This chapter is going to be difficult for some of you and for that I apologize.. but this has been planned for some time and as always, there is a method to my madness 💕 and I'm not ashamed to admit I cried like a baby writing this.

Vader's/Anakin's POV
I landed on Byss.

My heart was beating rapidly, to the point to where I thought it was going to burst from my chest, and I was currently holding in the bile that wanted to escape my stomach. I had a habit of assuming the worst, the worst being that he knows about (y/n). I don't know how he would, we've been so careful, other than a few mishaps, but those people are dead now. I couldn't think of anything else that it could possibly be, all I know it that it can't be something good if it's coming from him.

I took a deep breath as I pushed in the door that led to his throne room. I flinched when I entered, due to the greeting that I'm used to having, but to my surprise, that's not what I was met with.

He was sitting on his throne with a devious smile on his face, "Happy Birthday." He gestured to a figure in front of him, someone I didn't see or feel until just now since I was too focused on my own nerves and thoughts. My breath caught in my throat as I gazed upon his bloody broken state, "I found this, well not found, he actually came to me. He thought he would be able to sneak in and kill me." Sidious cackled and my eyes never left the idiot in front of him.

What the hell is wrong with you.

Song on top starts here.

His green eyes looked up and met my gaze, Sidious spoke again, "I thought I'd give you the pleasure of killing the man who betrayed you, your old master." He kicked at Obi-Wan who fell down a few steps and landed on the floor roughly. He pushed himself up from the floor slowly and spat blood onto the metal ground.

I looked from him and back up to Sidious, feeling a heart wrenching pain in my chest, "Thank you Master." I pushed out as I gazed back onto Obi-Wan. Why would he come here and attempt such a stupid thing? He had to know that he would fail.

"If you don't mind Lord Vader, I would like to watch you kill him." He spoke in a menacing tone as he leaned back and observed us.

He was testing me, again.

So I have two options, I don't kill him; thus sealing my own doom and I'd be leaving (y/n) behind. Or I do kill him; like I've always wanted to.. right? He's done countless things to me that are unforgivable, including kidnapping my wife, twice.

I know what I need to do, I just hope I have the strength enough to do it.

"Of course Master." I stepped forward until I towered over Obi-Wan and I picked him up by his collar so we were face to face. His eyes said it all, he knew what was going to happen. I shook my head at him with a sigh as I scanned his face to see the multitude of bruises and cuts. Sidious had him tortured before I arrived.

We had a conversation, one that Sidious wouldn't be able to hear.

A/V:Why couldn't you just stay away?

O: I wanted to free you. For once, I wanted to do something right by you.

A/V: I already told you before, I will never be free.

O: I had to try.

A/V: You're such an idiot. You know what I have to do now don't you? I can't disobey him.

O: I know Anakin and it's okay. I already forgive you.

I felt tears come to my eyes, I don't know why I felt so heart broken. I've been wanting to kill this man for years, but now that's in front of me. It's proving to be so much more difficult than I could have possibly imagined, "What's taking so long Lord Vader; can you not do it?" Sidious spat in an annoyed tone.

Without breaking the eye contact with Obi-Wan I spoke, "No, I can do it." My voice came out shakier than I intended it to. I pulled my lightsaber from my belt and held the end of it to his chest while my other hand held onto his shoulder. A single tear fell from his eye; it mixed with the blood from his cheek as it slid down.

O: I love you Anakin.

Flashback(Age: 9)
Obi-Wan shook his head at me as Master Windu brought me to him with an irritated scowl, "Your padawan is proving to be more of a nuisance than I initially thought." He gently pushed me forward into Obi-Wans quarters, "You need to raise him better." He spat and stomped down the hallways.

My master sighed as he closed his door and I sat on his bed with an innocent smile, "What did you do now Anakin?" He asked; folding his arms across his chest.

I shrugged, "I started a fight." The other kid deserved it though.. I swear I hate all the other younglings here.

His eyes widened, "Why would you do that?" He questioned with slight disappointment in his tone.

My smile fell, I could try to hide my pain, but with him it would be useless, "One of the other younglings was making fun of me for being a slave," I admitted sadly, "They all treat me so bad and all I'm just trying to do is fit in. But as every day goes by, the more I feel like I don't even belong here." I dropped my head down as a tear escaped my eye.

