A/N: IM SO SORRY I HAVENT BEEN POSTING!!! Hopefully my motivation will returm after writing a few oneshots-
anyways, this oneshot was requested by VermillionGust !!!
Warning!!! This oneshot will contain angst!
I might write this in first person-
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Reapers POV
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I remember the last time I heard his voice. It sickens me to think about. I remember the small chuckles I would sometimes get out of him, and I remember how giddy i used to get over it. I remember the feeling I got when we touched, it was...amazing. Magical even.

That doesnt matter much now, does it? I don't know why I keep thinking about it. Its just stuck in my memory. How can such a positive thing be laced with such horrible emotions? At this point, do I even know what those are?

The vague remembrence of how i'd feel around him, as if he were special in some sort of way. I don't get it. I don't get why I took any intrerest in him. He never showed any interest in me, so why did i even try to begin with?

After our fight, I guess people could say ive changed. I don't know if thats much of an important matter, nobody really seems to care much about the embodiment of death until he shows up at their doorsetp, huh?

For some reason, his words took a toll on me at first. I just, snapped? I guess thats where a cycle of changes began.

I havent exactly seen much of anything since that day. Ive lost all need and want for anything. I guess I kinda checked myself into reality after I left Geno. I realized I'd never amount to what he wanted. I think I just accepted that after a while. Every day i'd repeat the same words to myself in attempt to let go.

he doesn't need you anymore. He never did. Let him go, he will never love you.

I guess after a while it worked. All feeling I had for him dissapeared. Then again, nearly all of my feeling have dissapeared since then. I kind f just shut down agterwards. Its honestly been kind of nice, but at times, I do miss the feeling i'd get when I was around Geno.

Ive also been avoiding my job, I guess thats gotta stop someday. I havent left this AU in quite some time now. I heard that there is some sort of council meeting though, I guess those had always served some importance.

I open a portal to the imfamous star sanses base. Those guys never liked me. They always assumed I was one of the 'bad sanses' for doing my job. That got annoying real quick.

I step through the poertal, not exactly knowing what to expect. Except maybe a headache after I get this over with. he portal closes behind me. I look around for a moment. There were doezens upon doezens of people there. Socializing was never my stong suit. I began to walk through the crowd, careful not to touch anyone. Accidently killing someone would not exactly be a great second first impression.

I got quite a few stares as I made my way through the influx of people. I ignored them rather easily. As death, you get used to stares like that. They used to bug me, but I understand. I always have. Except now the looks of fear and disgust don't phase me.

I reached the front of the crowd and stopped. I heard some mumbles and mutters. I looked around, some semed concerned. Geez, I get that im death and all that but I cant't be that ugly.

I heard a gasp, the crowd went silent. That can't be good. I turn around to see what the commotion was about.

But instead, I was met with an all too familliar face.

Geno.

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Genos POV
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It was him. It was really him.

"Reaper...?"

I felt my eyes well up with tears. I can't describe how relieved I am. Hes alive. But I don't think hes well...

His eyes met mine, they seemed so..dead. So empty. The bags under his eyes got even worse. He looked horrible. What happened to him?...

I ran over to him and engulfed him in a hug. I misssed this. I missed this so much. I missed this feeling more than anything in the world. I can't believe i drove him away

"Reaper..Im so, so sorry...I missed you so much.." Tears began to pour from my eyes. This is all my fault.

He remained still, but eventually returned the embrace.

"Uhm..I think we need to talk." Reaper suggested. I sighed and oulled away from him. He was right, we do need to talk. I need to make things right again.

Reaper grabbed my hand and twleported us somewhere away from all the people.

I began to speak.

"Reaper I..Im so sorry for how I treated you last time we spoke...I was angry and I took it out on you. I know it's not an exscuse but I truly am sorry...I missed you so much..."

Reaper smiled softly, but it didn't seem very sincere. Which worried me.

"Geno, Its completley fine. It's not like it matters anymore anyways." Reaper says, so blandly. All the emotion in his voice was gone. This is not how reaper usually acts. Something happened.

"What do you mean..?' I ask with caution and concern.

He looks at me again, his face once again expressionless.

"It just dosent matter. It never really did if im being honest. I guess I just finally realized it. When you're constantly hurting all the time you learn to depend on someone to make you happy. You were the only person who could do that geno."

All I can see in his eyes is hurt.

"You never failed to make me smile. Your laugh lit up my soul. Being around you caused fireworks to explode in my stomach. When I was with you, everything seemed okay. Like things would get better. I saw then, and now, that i was painfully wrong."

I felt a blush surfce to my cheeks.

"But even when we were together, every jab you would make towards me only made things worse. Your insults only added on to the guilt and anxiety I had been feeling already. I always thought you said those things because I was hurting you. I never wanted to hurt you Geno. Never. All I ever wanted to do was be with you. I guess that when you said all those things the last time we spoke, you meant them. So I left. Hoping it would be better for you in the long run."

My head sunk down to the floor. Tears began to wet my cheeks again.

"When I left, I started to accept thing for how they were. I accpeted the fact that you would never feel the same way I did. You would never love me. So I found a way to stop those feelings. But I guess that just made things worse huh."

He..loved me?...I grew even more confused. I think he could tell.

He sighed.

"Geno. what im trying to say is, you have nothing to worry about. I can't feel anything anymore. Ive lost that ability a while ago. I guess I just bnever realized that you would care at all. and for that, I am sorry."

My heart sank. He lost his feelings. He lost everything. and its all my fault. My tears only fell faster. I began to sob. This is all my fault.

"R-reaper..I-Im so sorry! I-I didn't mean t-to hurt you!" My words came out slurred.

Reaper looked at me with sad eyes. But I knew he didn't fee it. Which only made things worse.

"Geno, don't feel guilty. This is for the best. If you wanna be friends still then I wont be opposed. But this is better for both of us. You don't have to put up with me anymore, and for me, the constant sadness has stopped."

I looked up at him with teary eyes. My vision was blurred from the tears.

"Geno, its okay really. I have to go, but we can meet up sometime soon, yeah? See ya later geno."

He walked off through a portal and left. Guilt consumed me. This was all my fault. I found someone who loved me the way I loved them and i was too thick headed to see it. I only caused him more pain. I drove him away.

I want to make it right, but I know I wont be able to. Im glad he doesnt hate me. But then again...

Maybe it would hurt less if he did...

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A/N: AAAAANNNDDDD DONE!!!!
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