R18. Please read at your own discretion.

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I can't believe how quickly the days are passing with Gahala. I'm so thrilled to go to college, yet at the same time, namimiss ko na siya agad.

We spent our summer getting used to being adults and becoming independent. My friends and I searched for a condo and designed it according to our tastes, from the furniture to the appliances.

Nakakaexcite kasi malalayo kami sa bahay namin and from the suffocation we felt. Para kaming nga hayop na pinakawalan sa zoo for the first time.

"Magschedule kaya tayo?! If kung sino ang magwawash ng plates sa ganitong day and magcocook ng food! Kung sino yung magcleclean the condo gano'n and such!" Kala suggested and I instantly agreed.

"Schedule schedule pa kung hindi lang rin naman susundin ni Vien!" Irap ni Dolly.

"Excuse me?!" Malditang tanong pa ng huli.

Natagalan pa kami sa pagschedule dahil ang dami nilang reklamo.

"Huwag niyong palutuin si Ayel ha, for safety purposes lang," Vien teased and they immediately laughed. I just snorted saka bumusangot.

"No other sexual business inside our condo ha," pinandilatan kami ni Vien. "Lalong lalo ka na Amara!"

"What?!" I hissed immediately. "Hanggang halik pa nga lang kami!"

They gapsed, "My god, ganiyan ka kabagal?!"

"Girl! Ang hot ng boyfriend mo tapos tinitipid mo?!" Kala exaggeratedly exclaimed.

I frowned, "Siya ang nagtitipid. Hindi ako."

"Oh? Bakit parang disappointed ka?" Dolly laughed and smirked. "Turuan kita ng tips Ayel para atakihin ka niya! Rawr!"

I rolled my eyes, "No thanks. I'll find some on my own."

Kaagad silang napasipol at napangisi.

"Mukhang mapapadasal si Gahala a," Vien said teasingly.

Aside from moving into a condo, we started going to the gym and exploring different resorts! Unang subok pa lang namin sa gym ay napagod na kaagad ako. Kabaliktaran naman non si Gahala.

"May abs na akong dalawa," Gahala boasted at tinaas ang kaniyang damit para makita ko. I unconsciously looked at his stomach and looked away immediately. Meron na nga tapos parang may nadedevelop ulit na dalawa sa ibabaw.

We were at the beach again, celebrating because he got into his dream university. He looked beyond happy and contented.

"Ang abs na 'to ay para sa 'yo Amara," yabang niya.

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin ng kaunti kasi nakakahiya! Hindi niya pa din binababa ang damit niya at pinagmamayabang pa din yung dalawa niyang abs!

He laughed because of my glares. "Ayaw mo bang hawakan?" he teased more! This bastard! "Matigas siya. Pwede mo 'tong ulamin tuwing umaga," he grinned, enjoying my reaction. Napakawalanghiya talaga ng lalaking 'to!

I looked at Vien with furrowed brows when she pushed me to the side a little. "Tumabi ka, Ayel. Hayaan mong ako na."

Wala akong sinabi at inis lang na hinila ang buhok niya kaya natawa siya dahil successful siya sa pangiirita sa akin. 

"Gahala pre! Volleyball?" ayang sigaw ni Lamore.

"Teka pre!" sigaw niya pabalik saka tumingin sa akin. Nagpalaam lang siya saka sumunod na.

Naiwan kaming mga babaeng nasa cottage. We had just finished swimming earlier, and now we're eating because we're hungry.

I gulped while looking at Gahala. He's not wearing a shirt now and he's playing with the guys. Some girls are even stealing glances at him.

Puberty really favored him. Ang gandang tingnan ng katawan niya. Bumagay sa malapad niyang balikat. Hindi ko nga alam kung kailan siya naging gano'n kakisig.

"Pogi," Dolly whispered in my ear. I faked a cough and closed my slightly parted lips while looking at my man. "Tingin ka sa ibaba," Dolly whispered again. "May bakat," she laughed, and my eyes widened as I blushed.

"Gago ka! Bakit mo tinitingnan yung ano ni Gahala?!" Pang-aakusa ko. My god!

