I miss Harry...I miss Harry so fucking much! I'm not happy here. I'm just in a house full of people who wouldn't care if I wanted to drink poison or not. In fact, all they cared about recently was my artwork. "I'm not in the mood to make another god damn painting! Can't you fucking see that I'm hurting right now?!" I shouted at my mum when she kept bugging me about painting another piece of work. "You are going to paint another one, whether you like it or not!" She shouts back and storms out of my room. I threw my phone the door as it closed. When it hit the floor, I saw the screen light up, and I grew sad...even more sad than I already was.

It was a picture of my Hazza kissing me. It was the night when he promised his future with me. I still have the ring too. I'm never going to take it off truthfully. It means so much to me, and I'm still his boyfriend at the end of the day. I hope that he knows the same thing. I hope that he knows that I'll stay with him even though we aren't close.

We are in this together, whether we like it or not. Which is something that I really like. Because if Harry leaves from my life, then that truly means that I'm alone. It's always a painful thing to think about. Being alone when you once had a warrior right by your side. Him and I are still fighting depression together, but as we are apart...the depression worsens.

I stood up and actually went to get my phone. I picked it up and saw the shattered that I created. However, nothing that is shattered is going to top my shattered heart. "How am I functioning without you?" I asked as I admired the photo.

"How am I going on with life without you here?" I then asked as I laid on the ground. "You better be painting in there!" My dad shouted, but I ignored them. "I want to paint you. I want to see you again...I want to see you again!" I began to cry, but there was tapping at my window that stopped me from full on sobbing. I looked up and I saw my curly haired boyfriend. "Harry?" I whispered before I stood up and walked to my window. I opened it and I immediately pulled him in.

"What are you doing her-" "I'm sorry...I'm sorry. I wanted to surprise you on our 1 year and I thought a song would be great since you did that for me. I was just meeting with people who are in the industry because I wanted it to be perfect. Then my laptop issue...I was looking at rings. Engagement rings- but I wasn't buying one! I was just looking. I was kind of hesitant on telling you that because we are still a bit early in the relationship to think about engagement, but I can't freaking go another day without you. It's either me confessing or me ending my life, or painting till my hand broke off. I love you okay. I love no one else, but you. I just wanted to prove it to you through a song, because you made me that really sweet one. This is my first relationship too, and to be honest, I don't know what I'm doing half of the time. I shouldn't have dragged this shit for so long, but I didn't know how to ha-"

I kissed him, and just like that, it felt like hundreds of minions were inside of my chest, fixing up my heart. His arms were around me for the first time in a while and I felt like crying. When I pulled away, I saw tears running down his face. We both mirrored each other unknowingly and we wiped the tears away. We both laughed quietly at our silly moment before it grew a bit serious.

"I missed you Hazza...oh my fucking god, I missed you," I said before I hugged him, absorbing all of the warmth from his body. "I missed you too Lou. So damn much," he tells me in return as we hugged each other tightly. "Why aren't you pai- what the fuck! What's going on in here?!" "Oh Lottie..um...Harry and I talked it out and we're good, so I'll be moving out again." "You guys broke up though!" "No? Did you say that we broke up?" Harry asked. "I never talked to them actually, but Lottie for your information, we never broke up. Just needed a small break, but that was fucking painful, so we won't be doing that again." "I agree," Harry says as his arms were kept around my waist.

I smiled and leaned into his body, looking at Lottie at the same time. She was glaring, but I didn't care. My attention was drawn right back to Harry again. "I want to hear the song!" "What?" "Oh yeah. That was who Harry was seeing. A music producer. Not some side dick." "Would never look for one when I have a lovely main course right here," he says and squeezed my hips a little. I giggled before I walked him to my bed. "You can leave now, I want to heard him sign to me alone," I said.

Lottie snarled and stomped out of my room. We waited a little before Harry grabbed my guitar and he started to sing...to me!

When he finished, I was crying even more. "Uhmm...you can say if it's bad, it pr-" "Oh shut up and kiss me," I said as I leaned over and pressed my lips to his again. "I love you so much," I said and I kissed him multiple times. "So you don't find it weird that I was looking at engagement rings?" "Of course not! Helloooo? I have been hinting that I want to marry you at some point. Imagining you proposing to me is a dream Hazza."

"Okay, so I need to make another confession..." "Oh?" "Yeah, I lied about the just looking part. I bought a ring just the other day..." "Harry..." "I really have been thinking about us and everything that we have been through. I've been thinking about how happy I am with you, and that just brought me to this..." He reached into his front pocket and I saw him pull a ring out of it.

