Triggers: self harm, cutting, suicide, mentioned death, a break up (is that even a trigger?), blood.

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Virgil, my darling, my love.

It's been two years since i've lost you, two years since you've been gone.
I haven't seen your beautiful smile for so long.

I've tried everything, darling. Everything to try and get you back.

Roman sat at his desk, head in his hands as the tears rolled down his face like rivers. He had failed, he had failed Virgil. None of his idea's worked, none of them brought Virgil back, or helped him get over his loss. "I am a mistake" he mumbled through the tears. He felt like he was getting stabbed. He started shaking, "I will do better next time, I promise."

Therapy did not work.

"Roman? I need you to try and copy my breathing, alright?" Emile said. Roman did not hear him. He was lying on the floor, crying, barely able to breathe. He didn't want to live. How could he live without Virgil by his side? Emile spoke again, "Roman, can you please focus on me? I can help you, everything will be alright." Roman kept crying. It did not work. It would never work.

Neither did moving on.

"N- No! Please! Don't leave me!" Roman cried out. He clung to Deceit, who shoved Roman away like he was nothing, "We're not meant to be, Ro. You just don't seem to care enough about me. It's all about you and getting over Virgil." He said. Deceit clenched his fists as a tear rolled down his face. "I miss him too, y'know?! You're not the only one here who cared about him! I'm sorry Ro.." Deceit took one last look at Roman, who sat on the ground and looked at him with pleading eyes. Then, he turned around and left.

I miss you so much, it's turning me insane.

"Roman! Stop it! Let go!" Remus shouted, as he tried to take the knife away from his twin brother. Roman was covered in blood, his own blood. It ran down his arms and soaked his clothes. Remus managed to grab the knife and backed away from Roman. Remus usually liked this sort of things, but not from Roman. He couldn't stand seeing his twin like this. Roman broke down on the floor, his tears mixing with the blood. He had failed another person. First he failed Virgil, then Emile, then Deceit, and now Remus. It was just too much.
"I- I'm sorry-" he choked.

But darling, I think I have found a way. A way we can be together again. I'm sorry that it took so long, but the time is finally here.

Virgil, my darling, my love,
See you soon.

Your dearest, Roman.

Roman's hand was shaking as he wrote the last sentence of the letter.
He put it in an envelope, closed it, and tied it around his wrist with a red string.

He took a deep breath and closed his eyes, ready to see Virgil again.

Then, his finger pulled the trigger of the gun beside his head.

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I cried while writing that-