(Song on top starts here; highly recommend, it gives the scene more of an emotional touch.)

(y/n)'s POV
Anakin and I sat on the floor of the cockpit as the ship was set into hyperspace to take us back to the Death Star. He's hardly spoken since he came for me, I was currently cleaning the cuts that were on his chest, none of them were bad or deep. But some still had glass shards inside of them, "Do you want to tell me what's on your mind?" I finally broke the long silence that sat between us.

He sighed as he looked up to meet my worried eyes, "Nearly four years," He leaned his head back against the cold metal of the ship while I continued to bandage his chest, "Four years I've had this life. Ive killed without remorse, I burned down cities, I endured endless torture from my Master, I even destroyed an entire planet, killing billions." He sighed as he closed his eyes, "A man like me can never go back to being who I used to be. I'm no longer Anakin Skywalker, Jedi Knight, savior of the republic, he died in that room. I'm Darth Vader, a murderous and merciless demon who causes people to cower in fear, just by the sound of his name." When he spoke, I didn't feel like he was talking to me. It felt like he was talking to himself, "I feel lost." He whispered as he opened his eyes and a tear escaped down his cheek.

I raised my hand and wiped it away, "Then look at me." I spoke softly as I reminded him of the words he used in his vows. He said that whenever he feels lost, all he has to do is look at me, and everything makes sense again.

His eyes flickered up to meet mine, I wasn't used to seeing the look I saw, he looked so, broken. He smiled, but I could still see the sadness he held. He reached his hand up and brushed my hair behind my ear, "You're the only thing that's keeping me from completely falling apart right now."

I grabbed his hand and kissed it gently, "And I'll always be here to hold you together. But I want you to tell me what happened in there." Whatever it was, has done something to him. He's more emotionally conflicted than he ever has been. I see it in his eyes, it's clawing away at him.

He dropped his hand down, "I've learned something and it's something I wish that I didn't," He sighed as he looked away from me, "Other than finding you. I hate how my life has turned out," He began to cry softly, "I wish things went differently. I wish the order would have just let me go, I could have had a better life. But then they did what they did, which broke me and ultimately robbed me of a happier future. Now I just learned that Palpatine, the one I considered a savior in a way, was the one who killed Ahsoka. He manipulated me while I was at my lowest and led me to believe that it was all the orders fault, even though it still is their fault, he was the one who took away her innocent life." He revealed and I felt my jaw drop, I can't believe it was really him. No wonder he feels so conflicted right now, every person he's ever trusted has betrayed him or lied to him, "Everything is so fucked up and the worst part is, it's too late to do anything about it. It's too late to go back, I'm heavily shackled to this life, I'm shackled to him." He chuckled as he looked back up to me, "It's funny really, when I left Tatooine I thought I was leaving the life of slavery. Now look at me, I was a slave to The Order, and now I'm a slave to The Empire. I've never been free and I never will be." He dropped his head down and he continued to cry. I immediately got closer to him and pulled him into a hug, "I'm so angry, they made me into a broken shell of who I used to be," He cried into my shoulder, "I fucking hate them all."

"I'm so sorry Anakin." I felt myself start to cry as well, I could feel his pain, he's never had an easy life. He's a good person and he doesn't deserve all of this hate and pain that he's had to endure, "We can run." I whispered but I felt him shake his head.

"He will find us and I can't risk your life anymore than I already have just by being with you. If anything happens to you, I-" He pulled away and looked into my eyes, "I wouldn't survive it."

I nodded in understanding, he had a point and from what he's told me about the force. Palpatine would be able to sense him wherever we go. So there's one other option, "Can you kill him?" Maybe with him dead, we can go have a life, he won't have to be so afraid.

He gave off a single dry chuckle, "No, he's too powerful. And even if I succeeded, I'll probably die too. That's the only way I see it playing out, he kills me, or we kill each other."

I shook my head, "Didn't you say that you were the most powerful force user; doesn't that make you more powerful than him?"

