Song 4 - Voices in My Head by NerdOut
*Warnings: Mention of rape*
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I looked down at his sinking form and briefly wondered if I had
gone too far. I rethought that. No, all of my actions
made sense. Anxiety was the one who wasn't making sense.
He had gone into a panic attack when I had grabbed
I don't think that I've gone to far
A little bit wild I know (little bit wild I know)
Pull your strings like a cheap guitar
Cus Baby I'm in control (Baby I'm in control)
his arm. Maybe that was a clue. I reached for his body and lifted up his sleeves
to reveal white gauze. Carefully I unwrapped his arms and discovered the
You feel it coming
You feel it in your bones
fresh cuts up and down his arms. I carefully re-wrapped the arms and
Release your monster
turned to Logic. It was time for some answers and it was quite
obvious that one of them knew what was going on. And seeing
as Morality couldn't keep a secret, it was probably Logic. He looked at me with
anger in his eyes and I was curious to find out what he thought I had
done wrong. He opened his mouth before I could open mine and the
sentiments he was asking about made me question what was going on
once more. "Look, Anxiety and I may be pretty big opposites when it comes to
lots of things, but you've gone way too far Princey. You're his husband
I love the voices in my head
You think I'm running off the edge
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
I love my life cus it's a mess
I'm living for the craziness
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
and it's one thing to be angry, it's another thing to tell your husband
that you wish you had never fallen in love with
him! What the hell is wrong with you?" I could tell he was
very angry. Logan is not one to swear, like ever.
Make me into your fantasy
But this is a horror show (this is a horror show)
Games you play they don't work on me
Cus I got tricks of my own (I got tricks of my own)
Had I actually said that? I had, hadn't I? Well that explains why Anxiety spun
into such a bad panic attack. But who was Hurc and what had his and
You feel it coming
You feel it in your bones
Anxiety's relationship meant to Anxiety? Was this all over before it began? I
Release your monster
hoped not. No matter what I had said or expressed, I still loved Anxiety
with all my heart and hoped he would be able to forgive me for
flying off the handle and providing him with more lies to tell himself instead of
truths. Speaking of him, his eyes were fluttering and his lips started to
move in speech. "No. You're lying! Prince does love me! He does! He
does more than you ever did. Get off of me! No, please. Stop!" A
bloodcurdling scream ripped from his lips and I shrunk back in shock and
astonishment. What had happened to my dear love, Anxiety? Logic
I love the voices in my head
You think I'm running off the edge
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
I love my life cus it's a mess
I'm living for the craziness
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
told me that it was all up to Anxiety to tell me what had happened with
him and Hurc. I placed a soothing hand to Anxiety's stomach and slowly
Maybe I like me broken
Maybe I like me broken
he woke up and came out of his panic attack. His eyes darted around rapidly
and he flinched at my touch. I pulled his sleeves up and kissed along
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
his fresh cuts. He looked confused to say the least. "Tell me what's wrong?"
I asked quietly, hovering in front of his face. Tears trekked down his face
Maybe I like me broken
Maybe I like me broken
and I wondered what he was about to say. "I promise it was a mistake. He forced
his way into my life and for a while I thought it was okay but it wasn't
and now you're hurt and I'm broken and you hate me an-and...." he
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
(Maybe I like me broken)
choked on his words and glanced over to Logic, seemingly having
a conversation through eye-contact alone. I could see all the raw emotion running
Maybe there's crazy in my blood
But I don't care
behind both sets of eyes. Logic looked unsure and Anxiety looked
broken. That kicked puppy look is the one that makes me want
to save him, it's his vulnerable side and his insecure side that made me realize
how much I had fallen in love with him. It was not something I would
ever be able to just retract. It was how I felt about every part of him,
every emotion or phase he would go through. Every thought that ever
entered his head was worth it, except for the ones where he expressed self-
loathing. But even some of those were important to me, because they
I love the voices in my head
You think I'm running off the edge
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
I love my life cus it's a mess
I'm living for the craziness
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
were him, every ounce was him. I brushed his hair away from his eyes
lightly. "He was taken advantage of." Logan said bluntly. My mind short
Maybe I like me broken
Maybe I like me broken
circuited and I had no clue of what that meant. "Taken advantage of?" I
murmured softly, trying to figure out what he meant by that. Morality
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
face palmed before he came over to wrap Anxiety in a hug. He even took
off his cardigan and wrapped Anxiety in it, as if he were a little child in
Maybe I like me broken
Maybe I like me broken
need of naptime. Anxiety moved away from me slightly to snuggle up into
Morality. I tried to brush his hair away from his forehead but Morality
You wanna fix me
But maybe I like me broken
beat me to it. "In other words," Logic started and I gave him my full attention as he finished speaking, "he was raped."
*Dun dun dun. Who saw this coming? Answer: Everyone but Prince. Thanks for reading and commenting on what I've written. Also, let me just make a note that English is in fact my first language and I write with my own style, regardless of my grammatical correctness. Also I am great friends with the grammar police, so you know. (:p) That being said, happy reading!*
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