All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again  

- One X Ed Sheeran

Well guys, if you don't know what ECs are, they're basically 'eye candies', just like how there's VCs for Voice Candies and HCs for Hair Candies.

Sounds real sweet right? (\+o+/)

IRL, it ain't that way honey.

Just find out real soon that they're sometimes kind of mean by how they brush you off or avoid you just because they suspect something and it hurts especially if you're only trying to make friends in a new environment.

It's really bad. 

Especially when you're an insecure person like me. I guess I'm not very confident about myself and sure about who I am at this stage right now in such a big crowd of so many cliques and stunning people. Sometimes it feels that I'm alone even though there's so many people around. The word 'individual' sounds really sad to me sometimes. It's so ... isolated. 

And like how I'm paranoid about it sometimes, because those rumors spread for quite some time and so every single time someone in school just looks at me for a prolonged time or starts whispering around and then turning back to look at me, it gets me so... I don't know, lost? (perhaps unsure of what to do will be better)

I'm so lost. 

Without hope sometimes. 

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It's just a rant, kind of like a diary. 

So if you're not comfortable, please don't leave mean comments to drag me down any further.