I needa rant somewhere
So today is NOT my day
Im sick, like SICK
my stomach feels like its tied into 30 knots and it also feels like its on fire
Im so inspired today!
But my anxiety is telling me that all my ideas are horrible, and noone will like them
I didnt wanna get up today, i really didnt, it took me like, 20 minutes of staring at the wall and convincing myself to get up and go
I put on some makeup today and everything in my body told me that it was horrible, and it didnt look good at all.
Gender dysphorias bein OH SO NICE TODAY
Its like a tiny voice going

"oooooooooooooooooo, that chest dont look too flat to me hun"

"Mmmmm, You look so girly"

"Why are you such a freak (Deadname)"

Yeah
SO KIND

Anyways, i just wanted to rant, Im sorry, but, i needed too, cuz this book is like, my safe space :c
Its somewhere i can express myself and be myself
so yeah, thanks guys
Imma go (Try to) write a new chapter
Hope you guys enjoy the next few chapters