**TWS ~ Trans Deceit, panic attack, soft kissing, tell me if I need to add anything.**

       DON'T READ IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED THE NEW EPISODE

       I REPEAT, DON'T READ IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED THE NEW EPISODE

       **Deceit's pov**

       Waking up, I sit against the wall behind my bed, slowly becoming more conscious. As soon as I'm fully conscious, I get up and start my morning routine. After taking a shower, and brushing my hair and teeth, I put on my binder and slip on a comfortable hoodie and sweatpants. Sadly, as a side of Thomas, I can't take T. Therefore, I can't stop my much dreaded period. I go downstairs to breakfast with everyone else and sit in my usual seat. 

       Patton and Roman serve the food and we all start eating. Mid-way through eating my eggs, a horrible cramp starts. I nearly double over with the sudden intensity of pain, "P-please excuse me.." I say and leave the dining room and go up to my room as fast as I can. (Sorry to all of the people who experience cramps if this is inaccurate, I've never had cramps myself so it's kinda hard to write about it. Tell me if I should fix something.) I collapse onto my bed and curl into the fetal position, shedding a few tears in the process as I wait for it to pass. 

       After what seems like forever, the cramp finally passes and I go back downstairs to finish my breakfast. I get through the rest of the morning, and as soon as I can, I find an excuse to go up to my room. I grab the heating pad from my closet and lay down with it, curling back into the fetal position. After a while, I grab my phone and start to scroll through Reddit. I feel my lower stomach muscles starting to clench, so I brace for the pain. But, what I was delivered was way worse than any cramps I've had. I put a hand over my mouth to stifle a scream that sure would've came out. My room isn't soundproof, so I can't really make too much noise or the others will hear. Instead of screaming, I start sobbing to myself.

       **Remy's pov**

       I walk down the long hallway towards the living room because I told Roman I'd help him rehearse for whatever it is this time, but as I'm walking down the hallway, I hear noises coming from someone's room. I slow down and try to listen what they are, and I hear... sobs? I'm pretty sure they're coming from Jan's room. Stopping, I turn to face his door and softly knock, "Janny? Baby are you okay?" I ask from outside. I can hear the sobs stop from inside and then I hear them become louder and I start hearing hyperventilating.

       **Janus' pov**

       No no no no no no NO! No, he can't find out! It'll ruin our relationship! Before I knew it I was starting to go into a panic attack, and apparently I had sat up at some point in my suffering, but everything just worsens when he opens the door and comes into my room. "Hey, hey, baby, calm down, it's okay..." he says to me while going in to hug me. I shake my head because I can't exactly form words right now. He nods in response and instead kneels down beside my bed and puts his hand on my thigh. He tells me soothing things and rubs my thigh until I'm more calm.

       I open my arms for him to hug me, and he takes the offer almost immidently and hugs me tight. "Are you okay now baby?" He asks. "I th-think so.." I reply as he sits on the bed next to me. "Is it okay if I ask what happened?" The taller male inquires, and in response, I nod with a sigh. "You're going to find out anyways. I'm trans and my cramps are just getting really bad. As a part of Thomas, I can't take T, so I can't stop my period... please don't hate me..." I explain and hug him tighter with tears pricking at my eyes, threatening to spill over again. "Oh honey, I could never hate you. You being trans doesn't change anything. You're still my handsome baby boy, no matter what you were born with." He says and pulls out of the hug and pulls me in for a kiss.

       I pull away and feel a few tears falling down my face, "Oh! Did I say something?" He panics, "No, n-no. I'm just.. so happy that I-I told you..." I say with a smile on my face "Now come on, I want cuddles." I say and earn a chuckle from my boyfriend.

       (I enjoyed writing this one, thanks for reading!)

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