He nodded as he let out a small sigh, "Power isn't much when you don't have the knowledge or skill. He's lived so long and knows things about the force that I can't even begin to comprehend, which I'm sure is on purpose." He looked away towards the blue lights of hyperspace, "He doesn't want me strong enough to overthrow him, so he's kept my training at the bare minimum. No matter what, I won't win (y/n), he made sure of that." He turned back to look into my eyes. I wish there was something I could do, I feel so helpless, "Baby you help me just by being here with me now. You alone ease my suffering." He cupped my face and brought my forehead to his, his blue watery eyes bore into mine, "As long as I have you, I know I'll be okay."

Song ends here
(I know this talking section was a bit long, but I wanted to go more in depth with how he's feeling about everything.)

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The next day; afternoon

I sat with Ellie at the lunch table as I slowly picked at my food with my fork, "Is everything okay (y/n)? You've been awfully quiet since you got back." I glanced up at her to see her concerned expression, but I helped ease it with a little smile.

"I'm fine, I'm just tired. I had a long night last night." That's a bit of understatement. Seeing your husband so broken, it breaks your heart. Neither him nor I had any sleep when we got back. We stayed up all night and talked about everything; I tried talking him through his emotions. But I don't think it helped, even when we went our separate ways this morning, he still held that look of emotional defeat.

Ellie chuckled, "You didn't break anything did you?"

I shrugged, "There might be a dent in the wall." I winked and she let out a laugh. This fun energy is something I needed right now.

"Holy shit," Piett came in quickly and sat next to Ellie with slightly wide eyes, "Are you and you know who good?" He asked in a low tone as he lowered himself closer to the table.

I nodded, confused, "Yeah why?"

He sat up straight, "He's on a bit of a rampage today; he killed a clone because he said he looked at him wrong," He raised a brow, "He was wearing a helmet."

I sighed as I dropped my fork down onto the tray, his emotions are out of control right now, "He's-" I paused for a moment, "He's just going through some things right now."

Piett narrowed his eyes at me, "Oh that's it, just going through things." He spoke to me in his sassy attitude, "What the hell happened?"

I shook my head, "I'd tell you, but it's his business. He'll you if he wants to." I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration, "Where is he right now? Maybe I can try calming down."

"He's in a meeting with some Captains, I only left because he told me that I'm un-needed." He rolled his eyes, I could tell he was offended. But I'm sure Anakin only had him leave so he didn't have to see him go through an emotional turmoil, or accidentally get caught in the cross-fire of his rage.

"Don't be upset, I'm sure there's an explanation on why he didn't want you there." Ellie soothed him by rubbing his arm.

"Aw how cute." A familiar voice came next to us and I breathed in and out slowly to keep myself calm so I didn't immediately attack this bitch. She couldn't have caught me at a worse time.

Piett rolled his eyes as Ellie's composure shifted to being uncomfortable, "What do you want Aubra?" He glared up at the brunette woman who was scowling down at our table.

"Nothing, just happened to see you over here and wanted to stop by." She reached forward and grabbed a piece of Ellie's food from her tray and popped it in her mouth, "Sorry I just love fries."

I glared up at her angrily as I balled my fists under the table, "Aubra, just go away." I warned her, now is not the time to test me.

She sat down next to me and placed an arm around my shoulders, I exhaled heavily to calm myself "What happened (y/n), I thought we were friends?" She asked in a taunting tone.

"We were," I grabbed her arm and removed it from my shoulders, "Till I found out what you did to my best friend."

"I don't know what you're talking about," She chuckled, acting innocent.

I tilted my head, "Oh really?" I gripped her arm and dug my nails in her, causing her to yell, "Do you know now?" I growled through gritted teeth. I have been waiting ever since Piett told me what she did, to get my hands on her, no one fucks with my best friend.

Suddenly, a full fight broke out between us, she grabbed my hair and pulled, causing us both to fall back on the floor from our chairs. I gained the upper hand and was on top of her as threw I punch to her face, busting her lip. She gripped my hair again and pulled me to my side where I fell onto my back and she dug her nails into my neck. I yelled from the pain and soon we were both being pulled apart by clones. I was kicking the air as he held me back and Aubra was nursing her busted lip.

Piett was the one to speak first, "Take these two to Lord Vader, let him deal with it." And since Piett was a Captain they listened to him and we were both being pulled by clones out of the cafeteria.

