It's been two weeks since the incident. My wrist was now almost healed thanks to nurse Adam and I haven't seen Lord Vader since then. In fact he hasn't even been on the Death Star. He left that next morning and no one knows where he went, except Admiral Tarkin of course.

If I'm being honest, I'm glad he wasn't here. The way he grabbed me and shoved me to the floor roughly plays in my mind often. I remember the pain that surged through me when I landed on my wrist, and worst of all, the way he yelled at me, causing the lights to flicker was absolutely terrifying.

He had been drinking that night which made him slightly vulnerable, that's the only reason he allowed me to kiss him for that short time. I was also in a vulnerable position after just experiencing that nightmare and there was alcohol still in my system. All I know, is that whole kiss was a mistake.

Force I wish I never did it. How stupid could I be? I allowed my womanly desires to get in the way of my logical thinking and I went ahead and made-out with the most feared man in the galaxy. I'd be lying if I said it didn't feel good, but that wasn't something that was ever going to happen again. I was too scared to get close to him again, what would he do next time? Throw me off the whole station into space? Yeah, no thank you. I choose life.

I've been slower on getting the TIE-fighters done thanks to my wrist but Adam has been helping like he did before which made everything so much easier for me. We finished them after a little over a week and a half and since then I've only been given simple tasks like small fixes on them after they've been in a battle or a few droids.

That brings us here to today and the special thing about today is that it's my 22nd birthday. No one knows it though and I don't plan to tell them. Knowing Adam he would try throwing me a whole ass party in the hangar which I'm pretty sure that's not something Tarkin would be okay with.

The reason I don't want to tell anyone is mainly due to it not just being my birthday, but Noah's birthday as well. He was my twin. So celebrating life and birth is the last thing I wanted to do, since he no longer had his. I'd rather wallow in self pity in my room with my own personal bottle of alcohol that I may or may not have stolen from Tarkin's office. Not like he'd miss it, the man is hardly ever in there anyway. Plus he had like five more. Alcoholic.

Not like I'm one to talk, I was slowly turning into one.

I was taking small sips from the bottle as I was reading letters from Noah, ones he sent me when he was off fighting in the war.

Stupidest decision he ever made.

I was taken out of my thoughts when there was a knock at my door. I stood up and quickly put the bottle in my bathroom, just in case it's someone who might tell.

I opened the door to reveal Adam with a little box in his hand. "What is that?" I asked as I eyed it, it was pink with a little blue bow on it.

"I assume you have a good reason for not telling anyone it's your birthday so I decided to give you this in private." He smiled as he handed me the box.

I narrowed my eyes at him as I accepted it, "How did you know it was my birthday?" I questioned with curiosity.

"I may have seen your file." He chuckled nervously, "Open it."

I sighed as I opened the box to reveal..a rock. "You got me a rock?" I asked as I looked up to him confused.

He laughed, "It's not a rock it's a kyber crystal from christophsis."

My mouth formed an 'O' "Oh I've heard of these," I picked it up from out of the box and twisted it in my fingers, causing the blue of it to sparkle in the light, "I thought they only belonged to Jedi."

"With no Jedi left to claim them, they're everywhere." He shrugged.

I smiled up at him and placed the crystal into the box, "Thank you it's beautiful."

"Anything for you." He smiled flirtatiously and I had to hold in a sigh at his constant advancements. "Can I ask why you didn't tell anyone?"

"Because," I sighed again as I leaned my head on my doorframe, "It's also my brothers birthday and he's gone, so, I'd rather not celebrate." It's my first birthday without him, my day just doesn't feel whole.

"Good excuse." He smiled sadly, "I'm sorry you don't have him anymore."

"Thanks, now if you'll excuse me I have a bottle with my name on it." I joked to lighten up the dark mood and he chuckled.

"I still can't believe you took it from Tarkin, that's bold, not even I have the guts." His eyes sparkled as he laughed.

"What's he gonna do, chase me down the hallway with his cane?" I raised my brow and he began to laugh more.

"He doesn't have a cane!"