"So may bakat nga?" halakhak niya dahil nahuli niya ako! Kahit sina Kala na nakarinig ay napatawa. "Malaki ba?" ngisi niya.

"Paanong hindi lalaki e alagang Amara," asar ni Kala.

"Tigilan niyo nga ako!"

Ugh. Napakamanyak nila! Are they thirsty or what?! They're becoming wilder and wilder everyday!

"Wala pang nangyari sa inyo?" Vien asked that made my eyes grew a little bigger.

"What the hell?!" I hissed defensively.

"Nagtatanong lang!" ngisi niya. "Pero halata yung sagot sa reaksiyon mo ha!"

I rolled my eyes at them. Dahil sa mga pinagsasabi nila, nawala tuloy ako sa tamang pag-iisip.

Panay ang tingin ko do'n sa sinabi ni Dolly kasi nabobothered ako. Hindi ko mapigilang mag-isip ng malalim.

Kasalanan nila 'to! Kung ano-ano na tuloy iniisip ko! Bakit kasi ang nipis ng shorts na suot niya! Napakamakasalanan.

Bumalik lang ata ako sa katinuan nang makitang lumaki na 'yon sa paningin ko at may pumitik sa aking noo.

My whole body redden when Gahala raised his brows at me, "Saan ka tumitingin?"

"Wala!" I defensively exclaimed.

My friends, the damn devils, laughed evilly from the side. Mukhang nakita nila ang ginawa ko! Nakakahiya. Shit. Kasalanan naman nila kung bakit ako tumingin doon!

Hindi pa nakatulong na kinulong ako ni Gahala dito sa upuan ko. I couldn't help but gulp. I tried to push him away pero nanatili ang kamay ko sa dibdib niyang matigas dahil parang nanlalambot ako. He's leaning against me at hindi ko mapigilang malatingin at his leaned and well-toned body.

Napansin ko rin ang mga muscles saka ugat niya sa kamay! Tangina? Kailan pa siya naging ganito?  He looked so hot.

"Yuck Amara, nakita kitang tumitingin sa ano ko," Gahala whispered in my ears and I felt him grinning there.

I bit my lower lip and my ears turned red. Nakikiliti ako sa mainit niyang hininga. "Hindi nga ako tumitingin doon!" inis kong deny.

He laughed a little, "Saan ka hindi tumitingin Amara?"

I stuttered, "Sa..Sa ano..."

He chuckles and pinched my cheeks, "Okay lang 'yan. Sa 'yo lang naman 'yan."

My eyes widened, "What?"

"Sana all sa 'yo lang!" segunda ni Vien sa likod habang humahagikhik sila don.

Gahala's brows furrowed, "Ayaw mo ba?"

"What the hell are you saying?" I hissed. "Anong akin?"

"I saw you looking at my abs," he playfully said. "Ayaw mo? Sa 'yo lang 'to oh," yabang niya.

Jesus. I nearly fainted. Sa...iba naman ako tumitingin pero okay lang. Akin pa din naman 'yon.

After that incident, hindi ko na talaga mapigilang tumingin kay Gahala. I feel like something clicked within me at gusto ko na lang siyang...atakihin.

I can't help but feel hot every time we make out. Minsan napupunta ang kamay niya sa kung saan-saan pero agad din itong tumitigil! Nakakainis minsan kasi nabibitin ako!

"Hmm, Amara,"

My body heated after hearing his low moan after I bite his lower lip.

"Why are you so aggressive today?" he chuckled softly and pulled away, breathing heavily as he looked at me.

"Wala," I panted, glancing down at his lower body. I was straddling him and felt uncomfortable because something was poking me below.

He faked a cough and gently pushed me off him. My eyes widened after seeing a bulge there, ready to explode. He blushed and grabbed a pillow from the sofa to cover it.

I didn't know what to say. He stared at me and laughed after seeing my expression. "Cute amp."

"Uhm, should we take care of it... or what?" I hesitantly asked.

He stared at me for a moment as if processing what I had said. Then he shook his head with a smile before pulling me close to him. He made me sit on the sofa and adjusted his position, laying his head on my thighs.

