Anakins/Vader's POV
I held the newly assembled lightsaber in my hand and eyed the purple light that came out of it.

Flashback(Age:10)

"Now what does green mean?" Obi-Wan asked me as we sat crossed-legged across from each other in his quarters.

I sat for a moment as I thought, "Jedi Consulars, it's for those that are strong with the force and focus more on their telekinetic abilities than their physical abilities."

He nodded with a proud smile, "Okay and what about blue?"

"Jedi Guardian,it's for those who are the protectors and gatekeepers of the galaxy. They focus more on their lightsaber skills than their force abilities." I responded, I knew that one perfectly, blue is the color that I wanted.

He chuckled, "Very good Anakin, now what about purple?" He asked and I was stunned, I didn't read that far into it. I gave him a sheepish look and he shook his head, "Purple is for those who are strong with both sides of the force. The light side and the dark side."

I gasped, "But isn't that a bad thing; I thought we should never affiliate ourselves with the dark side?" I asked slightly confused.

He shook his head, "It's not necessarily a bad thing. Purple is a blend of red and blue, think of it like a perfect balance between the light and the dark. It's meant for individuals who know and understand how to harness and control both sides. That doesn't make them bad, in fact some who have been associated with it are known to be strong, brave, and even compassionate." He informed me and I listened with great interest, "But, there is instability and moral ambiguity involved, so they have to be careful and remember what side they are fighting for. Here's an example; Master Windu. He has a purple lightsaber, but he's not evil now is he?"

I scrunched my face in slight disgust, "I'm not too sure about that." Hes pretty mean sometimes, I just don't think he likes me very much because Obi-Wan went against everyone's wishes to train me. I owe this man in front of me everything. No one has ever fought for me the way he has. I just hope he continues to, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have him on my side. He's the only person that has made this temple tolerable.

He laughed as he placed a hand on my shoulder, "Alright, now that I've lectured you on that. Let's continue on with the lesson."

I groaned, "Do we have too; I already know what color I want so why should I care about the rest?"

"Oh Anakin, you don't get to choose the color. The crystal looks into the deepest parts of your soul to sees who you truly are, then it picks for you."

Flashback ends

I retracted the blade as I let out a sigh. I don't know why it called to me, I don't deserve this blade, "Hold on to this for me." I held it out to R2, "I'll let you know if I need it." He beeped in response and opened his side compartment to place the weapon inside before closing it, "Thanks buddy."  I leaned back in my chair and closed my eyes, the image of (y/n)'s pale face from my nightmare instantly came into view and I opened my eyes again, so I no longer had to see it. I tightened my grip on the handles of my seat as I held back tears. If I ever lost her, I don't know what I would do. I just know I would never be Anakin Skywalker again, I wouldn't survive without her, my beacon of light.

Suddenly my door opened and Piett stepped into my office unannounced, he placed a paper on my desk, "Here's the report you asked for regarding the recent rebel attack on Ryloth from Director Krennic."

I loosened my grip and took it without looking up at him, "Thank you." I spoke in a slow tone. I began reading it over when I realized he was still standing there. I looked up and he was staring down at me with a small grin, "What?" I asked with an annoyed sigh.

"So you're getting married." He informed me while still holding the same grin.

I tilted my head as I set the paper down with knitted eyebrows, "I know, I was there. I asked the question." I spoke to him like he was stupid, because that's what I believed he was right now. He sat down in the chair and I narrowed my eyes as I pointed to him, "I didn't say you could si-"

"Okay so typically," He cut me off and I sighed while dropping my hand down to my desk. I'll just do what I always do and listen to what he has to say so he can be done with it and leave, "The bride and the groom each have a special friend." I gave him a confused looked as I was wondering where he was going with this, "These special friends are up there with them while they say their vows and stuff and well.." I think I know what he's getting at now.

"Do you want to be my best man?" I questioned as I knitted my brows together, I think this is what he's talking about.

"Of course I do!" He stood up with a huge grin, "I never thought you'd ask!"

I shook my head as my eyes widened at the misunderstanding, "No Piett I wasn't-"

"It's gonna be great." He cut me off as he went for the door.

"Wait you little shi-"

"I'm gonna go tell (y/n), she's gonna be so excited!" He left before I could protest and my jaw dropped. He just fucking tricked me. I had no words. Things were so much easier when I could just kill him.

But (y/n) would never forgive me and honestly.. I probably wouldn't forgive myself.

(y/n)'s POV
I sat at the lunch table with Ellie as she explained her designs to me, "-and I think it would increase the impact by at least fifteen percent." She finished as she folded the blueprint and placed it in her pocket.

I applauded softly causing her to chuckle, "I think it's great." I assured her as I dropped my hands down and grabbed my spoon to take a bite of my food.

"Are you sure? I have to present it to multiple directors and captains later. Including Darth Vader, I'm freaking out." She breathed out heavily and I could see her visible nervousness.

"Don't worry I'm sure it won't go any worse than my first meeting with them," I chuckled at the memory, "I was late and I had my hair dripping water all over their floor because they happened to call me while I was in the shower." I rolled my eyes, but it was also a good memory now that I think of it. It was the first time I ever saw him, the image of him looking up at me for the first time filled my mind and I let a smile spread across my lips. It's crazy to see where we are now, engaged. It all felt so unreal.

