Hi everyone, I'm so so so so so so so so so so SO sorry for not updating this story as much as I intended.... I need to vent and explain to you all and you guys are all such a supportive bunch of people and I love you all, so quick rant and I'm going to see if I can rack my brains for a new story.

With this lockdown things are very very stressful for me at the moment. I still have to go to work and I'm finishing quite late. I'm scared for everyone I know, care about and love. Being one who suffers with server generalised anxiety disorder and autism spectrum disorder I'm personally finding this all very difficult. I live with my aunt and uncle, 2 teenage cousins 3/4 still working and my grandad. My grandad is terribly at risk:73 years old with COPD and suspected dementia. He is getting worse everyday and I'm terrified that he's going to get it and we lose him but my only escape from the house is to work or walk my dogs and I go to the shops if we need anything. This lockdown is messing with my anxiety a lot and I'm finding it very hard to do anything right now. I'm even struggling at won't even though I've just asked to go full time because it's my only escape. I've been having anxiety attacks at work and the one thing that seems to help is a hug and we can't even do that anymore. Here in England people still aren't following the rules properly so we are at risk of an even longer lockdown and possibly a complete one so I can't even go to work either. I really need you all to do me a favour and help get the message out that we all need to stay home. Please please please stay home. Love you all stay safe and thank you for reading I'll get a new part out soon much love ❤️❤️