TW: ptsd, nightmare, panic attack/crying, minor self harm (tell me if I need more)

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(Patton's POV)

"Babe!" His voice rang out loud in my mind. His hits. His punches. His words.

"Baby?" Logan asked innocently. His words kind and loving. His soft embrace. His kisses.
Logan is towering over me, my face is bloody, and bruised. His fist raised in a hitting position. "You are useless. Nothing but a childish, ungrateful, whiney, bitch!" Logan screamed.

"No! Don't hurt me!" I screamed

But the hits kept coming and he didn't stop. This kept going for a few minutes.

I woke up crying and with Logan cuddling me. I slowly and quietly slipped out of his grasp. I crawled into the bathroom and closed and locked the door. I let a few sobs escape my mouth, but I covered my mouth with my hand. I pinched my arms, a way of hurting myself without marks (except for bruises here and there), so Logan wouldn't know. I slowly brought my voice to a normal tone. I could do this with still crying from practice.

"Baby? Are you in there?" Logan asked and I choked back a sob.

(No ones POV)

"Yeah- yeah I was just- using the bathroom." Patton said.

"Are you alright baby?" Logan asked, he was not convinced with Patton's tone of voice.

"Yes-yes of course! Why wouldn't I be?" He tried to choke back a sob but failed.

"Baby? I'm coming in." Logan said trying to turn the knob. But it was locked.

"No, no please, don't hurt me." Patton said.

Logan sighed and sat facing the door. He pressed his forehead to the door and placed his hand on the door as well. "I could never hurt you, love, your too important to me. I love you so much and I am not like him." Logan could hear a sob come from Patton and he slightly knocked on the door. "I'm not angry with you. I could never be angry with you. I love you too much." Logan sat up a little. "Please let me in," he whispered.

Patton choked out a sob as he reached for the handle. He unlocked it and turned it, opening the door slowly. Logan got up and was heartbroken by his face. Tear stained and hurt present in his eyes. He looked him up and down and could tell Patton had been pinching himself. He knew by the marks on his forearms that Patton thought he couldn't see. He reached for his marked arms and Patton flinched slightly.

"It's ok baby I just want to help." Logan said. He took his arms and kissed along the marks. Patton cried again and leaned into Logan. Logan presses kisses to Patton temple and to his forehead and up and down his marked arms.

"I love you so much baby." Logan said with a sigh as he led Patton back to bed.

"As do I, love" Patton replied.

They laid down and Logan made a note to ask what had happened to cause him to get up in the first place.

(514 words)

Yaaaay angst. I'm going to see dear Evan Hansen today and I'm sooo excited!

Our friendship goes beyond,

Your average kind of bond.

But not because we're gay,

No not because we're gay,

We're close but not that way,

The only man that I love is my dad.

Well AnYwAy

(November 29, 2019)