He came up next to me and pulled me into a hug, "If anyone belongs here, it's you. They're just afraid of how much stronger you are than them, but trust me when I say that you have a much brighter future than any of them," He pulled away from the hug and gazed down into my eyes, "You're going to be the greatest Jedi to ever live, I have no doubt about that. You're a smart, determined, and strong child. Please don't let others make you doubt your worth."

I hugged him again, tighter, I needed to hear that, "Thank you Obi-Wan, I don't know what I would do if you weren't here." He makes everything tolerable, he's the father that I never had.

He chuckled, "I'll always be here," He kissed the top of my head, "Alright, It's getting late we should get you to bed."

I pulled away from the hug to look back up at him, "Can I please stay here with you? I don't want to be alone." I sighed thinking about going back to my cold quarters.

He smiled with a nod, "Of course you can." He scooted back on the bed and lifted the covers, I kicked my shoes off and crawled in next to him. Even though this is something he's not allowed to do because the council is afraid of attachments, he always lets me anyway. And I love him more for it.

I laid my head on the pillow and closed my eyes, "Master Kenobi?"

"Yes?"

"Do you love me?"

I felt him kiss the top of my head one more time,"I love you more than anything."
Flashback ends.

A/V: I love you too.

I ignited the blade as a few tears left my eyes. His eyes widened once his chest was pierced with the crimson light. My heart shattered in that moment, "I'm so sorry." I whispered low enough that Sidious wouldn't here as I retracted the blade and he fell to the floor lifelessly. I breathed heavily, trying to control the emotions I was feeling in this moment.

Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder and I looked up to meet the golden eyes of Sidious, "I am so proud of you Lord Vader."

I didn't say anything to him, I only nodded as I gazed back down to where Obi-Wan was, only to see his body fade away.

Song ends here.

~*~•~*~

I arrived back to the Death Star, feeling numb. I actually did it, I actually killed Obi-Wan. The man who raised me, the man who was a father and a brother. I feel like I shouldn't be as devastated as I am right now. Like I've mentioned countless times, he's done unforgivable acts. But despite everything, and even though a part of me really did hate him, I still loved him. I hated myself for loving him, I shouldn't love him, he didn't deserve to be loved by me.

There was a time where I would have killed him without any remorse or guilt, but (y/n) has made me soft, she brought out my love and humanity again.

So here I am, completely heart broken.

I cried the whole way back to the station and I composed myself once I arrived. The first thing I wanted to do was see her. But I couldn't, not with my emotions so out of control. So I went to my room, a place I knew she wasn't at. Judging by the thoughts around me, she is currently with Ellie, planning a birthday surprise for Piett. I made sure they didn't sound that stupid fucking alarm, so she doesn't know that I'm here yet.

I stepped into my room and closed the door as I sat on the bed and held my head in my hands.

I forgive you

I snapped my head up when I heard his voice in my mind, I didn't see anything in the room with me. No glow, nothing. I sighed as I dropped my head back down and sobbed into my hands. I hated feeling this way.

"Fuck." I stood up in a rage as I ran my hands through my hair in frustration, "I hate you." I spoke to him through gritted teeth while I continued crying; hoping he could hear me, allowing myself to feel the anger so I didn't have to feel the pain, "How dare you make me feel this way after everything you did to me. I shouldn't feel this guilty!" I slammed my fists against the dresser in a fit of rage. Objects in the room flew around aggressively until I heard a scream of pain.

I snapped my head to the door to see (y/n) on the floor gripping the side of her face with tears in her eyes as she looked up at me.

My eyes widened, I didn't even hear her come in, "Oh my god no," I rushed to her side, "Baby I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." I spoke in a quick panic as I removed her hand to see a bloody cut just under her eye. I placed my hand there to heal
It, "Please forgive me." I begged, I can't believe I hurt her.

"Anakin it's okay, it was an accident." She responded once I dropped my hand down and she wiped the tears away from her eyes. I felt so horrible, I grabbed her and pulled her into a hug. But she gently pushed me off, "I said it's fine." She avoided eye contact with me as she stood up, "I just came because I heard someone say they saw you, but I should get back to Ellie." She looked up to me with an expression I couldn't recognize.

"Please don't be afraid of me, I swear I didn't mean to." I reached for her but she slowly stepped back, which hurt like hell.

She nodded, "I know and I'm not mad at you Ani, I'm just worried about you," She dropped her head down with a sigh, "I'll see you later for bed okay? We'll talk about it then." She turned away without looking at me and left the room.

(a/n Uyy so that was rough, for me at least. Hope you liked it! 💕)