alexandra was in a dark room with a light shining bright onto her. she looked down at her bare feet to see water up to her ankles, she looked around not knowing where she was

"hello?!!" she called out not hearing a thing.

it felt cold within the darkness. goosebumps formed onto her bare arms. a white tank top along with some skinny jeans were on her.  she wiped her eyelids feeling something wet onto her hands.... it was blood

eyes widening out of fear and confusion she began to hyperventilate. she fearfully wiped the blood onto her clean tank top then suddenly was snatched underwater making her let out a  blood curdling scream

she screamed underwater freaking out immediately. her leg was being pulled deeper down into the water, she watched as the light at the top began to get dimmer. her heart felt like it was about to give out

whatever was pulling her down stopped abruptly, she didn't have time to think. alexandra began to swim back up to the surface. gasping for air as she reached the top, she looked forward seeing felix standing there with antlers pierced through his chest.

she breathed heavily getting out of the water running to felix who just stood there with no emotion. he looked into alexandra's eyes clearly having an adrenaline rush, he began cough up blood with it running down his mouth

"i'll always love you..." he groaned pulling her closer to him

and then he suddenly disappeared in mid air. nothing but fog descended within the air making alexandra scream and fall down.

she began to cry out for felix, screaming his name out in agony. alexandra suddenly shot up opening her eyes and beginning to breath shakily. her aunt along with everyone else shot up from their seats

she shuddered, "hey sweetie. it's me. you're okay." donatella whispered sitting on the hospital bed. placing her hand onto alexandra's made her immediately calm down

she rubbed her head as it throbbed erratically, "why does my head hurt?" she groaned

donatella caressed her hand with her index finger as alexandra laid back onto the pillow, "the doctor had to give you some pain meds plus some sleeping pills to calm you down."  she quietly announced

sir james and elsbeth walked around to the other side to get a good look at the girl. sir james sighed, "how are you doing darling?" he asked with gentleness

she forced a weak smile, her under eyes were red from tiredness. plus she had tiny bags under her eyes. "i-i'm okay...." she trailed off groaning as her head began pounding even harder

elsbeth sniffled looking down at the floor, she placed her hand over her mouth. sir james looked at his wife wrapping his arm around her waist, "oh dear, don't cry." she sniffled harder silently crying

"elsbeth, i'm okay. please don't cry." alexandra said weakly with sadness coming from her face

donatella quickly grabbed a box of tissues leaning over to hand it to sir james who took a few of them handing them to elsbeth. she quickly took them wiping her tears away

elsbeth chuckled giving the girl a smile, "i know you are honey. you just scared me is all."

alexandra frowned then began to cry, "i'm sorry." she whispered then heaved heavily, "i'm really sorry for being stupid." she cried out

"hey, you look at me." dontallea spoke sternly as alexandra did as she was told. "you don't have to apologize for anything, don't understand me?" they both nodded at the same time

donatella quickly kissed her forehead, "i'm going to go get the doctor sweetie, okay?" alexandra nodded, "yes ma'am." she whispered

donatella quickly walked out of the private room, alexandra hadn't even noticed that oliver was in the room. he was sitting in the chair leaning forward with his elbows placed onto his thighs. his hands were clasped together hiding his lips, he looked like he was deep into train of thought

"how you doing ollie?" alexandra spoke up alerting him, he looked over at her with glistening eyes. she just now noticed how his gorgeous hooded eyes looked even bluer when crying. he had tear stains on his

he sighed then nodded, "i'm okay, how are you?"

"c'mon darling. let's give them some privacy." elsbeth spoke taking sir james out the room. she quietly shut the door, oliver stood up walking over to alexandra

oliver bit his lip tightly eventually looking into her eyes, "you scared me." oliver admitted making alexandra look away

she knew she fucked up. her head hasn't been in the right space since felix died then finding venetia in the way that she did just took her over the edge. "i know i fucked up." alexandra said looking in the opposite direction

"we all fuck up." oliver argued making alexandra chuckle, "yes, but this badly?" she asked embarrassingly looking down at both of her wrist that had freshly done stitches

"you can't do this again." oliver brought up sitting beside her legs. he grabbed her hand then interlocked their fingers together. electricity formed amongst him doing that

he heard alexandra sigh but she gripped onto his hand tightly, "can you look at me?"

she slowly looked at him with tears forming, "alexandra don't cry." he begged wholeheartedly. she felt embarrassed looking so weak in front of the guy she liked

"you don't need to feel embarrassed about any of this. you're human and going through a tough time right now." oliver reminded her

she glared at him with soft eyes, "but so are you." oliver couldn't help but to look down at her hand. only alexandra could be so selfless even after attempting suicide

deep down, oliver believed she didn't want to die. he knew she didn't but at the same time, he felt what she was doing was a cry out for help.

nobody has really had anytime to grieve within the past two days especially alexandra. plus grant being in a coma made her mental health deteriorate quicker than ever before

he couldn't imagine how she was feeling losing two people she loved dearly. obviously she wasn't happy with felix and definitely was done being friends with him, but that didn't mean she didn't care about him. alexandra likes to think that maybe someday he would have change, she hates knowing she'll never even know

"the world would be dim without you alexandra."

she looked at him with her emotions all over the place. oliver quickly kissed her hand making her blush. suddenly, the doctor and donatella came into the room. alexandra noticed it was the same doctor who cared for grant yesterday

she quickly sat up, "wait. wait. how is grant doing?" her voice sounded concerned about her close friend, she didn't even care to know what the doctor was about to say on her behalf

the doctor didn't hesitate to tell her, "he has woken up. he seems to remember a little from here and there. but there are some certain things he has forgotten. jogging his memory will help him hopefully remember those forgotten things." he described

oliver quickly got up then excused himself. "i need to see him." she commanded nicely

donatella walked over to her niece, "honey i think you need to see what the doctor says first."

alexandra sighed giving her aunt an ultimatum, "if you let me go see grant, i promise i'll come back home with you. no fighting. no yelling. no tantrums. just please let me talk to him."

she was desperate to see him. donatella shot the doctor a nod of approval. he called asking one of the nurses to bring a wheelchair. he then picked her up gently putting her into it then wheeling her down to grant's room

they were in a private hospital that wasn't huge but it was kept up well and had beautiful interior. very clean and well taken care of with some of the best doctors in england.

as soon as they rolled into his room, flowers along with ballon's were scattered everywhere. he was watching the television carefully, not batting an eye. he looked exhausted with bags under his eyes like alexandra

"hi honey." donatella announced herself causing him to turn his head. he smiled seeing her face again. donatella came to see him while alexandra was asleep earlier in the morning

she rolled her niece to the side of his bed. grant gave a look of confusion to alexandra before paying attention to donatella again. "are you feeling any better?"

grant nodded with a forced smile, "i am. just a little bit tired. these pain meds are kicking my ass." he explained, everyone laughed

donatella walked over to the empty side leaning down to kiss his forehead, "well we just wanted to come check on you." he smiled brightly

"you are so strong grant." alexandra mentioned grabbing his hand tightly. he looked over at her with no emotions. "t-thanks? what is your name?" he asked

donatella and alexandra shot each other a look. she chuckled, "it's me alexandra."

grant squinted trying to remember who the gorgeous girl in front of him was. tried making memories form within his head, but nothing came. "i'm sorry. i don't know who you are.." he awkwardly stated with sorrow

alexandra felt her heart breaking

alexandra can't catch a break!! 80K??? basically we are almost at 100K??!!! i never thought i would reach this milestone again. you guys really have made me get back into writing. thank you for that, i love you all ❤️