This is, once again, angst. Because that's all I can get my mind to think of.

Also there's an announcement at the end of the chapter (it's kind of important)

TW: suicide, self harm, this is really really angsty, be safe y'all it's a heavy chapter

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A letter sat on each sides bed. A letter that sent every side into a panic and into a scramble to try and fix everything. They all found them within minutes of each other.

The first to find it was Logan. The letter on his bed read:

Dear Logan,

I know that you've said that I have a purpose and that Thomas needs me, but I can't help the overwhelming feeling that you're wrong. And that's because you are. I am just anxiety. Someone Thomas doesn't need. Thomas will be better off without me and there is no way you can convince me otherwise. Don't let Patton find me, it will scar him.

You have to help Patton and Roman and you have to tell them that everything will be fine. It will be better without me.

Yours truly,
V. A. Sanders

The next to find his letter was Deceit.

Deceit,

You were a good friend. I liked being with the dark sides for quite some time and I think I've messed up. I went to the light sides because I thought it would be better, but it's not. I can't do my job properly and I just don't have a purpose anymore. I've slowly started fading. Just like paranoia. And since I was paranoia, I really am going to be gone soon. I love you as a friend and wish that I had stayed with the dark sides.

Yours truly,
Anx

Then the next,

Pat,

I'm going to miss you. I have loved all of the good times we've had together and I'm going to miss baking cookies with you and watching Alice in Wonderland until midnight. I'm going to miss the way you could calm me down and I'm going to miss you. Know that this isn't your fault. There's nothing you could've done to stop me from going. You have always been a great father figure to me and I couldn't have asked for a better friend. But even as you always were there for me, I've started fading. I don't want to go, but in a way, this has been an answer to a want that I've always had.

I'm going to miss you so much and I hope you will always remember me,

Yours truly,
Virge

Then another,

Remus,

I'm sorry for leaving you when you needed me most. I'm sorry for leaving the dark sides. And I'm sorry that I lied and said I didn't like Jeffrey Dahmer. I like looking at serial killer documentaries and I wish that I could have more time to watch those with you. In my final hours as a side, I have been writing these letters and have been making little plushes for each of you. Yours is a tiny octopus. I'm giving these to you so you can hand them out to everyone. Logan's is the bear, Deceit's is the snake, Patton's is the kitten, and Roman's is the tiger. I stitched them all myself. I'm going to miss your crazy laugh and your endless bad metaphors.

Yours truly,
Ani

Then another,

My love,

I'm going to miss you. I love you so much and there's so many things that I want to say. Things like I've always loved when you wake me up by singing into my ear. Or like how I've always kept that MCR painting that you gave me two Christmas' ago. It's in my closet, behind all of the MCR hoodies. Or how I've loved you since about the first moment I saw you.

I'm going to miss your never ending list of nicknames. I'm going to miss your smile and your laugh. I'm going to miss your strong arms for the way they hold me up and cuddle me when I need it. I'm going to miss your love. And I'm just going to miss you.

You are incredible and insanely talented. You are my everything and you have always been. You are so much better than me and Thomas will always need you. There is no one else I would rather live and take my place than you.

You are my favorite person in the whole world. Don't be sad that I'm gone. But be happy that you get to live and I'm positive that you will make such great work when I'm gone.

Yours truly forever,
"Angel-eyes" Sanders

And finally, the one that no one would ever find.

Dear Virgil,

You are worthless. You make the others feel bad and you hold Thomas back. You don't deserve to be here.

You lie to everyone. Take the letters you just wrote for example. The only person who will know is deceit. And you know he won't tell. You aren't really fading you lying son of a bitch. You are always the center of attention and you don't deserve any of them. You don't deserve their love. So go ahead and take those pills. Overdose on them. No one will truly miss you.

Yours truly,
Virgil

By the time the others got there, he was already gone. Laying on his bed, wrists slit and bleeding. Logan found him. And he did something he almost never did. He cried, right in front of everyone when he rushed into the commons and tried to find everyone. They were all clutching their letters in their hands and crying violently. They all ran to see if that was really what was happening and they saw him, expressionless.

His face slightly grayed from lack of life. And finally, Virgil was at peace.

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See? I told you it would be heavy.

This was a very sad chapter to write but I've had this idea for a long time. And I feel like with the funk I'm in it was the right time to write it.

I think I'm going to slow down on chapters. I'm not super happy with the content I've been creating and I need to take my mind off of things. I know I'm not obligated to write, but sometimes I feel like I have to write a chapter a day or sometimes even two chapters a day. And I'm burning myself out. But not just because you this.

I hope you guys aren't too mad or disappointed.

Anyways! Have a great day/night, lovelies!

-Skye