She laughed at my story, " I do feel slightly better now." She smiled, "Hey, I've been meaning to ask, how come you don't usually wear uniform like most of us?" She questioned as she took a sip from her water.

Before I could answer, Piett stepped in, "Because she's practically the queen." He smirked down at me and I narrowed my eyes him. He can't be saying shit like that in front of people, even though I kind of liked it, "Or at least she likes to think she is." He saved it with a chuckle and Ellie scooted over to make room for him to sit by her.

I rolled my eyes at him, "It's because I mostly work on ships, so I'm moving around a lot and those uniforms are restricting." And ugly, "So after a long debate with Tarkin, I was cleared for it. As long as I keep it appropriate." I mocked his choice of word.

She nodded in understanding, "Makes sense."

"Okay so (y/n)," Piett gained my attention, "Remember that thing I wanted you know who to ask?" A grin spread across his cheeks.

I nodded with a chuckle, "I'm guessing he did?"

"Yes, he practically begged me." He reached over and took a fruit from my plate.

I narrowed my eyes at him, one, for taking my food, and two, for that obvious lie, "I highly doubt that he begged you."

"What are you guys talking about?" Ellie eyed us with a confused expression.

Piett shook his head, "Nothing Elle, so how are your projects?" He changed the subject to her and he was eyeing her flirtatiously. She gave him the same energy he was giving her and she trailed her finger along his arm as she talked about her current designs.

I shook my head at them as I continued eating my fruit and eyeing the ring that sat on my left hand. Every time I looked at it, I felt butterflies go through-out my whole body. I can't believe I'm actually getting married, and to him. But there was always this small fear in my mind, worried about if anyone would find out. Or If the Emperor would find out. What if he kills me? Or worse; what if he kills him?

"Mechanic." A deep, handsome voice startled us. Ellie looked up first and she cowered slightly. While Piett and I looked up to see Anakin and we remained in our same calm state.

"What can I do for you my lord." I smiled up at him and I saw him hold back one of his own.

"Come with me, you have some explaining to do." He spoke in his authoritative tone as he turned to leave the room mess hall. I stood up to follow.

"Oh my god is she gonna be okay?" I heard Ellie whisper to Piett as I began to walk away.

He huffed, "She'll be more than fine. She holds value."

I exited the doors and followed closely behind him as he led me to his office. I was curious to what this was about, but a part of me already knew. He waved open the door and gestured for me to go in first. I stepped in and the door closed behind him as he locked it.

I felt him come up behind me and he snaked his right hand around to grip my neck, while his left grabbed my hip and pulled me aggressively against his body.

I chuckled, "Lord Vader, to what do I owe this great pleasure?" I asked as he still hadn't said a word to me, but he began placing kisses on the side of my neck.

"I just needed to see you." He spoke softly as his gentle kisses were giving me goosebumps, "I needed to hold you." He spun me around so I could face him and he pulled me into a tight hug, "I just needed to feel your warmth."

As much as I was loving his sweet side, it was making me nervous, "Is everything okay?" I asked as I gently pulled away so I could meet his eyes.

They held a bit of sadness and fear, but he nodded, "Everything is fine." He smiled as he caressed my cheek with the back of his hand, "I promise." I still looked at him like I didn't believe him, he looked so afraid. He seemed to be trying to hide it, but I know him well enough to see through all of his facades, "Come here." He grabbed me and led me to his couch, where he sat down and pulled me on top of him by my hips, "Kiss me." He brought his gloved hand into my hair and pulled my face down to his so our lips could meet.

I didn't protest and immediately kissed him back. I brought my hands up to his face and cupped him while I deepened the kiss. He still had one hand entangled in my hair as the other wrapped around my back as he pulled me as close to him as he could. Our intimate moment intensified as our kisses became quicker and more aggressive. He then brought his hands till he gripped my shirt to try and pull it up but I stopped him, "Hold on." I spoke out of breathe, his blue eyes opened to meet mine.

He was also breathing heavily, "What is it?"

I leaned back so we could have our space, but I was still straddling him, "Tell me what's been bothering you Ani. I know there's something you aren't telling me." And anytime I try asking him about it, he changes the subject with sex. Not that I'm complaining, but I like to know what's wrong.

His expression immediately fell and he looked away from me, "Please don't make me talk about it." He begged in a low sad tone.

"You once asked me to tell you whenever something was bothering me and I did. So now I'm only asking for the same thing in return." I grabbed his chin so he could look back up to me, "I love you so much and I just want to know what's been troubling you lately,"

His eyes slightly watered, "I've been having nightmares about you. Like the ones I told you I had about my mother."

I gently caressed his cheek to comfort him, "Tell me what happened."

He was quiet for a moment as he looked at every inch of my face, like he was studying me, "You died."

(a/n I hope you liked this chapter💕 also let me know what you thought of the flashback! It took me longer than the rest of the chapter because it took me soooo long to be happy with it so I would your opinions.♥️)