Alright so Virgil is trans in this. Fem -> male. His dead name is kyran.

TW: misgendering, homophobia/homophobic slurs (I'm sorry I hate it too), self-deprecation, dysphoria,

Trans! Virgil
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Virgil looked in the mirror. He couldn't help looking at his body and seeing just how feminine he looked. He adjusted his too small sports bra (it was his way of trying to bind) and turned sideways to look at his flattened chest. Well, semi-flattened. He used to think that it was just self consciousness, but he was (and still is) just really dysphoric all the time.

Do I even pass as a man?

Will I ever pass?

What if I'm not trans and I just really hate myself?

Just then, his phone alarm rang to tell him that he needed to get to school.

He grabbed his house keys and walked out the door, calling goodbye to his dad first, then picking up his phone and dialing his boyfriends number

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"Yo, Kyran! Are you still trying to be a pretend f*g?" Jake called from down the hallway.

"Yeah! Why are you just being an attention seeking bitch?" Ram shouted.

The football players... great. Virgil thought as he continued down the hallway, books still in his hands. He just wanted to get to his locker and go home. He tried to pay them no attention. But hearing his dead name and being purposely misgendered really hurt. Especially since he was extremely dysphoric all day.

"Don't ignore us, girl." Ram said as the two trailed behind Virgil closely.

"Just leave me alone. And I'm not a girl. And my name isn't Kyran, it's Virgil. So please stop calling me that." Virgil said without batting them an eye, but his anxiety spiked more and more.

"Oh come on! Don't expect us to believe all of that bullshit you say to everyone. Your voice is as feminine as they come! There's two genders, halfwit. You have to be born as your gender. Male and Female. Whatever you're trying to be doesn't even exist!" Jake said with a smirk.

"Hey! Get away from him!" Someone shouted from in front of them. It was Roman. Roman walked up to Virgil and slung an arm around his shoulders, "that's my boyfriend you are talking to and you can bet your asses that I can and will get you kicked off the football team before the season is over if you continue this." Roman said and got into their faces, his voice so low it was almost a growl.

They scoffed and then scurried off to go terrorize someone else (probably).

"Are you alright, Stormcloud?" Roman asked as he looked Virgil in the eyes.

Virgil just leaned in to hug him. His head rested on romans shoulder and he felt more at ease. Roman kissed his head and hugged him tighter.

"Don't listen to them, love. They don't know what their talking about and you are so beautiful just the way you are. I love you so much." Roman just swayed them back and forth.

Virgil just nodded and swayed along with Roman. They were about the last ones in that hallway. Virgil pushed back and made his way to his locker, his mood improved but not completely better. He still felt so feminine.

Roman noticed and walked to stand next to him. He grabbed Virgil's hand and kissed the back of it.

"How about we go and get some coffee at our favorite coffee shop off 18th street? Then we can go down by the river and sit in your favorite tree. How does that sound?" Roman asked and smiled.

Virgil chuckled at his boyfriends attempt to cheer him up. He grabbed his bag and closed his locker. He leaned over and gave Roman a kiss on his lips.

"I would love that." Virgil said quietly, hating the way his voice sounds. It was so high and feminine.

They walked out the front doors of the school and walked to the park where they always met Patton and Logan. Patton had on a purple bracelet that day, signifying they were going by they/them pronouns that day.

"Hey pat, hey lo," Roman said as he looked at the bracelet on Patton's wrist. Patton always went by Patton no matter what pronouns they were using, "how are you today?"

"I'm doing adequately today." Logan replied with a light smile. He always loved when all of his friends were in one place and he could have a civil, pleasant conversation with all of them. Most of his day was filled with incompetent people who didn't know the proper use of the word legit. He always was the top of his class but even the AP students seemed to not understand his general dislike for them.

"I'm doing great kiddo! Lo and I were just talking about how the big game against the Razorbacks are coming up! I'm so excited! We get to do the best formations of all time in this game!" Patton was the cheer captain at the school, and so they were always talking about that. They loved all of the people on the team, but could be very scary when one of the sleazy football players tried to seduce the cheerleaders.

"That's great, Pat! I'm excited too! We are going to crush them on Sunday!" Roman said, his competitive side coming out. Virgil looked up at his boyfriend and then over at Patton, they were just chatting away about the game.

"Virgil, we have something for you." Logan said , clearing his throat and slung off his backpack. Patton noticed and turned to face him.

"Yeah! It's something you've been wanting for quite some time!" Patton said with a huge smile.

"We all pitched in to help buy it."
Roman said. Logan pulled out a package. He handed the package to Virgil.

"What is it?" Virgil said and inspected the package.

"You have to open it to find out." Logan said and tried to hide his smile.

Virgil ripped the packaging and felt something kind of clothy inside. His eyes widened. He pulled it out. His eyes started to water.

"You're kidding!" Virgil said as he inspected it closer. Everyone just shook their heads. He unfolded it and burst into tears. It was a binder.

"Oh my God! This is amazing! I love it!" He said and hugged them all tightly. Once they pulled back none of them could suppress a smile.

"We thought that would work better than your current... attire." Logan said with a laugh. All of them knew about Virgil's (mostly) failed attempts at binding without a proper binder. They all laughed.

"Now kiddo, you can't bind for more than 8 hours, even when it becomes second nature. You have to stay healthy." Patton said, but shot him a smile.

"Well... go try it on!" Roman said and pushed him towards the bathrooms.

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Moment of truth... Virgil thought as he walked out of the stall and stood so he was in front of the mirror. He turned sideways and his chest was almost completely flat. Once he put on a shirt it would be like he had a flat chest naturally! He started to laugh and cry at the same time. This was the best day ever.

He called the others in and they came in and saw him standing there with a huge smile on his face.

"Aw kiddo you look great!!!!" Patton said and ran up to give him a bear hug. The others soon joined in.

He finally felt masculine

(1262 words)

That was so great to write! except for the homophobic part... but I really love this chapter! I love the feelings of just happiness and finally feeling like yourself.

This is kind of a venting chapter as well...

I made a book that's just me venting and ranting about my life and the first chapter is about friends and internet friends so if you want to read that, it's a thing!

Anyways! Have a great day/night lovelies!

-Skye