He rolled over until he faced my stomach, wrapping his arms around my waist and burying his face there. I felt butterflies as he kissed me there.

Napabusangot na lang ako nang makatulog na siya. This is always the ending whenever we make out!

It's happened several times now, and I'm almost getting annoyed with him. Nakakainis ang Silvang 'to! Ayaw niya bang gawin sa akin?! Bakit nagpipigil siya? Napupuno na ako ha!

"You're hard! Why are you stopping?" I asked irritably. "Don't you find me attractive or what?!"

We were watching a movie in the living room of his condo but ended up making out again. And you know what happened next!

I tried to grind against his boner but he just chuckled and held me by the waist to steady me.

He chuckled at my statement. "Hindi sa gano'n."

"Eh bakit nga?!" I asked angrily, folding my arms.

"Are you giving me permission?" he asked amusingly. "You're acting so weird these past few days. Parang gusto mo akong kainin." He teased.

Bumusangot ako, "Matagal na kaya kitang binibigyan ng permiso! Halos ako na yung gumapang sa 'yo!"

Napailing siya ng may ngiti sa labi. "Are you sure you are ready for this big step, Amara? I'm afraid I will take advantage of you."

"Yes, I'm ready! You just had to ask! And you're not taking advantage of me lalo na kapag gusto ko din yung ginagawa mo!" Inis kong paintindi sa kaniya that made him grin.

"Hmm? Really?" He asked but I can't answer anymore because I was occupied by his hand that was traveling in my legs upward.

It leisurely slipped inside my shorts and I gulped when he already reached the hem of my panty. He leaned on the backrest of my sofa and watched my reaction. He pursed his lips but there was a playful smile etched on it.

I don't know what happened next. I just found myself laying on the sofa while he was hovering over me. I don't have any bottoms and underwear left and my legs were spread apart.

"Gahala," I moaned when it reached deep.

"Shh," he whispered sensually in my ears while pleasuring me using his fingers. I just pulled his hair more and moaned at his ears. "Does it hurt?" he asked softly and bit my ear.

I shook my head, "A little but it's fine now." I whispered.

"Hmm," he nuzzles my ear and I fucking grip his shirt when he added another finger, spreading my insides more.

He just stared at my reaction while he was doing magic below. I can't contain his stares, especially when he fastens the pace of his fingers inside me. He applied some force to my clit and I can't help but tremble and reached my release.

Hapo-hapo ako nang matapos. Our eyes met and a blush struck me. Doon lang ako tinablan ng hiya nang linisin niya ako.

"I wanted to warm you up first before we do it," he told me seriously.

I blushed more. I'm already crying inside because of embarrassment. My God. Gano'n ba ako kauhaw sa kaniya? "Why do you sound so expert when it comes to this?"

He just laughed at hindi sinagot ang tanong ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng tawang 'yon!

Hinalikan niya ako sa noo bago tumayo para itapon yung pinamunas niya sa akin. Bumalik din siya kaagad at tinulungang ipasuot sa akin ulit ang hinubad niya.

Ugh. Hindi na ako makatingin nang maayos sa kaniya without remembering what happened a while ago.

I closed my thighs because my center feels so weird. I can still feel his fingers and touch, going inside and out there.

"How about that?" I whispered and pointed to his tent in the middle using my lips.

He looked down at it and laughed a little. He met my eyes and grinned. "I can take care of it," he sensually said which made me blush. "Just give me 30 minutes. Cr lang ako. "

Ayoko ng isipin kung paano ang take care na 'yon! After 30 minutes, lumabas din siya, puno ng pawis. Hindi na tuloy ako makatingin pero rinig ko ang tawa niya dahil sa reaction ko.

Hindi na ulit nasundan 'yon kasi bigla akong tinamaan ng hiya. I always limit na hanggang halik na lang kami. Pinipigilan ko talaga ang sarili ko at ako na yung lumalayo!

Natatawa siya lagi sa akin kapag umiiwas ako. He teased me once about it pero hindi niya na inulit ulit kasi napikon ako sa kaniya.

