This is straight angst, sorry for doing so twice in a row, but I'm sad rn, so...

Tw: Suicidal thoughts, insults, feeling useless or meaningless, let me know if I forgot anything!

I feel useless.

I feel broken.

All of the light sides are so nice and contribute something meaningful, while I'm just here, being useless.

I know why I feel like this right now, Patton got upset because I forgot to clean something, I don't remember what. Either which way, I didn't do it, and I thought I did, so I told him that, and now he's upset.

He called me stupid. He apologized profusely, but I know he meant it, besides, Roman said he shouldn't take it back when it's true, and it is, so he shouldn't have.

They should have left me to suffer with the dark sides, because I can't do anything right, but at least there I'm not hurting anything important.

I wish I would just die. I wish I could restart, or something.

I would have rather died than make Patton so upset he would insult me. Now I know what they all really think of me.

A useless bag of garbage. A piece of trash that should have been thrown out years ago. One that sits there, takes up space and oxygen, but gives nothing to the things around it other than it being there.

I wish I could restart. Start from a save point. But that doesn't happen in real life, so dying is the next option down

Hopefully I feel better tommorow, if I make it. I don't know if I can do this anymore, I don't really think I can.

I wish I could have a hug, but no-one wants to hug a monster like me. No-one wants to even be around me.

I feel like I radiate a sort of bad energy, like a cloud of black smoke far away on a perfect day. No-one wants it to come anywhere near them, because they are enjoying their own beautiful day, their own sunlight.

Well, I guess I have too see tommorow, where I'll probably get yelled at more, that doesn't mean I have to like it. I'll hate every second of it, I wish I could die, but that's probably the most selfish thing I could do right now. That's a lie, it's probably the best thing I could do for the others. No-one would care if I ended it all right now, maybe no-one would even see.

Well, goodbye for now, time to sleep and hate tommorow

I warned you about the angst, I'm not in the best headspace right now, I think I'm gonna sleep and hate myself further. Oh well

Thanks for reading, hope you enjoyed

-Rosey