alexandra quickly bumped into someone making them drop their cup, "fuck!!" they shouted turning around ready to pounce on the person

the guy quickly smiled, "well hello." he smirked

alexandra giggled waving, "hi!!" she laughed stumbling into the kitchen. farleigh and venetia sat on a couch watching her every move.

"how you feeling alexandra?" venetia asked as the music roared throughout the house. alexandra chuckled giving her a wave. farleigh and venetia gave each other looks, "she is fucked up."

venetia nodded. pouring another cup of punch alexandra gulped it down like it was nothing. the night was young. the catton crew plus hannah, alexandra, and oliver decided to go to a huge house party. it was nice going to one that wasn't at saltburn for once

oliver was in the corner of the room standing by his lonesome watching alexandra. she was drunk off her ass, it was quite sad seeing her in that state. it was obvious she still is hurting. all oliver wanted to do was take all that pain away

if there is anything he has learned about alexandra in this past year... it's that she powers her way through anything that comes her way. it made her stronger than ever but it was also destructive in a way. alexandra planned on talking to her therapist about everything that has gone on this ENTIRE summer

it would be a book load to drop but she needed to talk somebody. alexandra stumbled her way over to farleigh and venetia almost knocking over an expensive lamp but the owner of the house caught it. "sorry about her." venetia said making the girl chuckle

"it's alright. hey!! put that down!!" she yelled seeing kids play football with her parents vase. she ran into the other room.

alexandra plopped onto the two of them not giving a shit. she laid her head on farleigh's lap with her legs scattered on venetia. she began to laugh playing with his hair which made oliver roll his eyes

"my God alex." venetia breathed heavily looking at her legs. farleigh gasped seeing all kinds of bruises on her legs along with scratches

she shooed them off then gave them the bird laughing continuously, "i just fell a few times!! i'm fine." venetia and farleigh sighed

"maybe we should find felix and hannah then get out of here." venetia recommended

"no we just got here!!" she whined making venetia breath nervously, "bless her heart...."

she quickly rolled off them standing up almost falling through the coffee table but farleigh grabbed her arm in time. she had their blood pressure going up and down. "no more drinking for you." he warned her

"you're not my mother, wait i don't even have a mom..." she said making them both mentally gasp

alexandra gave them both kisses on the cheek as can't c me by 2pac started playing which made her want to turn up even more. she started bopping her head to the beat quickly going into the kitchen moving past everyone getting onto the kitchen counter

she started dancing freely not caring what anybody had to say. everyone was either laughing or hyping her up while a few looked worried for the girl. she began rapping to the lyrics of the song CLEARLY making sure to say that one derogatory word. she was raised knowing better than to ever say that word 

"See me in flesh and test and get your chest blown
Straight out the West, don't get blown
My adversaries cry like hoes, open and shut like doors
Is you a friend or foe?"

she rapped effortlessly. a couple of beautiful black girls looked at each other and nodded impressed by her. "she's invited to the cookout." one girl shrugged flashing a smile

oliver quickly stepped in going over to her. alexandra quickly hit her head on the chandelier causing her to stop dancing. everyone reacted like it was them hitting their head. alexandra grabbed her head twisting her face out of pure pain.

"c'mon!!" oliver yelled reaching out for her. he helped her get down then escorted her outside. her head was on ten.

"fuck that hurt." she cried out. oliver took her to the car that was parked down the road. it was dark and silent considering pretty much all the guests were inside. they could still hear music blasting even from the car

he got her in the back of the car. she immediately sunk her face into her knees rubbing her forehead. "maybe we should stay here for little bit."

alexandra couldn't even talk, she just nodded her head falling into his lap which surprised oliver. she made herself comfortable taking her shoes off. her eyes were shut meanwhile her slight headache began to get better

"i want another drink." she mumbled making oliver nod, "i don't think so." he chuckled

she faced him quickly laughing, "you're always so observant of me." she brought up making oliver lick his lips looking away

"i feel like you care about me but at the same time you don't." she babbled. "i definitely care about you." he assured looking in her eyes

alexandra lifted herself up from him which disappointed him because he like the position they were in. her head throbbed but that wasn't her main focus right now

she shrugged, "what even are we?" the alcohol in her system made her whip up the urge to ask so many questions and say so many things to oliver that she wouldn't say when sober

he scared the shit out of her. the way he was so shy yet confident when around her. his mysteriousness drew her in even more than ever. he scared her in a good way, a way that intrigued her like no other

"you're drunk right now." oliver defended

alexandra laughed, "friendzoned." she said hurt. oliver wasn't trying to hurt her at all.