Oh...my fucking god! "I know that we were very heartbroken this past month, but that just made me so sure about how crazy I am for you." "Oh my gosh..." "Louis William Tomlinson, will you do me the honor of making the happiest man to ever touch this planet..." "Harry, my gosh!" "And marry me?" "Oh my god, yes! Fucking hell yes! Yes, I'll marry you! Yes yes yes yes!" I answered and he smiled, slipping the ring onto my finger.

"Oh my god," I said with so much shock. "Is this fucking legit?" I asked, looking at him. "It's very much legit baby boy." He was smiling so big, and I think that I was smiling even more than him. "Oh my god!" I cheered before I kissed him again. "Wait, you totally caught me off guard." We both laughed. "Ask me again please?" He chuckled and he pecked my cheek as he asked me. "Will you marry me?" I smiled and nodded my head. "Yes," I replied and we kissed each other again. It was smooth, but also very loving.

"I'm getting married!" I shouted in joy and that made him look at me with love in his beautiful eyes. I squealed before I jumped up, running out of my room. Clifford met me at the bottom step and I cheered. "I'm getting married Cliff! My god!" I then rushed outside. I didn't care that it was pouring out, I'm getting fucking married! "I'm fucking engaged!" I yelled out to the world.  "Your what?!" I heard my mother ask in shock and I heard anger in the mix. I turned with a big ass smile on my face. I also saw Harry making his way through the small group that consisted of my family.

"I'm getting married! To him!" I cheer and run to my now fiancé. He laughed before he caught me by my thighs and we crashed our lips together. "I love you so fucking much," I said and I pecked his lips a million times. "I love you too lovely." "I so can't believe that I'm your fiancé now," I said with joy and shock. "This is the bast day ever! This is the best promotion too! I came from being your boyfriend to your now fiancé. My god, this moment is so surreal." I admitted and Harry was smiling even bigger now. "Well, you know what this means now, right?" He asks and I look at him. "What?" "I want to find a forever home with y-" "On it!" I chirped and hopped down from his body. I ran past my family and I heard my mom call my name. "Louis William Tomlinson, y-" "I'm about to be a Styles! Now if you excuse me, I need to pack and find the home that will hold our future endeavors!"

I heard footsteps behind me and I was soon tackled onto my bed. I squealed and I just felt kisses all over my face. "Hazzy!" I squealed. "I'm just realizing that you actually said yes," he said and I giggled as he kissed my face some more. "Of course I was going to say yes, sexy," I spoke with a smirk before we kissed for the thousandth time.

"You know this kind of remind me of the time when we were looking at our dream apartment, but you want to know what's different between then and now?" "What?" I asked. "This time, I don't care if I fuck you in your parents home," he admits and I looked at him with a grin. "Oh yeah?" "Yeah, but let's look for the house first," he says and looks at my laptop. "Tease," I pout, but I looked at the screen. We went through many pages and we went a long way before Harry stopped and pointed at a video. "That one seems like the perfect match," he says and I click on the video.

House 3 @ 4:27

"Oh my god, it looks so beautiful Hazza. It's so far though..." "And? I'll travel anywhere that you wish to if it means that we'll be more happier there. It's the perfect place to raise our future kids too. Raise them around nature, keeping them humbled and everything else."

He really wants kids with me. "Hey Hazza?" I asked. "Yes my dear?" "What would you say if I was able to reproduce?" "Then I would say that you're a true keeper. I've officially captured a diamond. A lot off things that would say that I love you more and more by each word spoken." I can all of the sincerity in his voice as he said that and it made me even more happy that I am going to be walking down an aisle soon and I'll be saying I do. Then I'll be Louis William Styles! "I so can't wait to take your last name," I tell him truthfully. "I can't wait to say it when we become husbands." "Song to me again Hazza. Sing that beautiful song to me again," I requested and he listened.

"Sweet creature
Had another talk about where it's going wrong
But we're still young
We don't know where we're going
But we know where we belong..." I closed my eyes as he sung to me and I was swaying to the rhythm of his beautiful and soothing voice. When it reached the end, I kissed him, but this kiss lead to another thing that kind of made my family yell in anger. I didn't care though. Wanna know why I didn't give a shit?

Because I'm getting married to this sexy man and I'm going to have kids with this man. I'm going to be spending the rest of my life with this man. I'm fucking happy with this man. Nothing in this world is going to top this feeling right now. Of course in the future, having kids is going to top this, but not right now. Right now is our moment to show each other once again how much we loved each other. How happy we are because we are together again and actually fucking engaged.

Nothing will replace you Harry Edward Styles. Absolutely nothing!
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