Anakins/Vader's POV
"I can't stand incompetence!" I yelled as I loosened my grip on the Captains neck; tossing him to the floor where he coughed and gasped for air, "The next time I come in here, you better have something worth hearing Captain Needa!" I stormed out of the room and went straight to my office, my tolerance was at an all time low today. After everything that's happened recently.. being here just angered me more than it used to. I reached my office and let out a sigh as I leaned on my desk, "I know you're here." I spoke low as I turned around to see her blue glow.

Ahsoka shook her head, "I know what you're doing Skyguy. Killing people isn't going to make any of what you learned less true. Stop trying to push away who you really are."

I chuckled as I folded my arms and leaned my back on the desk, "I am who I am Snips. Sorry it's not the man that you used to know."

She stepped closer with a sigh, "You're strong enough to kill him. You don't have to live this life in fear, you can go and be normal."

"No I can't," I shouted, responding to both of her statements, "I can't kill him and I can never be normal, this is my life now, I'm stuck here."

"An-"

"Stop." I held my hand up to cut her off, "I love you Snips and I'm really sorry I couldn't be there to protect you like I always said I would. But I've accepted it, I've accepted where I am now, and now you do too, I'm sorry." I waved my hand and her force ghost disappeared from view. I cut her off again, as much as it hurt me to do it. I turned away and walked around my desk to sit in my chair, I leaned back as I eyed the whole room, "I'm sorry Ahsoka, but I'll never be free. Just know I love you and I'm sorry that I failed you." I sighed as I closed my eyes.

Almost as soon as my eyes closed, my door opened. I opened my eyes again with irritation, but it quickly shifted to confusion when I saw two clones pull in my wife and Aubra, "Sir, we were told to bring them to you, they got into a physical altercation in the cafeteria." I raised my brow as I looked at my wife, and she shrugged innocently in response.

Not one day. She can not go one day without causing trouble for me.

I sighed as I nodded to the clones, "Leave us." They saluted me and walked out of the room quickly, "What the fuck happened?" I asked as I looked to (y/n), I noticed small marks on her neck and my eyes narrowed at them.

Aubra spoke first, "Sir, she attacked me for no reaso-"

"I wasn't talking to you," I cut her off with a glare, then I looked back to my wife and continued to eye the marks she had, "Come here." I raised a finger and gestured for her to get closer. She nodded and walked towards me; Aubra held a smirk, probably thinking this was gonna go in her favor. As soon as she reached me I grabbed her by the hip and pulled her to sit on my lap, "Why are you starting fights?" I spoke to her softly as I placed my hand on her neck and used the force to relieve her of the painful looking scratches on her neck.

"She was asking for it." She shrugged. We both looked to Aubra who stood there with wide eyes, "She was abusing Piett and then she came to the table to taunt Ellie."

I raised my brow, "Is that true Aubra?"

She shook her head quickly, "No-no."

"That's a lie." My wife growled, "Don't lie."

She shook her head again, "I don't understand what's happening, what is this?" She gestured between us.

"(y/n) here, is my wife," I lifted my hand up and ran my fingers through her beautiful hair, "And whoever has a problem with her, has a problem with me."

Her eyes widened more, "I don't have a problem sir." Her mind was racing, she was panicking. Fearing for her life.

I looked up to (y/n), "I'll let you decide her fate."

She shook her head, "Depends, you kind of spilled our secret. Will she keep her mouth shut?" She questioned and I looked to Aubra.

"Will you tell anyone about this?" I asked and she shook her head no, but of course, her mind said something completely different.

And so I sighed as I looked up to (y/n) who could tell what the answer was from my face, she nodded, "I'll go see what the droids are up to." She leaned down and kissed me before standing up and leaving the room.

I glared at Aubra, was it necessary to allow her to know our secret? No, but I wanted her to know. I wanted to kill her, I've been wanting too for some time, ever since I read her and Pietts thoughts throughout their relationship. But I never did, out of respect for Piett, but now I have the green light, "Oh Aubra," I sighed as I stood up from my chair and walked around to her, "Your fate was decided before you stepped into this room," I gripped her neck and pushed her to the wall, "Not only did you fuck with my best friend, but my wife too." I growled as I squeezed until I heard a crack.

(a/n This turned out so much longer than I intended it to. I hope you enjoyed it!💕)