"i didn't say that alex. maybe we should talk about this tomorrow." he replied

alexandra shook her head, "no no n—-no, i want to talk about this right now." she demanded but it was clear she was still drunk

"you're drunk, alexandra." she scooted closer to him making oliver steady his breathing. her expensive perfume hit his nose yet again.

she bit her lip in an innocent way. her eyes were begging for him to talk to her about this all instead of pushing her away, "please talk to me." she begged quietly

oliver shut his eyes sighing trying not to say the wrong thing to a drunk alexandra, "i like you oliver." she said making his heart drop

"no you don't." he said refusing to look at her.

"but i do!!" she raised her voice growing frustrated with him. "i get it doesn't seem like it because i'm always with grant then felix but it's you who i truly like at the end of the day."

oliver found himself torn. no girl has ever genuinely cared about him the way alexandra does. nobody has ever liked him in that way. this was all new to him

alexandra didn't care anymore. she was tired of being scared. she quickly got on top of him making him nervous, "what are you doing?" he asked shocked

her legs straddled on both sides of his. her head above his with her looking down on him. she was in complete control in this moment. oliver felt like melting right there

her brown eyes gazing into his blue eyes made him want to go completely feral. those particular brown eyes drove him insane. alexandra wrapped her arms around his neck moving her face closer to his not breaking eye contact

oliver nervously gulped biting his lip. "look me in my eyes and tell me that you don't like me and i will move on." she said in seriousness

he didn't dare open his mouth to say anything because he liked her just as much as she did him. alexandra slowly began to press her lips against his. their soft lips touched until she was aggressively yanked out of the car

"stop you're hurting my arm!!" she yelled not knowing who the fuck was gripping onto her arm

she yanked away to see an angry felix staring at her. his jaw was clenched while his fists were balled up. alexandra began twitching underneath his evil stare

oliver quickly got out of the car, "felix, this is all on me. not her." he defended her but felix didn't even look his way.

"oliver give us a moment alone." felix sighed walking closer to alexandra who was obviously fearful of him. he looked like he wanted to hit her and it didn't make things better

"no mate. i'm not going anywhere." oliver spoke going to stand in front of alexandra. her body language immediately showed calming intentions when oliver stepped in

he refused to let felix hurt her anymore. felix bit his lip then took a deep breath, "we'll talk about this in the morning alex." he finalized before walking off

next morning

"who the fuck do you think you are?!" felix yelled out rage-fully making alexandra groan and hide her face in her pillow. she wasn't feeling good plus felix's yelling wasn't making anything better

she took a shower thirty minutes ago then brushed her teeth and got back into bed hoping to get a couple more hours of sleep before breakfast but felix barged into her room. she just wanted to sleep

"i mean seriously alexandra. i invited you here for the summer twice in a row, then i see you trying to mack onto my friend. what the fuck is that?!" he breathed making her sigh

he yanked the pillow off her face making her groaned. "i'm talking to you!!" felix said in an uproar but alexandra didn't even flinch

"yeah well i don't want to talk right now." she shrugged turn over with her back facing him

felix just chuckled, "i don't understand what has happened to you." he started, alexandra rolled her eyes hoping he would storm out

"you shove your tongue down my throat then then next minute you and grant are all cuddled up NOW you want to include my friend in your bullshit?" he asked but silence lingered across the room

"of course the little whore doesn't hear me." felix said making alexandra mimick a puppet hand. his nose flared up. he yanked her off the bed making her yelp out loud

pushing her against a wall overpowering her, alexandra just looked at him as she began to cry silently. no emotions were shown behind her eyes. felix leaned down into her ear, "you disgust me." he whispered before aggressively kissing her to the point that it hurt

he pushed her to the side with her touching her now sore lips. felix walked out her room making sure to loudly slam the door. alexandra heaved then put her hand over her mouth.

she laughed while crying, "i'm so fucking stupid." she choked falling down to the floor crying silently for hours

she was ready to go home and forget about everything that has happened this summer

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