(Some angst because i need to vent so im venting through fanfic)

(Virgils POV)

I lay in bed. Eyes wide open. I haven't gotten sleep in months. The guilt, sorrow, and anger laced with some sort of impossible fills my thoughts. I think back to earlier today when I was talking to one of my in real life friends. Roman. He was asking to meet some of my online friends. I agreed, knowing my friends need knew people to hang out with. I showed Roman a few funny conversations until I stumbled upon a few comments.

BlueBoiPat:

Hi Guys! How are you all doing!

RemyneedsSleepzzz:

Good

StormCloud280:

amazing now that your here ❤ 

BlueBoiPat:

O///O T-thats good

RemyneedsSleepzzz:

Oooo~ do i smell some shhhhiiip

BananaSnakeShake

BlueCloud280 for LIFFFEEE

Logan_

You're*

BlueBoiPat:

>////<  you all suck!

StormCloud280:

You love me and you know it~

I immediately shut off my phone. 

"Oooo~ What was that Virgil~" Roman cooed

I blushed and smiled sadly "Uhh. My ex..." 

I start to tear up as I grab my pillow and start to sob. I miss him. I miss him so much. I grab my phone and look through the old messages. I start crying more.

Why do I still love him. I should be over him. He's probably moved on. So why am I still clinging on. Why cant I let go.