(This angst train isn't stopping)

Logan stood outside the room and felt liquid sliding down his cheeks. He put his hand to feel whatever it was. Tears. Warm tears. He realized he was crying. He walked to his room and went inside. He sat at his desk and stared at the photos. The photos were taken by Virgil and had little messages. He picked one up and smiled at the caption. "Teach is so cool. But not as cool as learning." Logan knew he put that there for him to read and now the message was tainted. Every message was now tainted. Guilt and meaningless wishes eating away at Logan. He put the photo down and looked behind him. He had a shirt on his bed. It was a present Virgil made for his birthday. It has in a small text where his heart was located. It said, "Coolest Teacher ever." Now Logan knew for sure that he was crying. He remembered all the fond memories he shared with the younger. Virgil was always his best student and he had helped him over the years whenever he was overworking himself or upset. Logan had a collage of photos that Virgil took of them wearing Onesies. He remembered how Virgil taught him about complicated feelings and emotions. Logan was a silent crier but Virgil would somehow know that Logan was crying and come to help. Logan felt like he was suffocating at the negative feelings choking him.
He used to be able to be distant from the others even when Patton tried to involve him. He used to be able to hide everything from the traits. Secrets, emotions, pain, and feelings. But once Virgil arrived he knew everything was going to change. His eyes widened when he remembered something important.
Virgil's 16th birthday.
It was only a few weeks away and Patton had planned everything. He remembered Virgil giving him a slip of paper that had the date of the incident with a sad face. Virgil was trying to call for help. He also said that the date was going to be special and it will change everything. He said he doesn't like the date. Logan could've told Patton. Now the guilt felt like it was tearing away his flesh and biting into his bones.
Logan was now laying on the bed crying his eyes out. Remembering every fond memory he had with him. He was also wondering why. Why should he be feeling so crush when the thing he should be doing is moving on. He realized that moving on isn't so easy and the fond moments will hold him back from moving on. He couldn't do it. He couldn't do it. He can't do it. He can't do it without Virgil. But he's gone forever.