Jude's Pov

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Poe and I sat amongst the group of children who would be flying beside us. Quickly and efficiently, Poe went over the basic knowledge of flying in a battle. The kids chosen to be apart of Purple Squadron lived up to their expectations as none of them seemed to be clueless. Poe had to explain that they will be flying alongside the back of the formation and he received several sighs. It was for all the right reasons though, this was a battle that would have to be quick, we couldn't go back for anyone.

Shen Ekki stood up from his position on the floor, sporting his orange jumpsuit with his brand new purple leader helmet. "Thank you Black Leader, Jude Solo," He nodded his head at us. "Alright, let's get into a line just like how we practiced."

The six pilots fumbled into a formation that neither Poe or I have ever seen. Though I was slightly confused since I don't fly as much as I used to, Poe seemed extremely interesting. "What is this?"

"Pilots, report on." Shen commanded.

Beside Shen was a girl about my height. Her hair was a dark red and was done in some unusual braid. "Esner Bensbe, reporting in as P1."

To my surprise, a Mon Calamari stepped forward and reported in. "Arc Nunez, reporting in as P2."

"Minx Ortega, reporting in as P3." Minx squeaked, her facial expression pale and small.

"Zoe Pava, reporting in as P4." Jessika Pava's sister beamed, sending a proud and confident wink to Poe.

I assume he was around my age, tall and brut and everything else slightly intimidating. "Wendell Radii, reporting in as P5."

"Impressive," Poe commented. "Why do you do this Shen?"

"As a new leader, it is hard to remember who's who. So instead of just reporting in as P1, I'll know that P1 is Esner."

Poe went over to Shen and patted his shoulder. "You've got a bright future ahead of you kid, you might make it to Black Leader if you keep that up," Poe returned his gaze to the other pilots. "I will see you all in the sky."

I followed Poe out in a hurry. The anxiety sits below my smile, my actions, my pride...it's slowly ripping me to shreds. I know that if my plan succeeds and I am able to rescue Bellamy, forced or not, I will go back to help Rey find Corinthia. Only a Sith deals in absolutes and I am no Sith, I don't have two choices. I'm not picking between my girlfriend and my sister, I'm simply putting Bellamy first and then getting Corinthia.

"Hey buddy, is something wrong?" Poe stops me by extending his arm. "You've lost colour in your face, are you worried about something?"

I shake my head. "Jedi don't worry."

Poe rolls his eyes. "Sure, okay."

"I'm serious," I defend. "I'm fine Poe, I'd tell you if I wasn't."

Poe nodded. "Yeah kid, you know I'm here for you."

I smile weakly and continue walking, Poe trailing my every step until we make it to the docking bay. Everyone around us were busy and focussed, making sure their ships were ready to go. Even my grandmother was directing orders at everyone, even the janitors. Medics were gathering supplies and stepping aboard a smaller cargo ship. The purple squadron arrived and received help from gold squad. It seemed like a mess but it was a mess that was getting cleaned.

"Solo?" I jump at the suddenness of my last name, turning to smile at Rey. "Are you okay?"

"Why does everyone keep asking that?" I ask, playing with my fingers.

"Poe said you didn't look too well and I felt something uneasy in the force," Rey explained, reaching out to touch my cheek. "No one is forcing you to do this, you can stay behind."

"Luke isn't going and someone needs to fill his position," I send her a confident smile. "I've got this."

"I'm sure you do," She nodded. "You'll be flying with Jess Pava, unless you really want to come with Poe, Finn and I?"

I look around to find Jess, spotting her with BB-8. "I think I'll be fine with Jess, she's a good pilot."

Rey nods, bringing me into her gentle embrace. "I'll see you on the Finalizer." She lets go and looks at me for a moment before turning around to find Poe and Finn.

The guilt was like gasoline in my guts. My insides died slowly in the toxicity, needing no more than a spark to set it ablaze. I felt like throwing up and I didn't know why. Was this Bellamy messing with my head? Could it really be that bad that I'm going to rescue Bellamy first? When the guilt comes again to haunt me I take in a breath. It cuts me deep and I remind myself that whilst I cannot undo my misdeeds, I dedicate my life to walking in the light.

I am apart of the Light Side. I was trained by Luke Skywalker and work for the Resistance. My pride is within my family, with Poe, Finn, Rey, grandmother, Luke, Kingsley, Chewbacca, C-3PO, R2-D2 and Corinthia. Though I am unable to shake this feeling, this horrible feeling. Am I being punished by the force for not putting Corinthia first? Or is this a warning that I'm walking into a trap.

"Pilots please board your ships."

I snap out of my thoughts and look around for Jess, she's waving me over with a grin on her face and I walk towards her. She greets me with a hug, recognizing that I am much taller than she is. "You ready to be flying with me Jude?"

"Of course Jess, we all know you are a better pilot then Poe."

She pushes me slightly. "Don't flatter me Jude Solo!"

"I only speak the truth."

"Yeah yeah, Poe is basically your uncle. Everyone is your family seems to be better than the rest." She laughs, climbing up the ladder to her ship and sliding into the cockpit. "Come on kid, let's get a move on things."

A/N: We all know Jude is going to screw up things...but he won't be screwing up the prequel! Go take a look at the prequel to Darkness At Dawn and Salvation To My Stars! Small one-shots about Elara Jane and stories that piece her and Kylo Ren together! Hope you enjoyed the chapter!!!