed. 

he cried himself to sleep every night, not finding any energy to do anything at all, not even being around Roman or Janus helped, so he had no idea what he should do. it all hurt, everything hurt.

Remus just found himself crying before getting a text from Patton.

"hey, Kiddo... I found it." Patton said simply, a link to a youtube channel. Remus checked it out and it was you. he then tried to catch up, crying harder and harder the more and more recent the videos got.

"so... I recently... broke up with my boyfriend. and I still love him." you said softly into the mic. looking at the camera, Remus feeling like you were looking at him as more and more tears leaked into his eyes.

"I love him so much, but it was better that we break apart. I have never told him this, but I'm sick... and I don't know if I'll get better. I didn't want to hurt him... he is everything to me... and I can't... I can't hurt him." you mutter into the mic, Remus nearly screaming out in agony wishing just once more that he could hold you.

"I love you, Panda." Remus whispered to his phone, as more tears leaked down his face.

"maybe I'll come back, maybe I won't... but I shall always love you... Remus." you said softly. 

I am so sorry, thank you so much for reading and I hope you liked it! I don't own the art so please give credit to the amazing artist, please remember you are loved and special, please do not hesitate to leave a request!

have a fantastic day!

Peaceful Lavender