"Not yet, but you've seen how old he is." I playfully rolled my eyes. "He's almost there."

"You're terrible." He shook his head.

"I know," I smirked with a wink, "I'll see you tomorrow."

"Goodnight beautiful." He smiled before turning around to leave and I shut my door.

I turned around to walk to my bed and as I gazed in the empty room I started to feel alone. I sighed and turned back to open the door, "Adam!" I called to him and he stopped in his tracks and turned around to look at me. "Would you like to join me?" I smiled, if I'm being honest I could use a friend right now.

A grin spread across his face as he walked back to me, "I'd be honored."

I stepped to the side and allowed him to enter.

~*~•~*~

"No way!" Adam chuckled as he listened to the stories I had of my brother when we were little. It actually felt nice to talk about him finally. With someone other than myself.

I took another sip of the bottle, "If you think I'm bold, he was ten times bolder than me." I chuckled as I leaned back against my headboard with the bottle sitting in me knee. "There was nothing he wouldn't do."

"Sounds like a great guy." He grabbed the bottle from my hand and took a sip.

I sighed sadly, "He really was."

"Can I ask how he died?" He asked a little reluctantly, afraid to seton any emotions. Not like he could, they were already all over the place.

"He signed up for the war, even though I told him not to. He always said he wanted to make a difference and yet, the only thing he did was leave me with no one." A small tear escaped my eye and I quickly wiped it away, "So not too long after he left, I received this," I reached into the pile of letters I still had and handed him a specific one, "The letter letting me know that he died a 'hero'." I rolled my eyes and grabbed the bottle for another sip.

"At least he died a hero, it says he saved dozens." Adam tried to make me feel better and I scoffed.

"I don't want a hero, I want my brother." I set the bottle on the nightstand and sighed as I leaned my head back and stared up at the ceiling.

I felt his hand on mine, he was trying to comfort me and I appreciated his efforts. But it wasn't working. I sat up and grabbed the bottle again and took a gulp instead of a sip. "Easy there." He grabbed the bottle from me and I shot him an annoyed look. "You're gonna get sick."

He wasn't wrong, I was already extremely dizzy. Suddenly there was another knock on the door and I groaned before standing up, "Hide that." I pointed to the bottle and he closed it and placed it under my pillow.

I opened the door to reveal a clone trooper, "Are you (y/n)?" He asked in his professional tone.

"Yes I am." I nodded confused.

"This is for you." He handed me a plain black box that had my name written on it in gold.

"Who's this from?" I asked looking up to him but he was already halfway down the hallway. "Goodbye to you too." I mumbled sarcastically as I closed the door and brought the box to my bed.

"What's that?" Adam asked as he sat up.

"I don't know, as you can see I haven't opened it yet." I replied sarcastically causing him to tap me on the shoulder with a chuckle. I smiled and lifted the box to reveal a necklace. It was silver with a bell charm. Who could have possibly gotten me this?

"That's cute." Adam broke the silence, "Who's it from?"

"I don't know." I mumbled as I looked into the box for something else and found a little note.

It would look better on you.

I squinted my eyes at the paper trying to think of who this could be from..

Oh. I know who this is from. 

So I guess he heard my thoughts about putting a bell on him. I chuckled to myself causing Adam to look at me confused.

"Are you just going to leave me in suspense?" He asked as he grabbed the paper and read it, "I don't get it, there's no name." He sounded puzzled as he turned the paper around to see if anything was written on the back.

"Inside joke with someone." I told him as I grabbed the paper and put it in the box. I pulled the necklace out and placed it around my neck and to my surprise, it made a small ding whenever it moved, but nothing loud enough to become annoying.

I giggled at it, I loved it.

I was so confused though, the last time I saw him he practically threw me out, almost broke my wrist, and gave me a look that could kill.

And now he's sending me gifts on my birthday.

I sighed at my confused thoughts as I ran my fingers along the charm, causing it to ding.

(a/n Finished homework early and got bored so I wrote this little filler chapter, it only took me like half an hour so if it sucks I'm sorry ♥️)