"Good luck on your first day of school! H'wag kang kabahan ha," he reminded me after dropping me off in front of my university.

"Ikaw din, iwas sa chicks," ngiting matamis ko na siyang nagpangiwi sa kaniya. He knows it's a warning.

Malaki naman ang tiwala ko sa kaniya kasi sa sobra dalawang taon naming pagsasama wala naman siyang record ng pangloloko pero lagi siyang loko-loko.

"Ikaw lang ang chick ko," he said and kissed my forehead to say goodbye. "I love you,"

"I love you too."

Umalis din kaagad siya kasi ayaw niyang malate daw sa first day. First impressions last daw. Napapairap na lang ako habang iniisip siya saka ngumiti din ako kalaunan.

We just had orientation on our first day. We also introduced ourselves and got to know our classmates. We also toured the university, thrilled by the new environment. We searched for our classrooms in different subjects and familiarized ourselves with them. It was fun but also tiring, probably because it was the first day of classes and we were still adjusting.

I was already smiling as I walked closer to Gahala. He was waiting for me in the parking lot.

"So how's school, anak? May gwapo ba?" he teasingly asked when I entered the car.

I rolled my eyes and paid more attention to the Starbucks coffee and hamburger I saw than to his question. "Is this mine?" I asked. He nodded, so I took a sip of the Chai Latte.

"It's fine. I already made friends right away. How about yours?" I answered his question while unwrapping the hamburger. I brought it close to his mouth, and he took a bite while still focused on driving.

He swallowed and puckered his lips, "Sobrang stressful! Na-threaten ako sa mga kaklase ko. Parang lahat sila matatalino kasi nagi-English sila! Naubos tuloy ang baon ko ngayon. I have new friends though. Si Yule at si Theros. Oh, and Yacey's there too."

Kaagad akong napatingin nang makarinig ng pamilyar na pangalan. I raised my brows, "Who? Yacey?"

He nodded and took a glimpse at me. "Yeah. Yung muse natin noong grade 10."

Napatahimik ako saglit because I suddenly felt discomfort. "Really?" Taas kilay kong tanong. "You know that she likes you right?" I asked. I never thought na magiging kaklase sila.

He smiled and grabbed my hand to kiss it. "Yeah, and you know that I love you, right?"

Napairap na lang ako para itago ang kilig. My worries were suddenly forgotten. "What a smooth talker. Hindi ka naman playboy."

"Playboy lang naman ako pagdating sa 'yo."

I chuckled, can't suppress the butterflies I'm feeling. "Ulol."

"Kinilig ka naman," asar niya kaya piningot ko siya, making him hissed because of pain.

Naging kalmado ako pagkatapos. Saka grade 10 pa kami no'n. Baka wala na din siyang nararamdaman kay Gahala. I shrugged and didn't let it bother me.

Ang hirap mag-adjust lalo na't sanay kaming magkasama lagi, tapos biglang naging busy kami bigla. Naiintindihan ko naman dahil tumatanda na kami at marami nang responsibilidad.

Pero kahit ganoon, sinisigurado naming may quality time kami. Kahit sabay na lang kaming mag-review, okay na 'yon. Halos sa condo na niya ako tumira kasi minsan sa pagtulog na magkatabi na lang kami nagkakaoras.

Mas busy siya kaysa sa akin. Ang dami niyang ginagawa at binabasa, tapos minsan sabay-sabay pa quizzes at recitations nila. Minsan, nagigising ako ng madaling araw pero gising pa rin siya.

He never failed to cook meal before I wake up though. Pinapagalitan ko na nga kasi dapat tinutulog niya na lang 'yon.

"Gusto ko paggising mo may kakainin ka," is the reason he always used. Tapos ngingitian lang ako na para bang makakalusot siya sa akin kapag ginagawa niya 'yon.

Napairap na lang ako sa kanyang kaartihan. Minsan, I gave up arguing with him kasi ang dami niyang nasasabi, which made me think na bagay nga talaga sa kanya ang maging abogado.

"Love, massage? Gusto mo?" Ilang oras na siya doong nagbabasa! Naproprocess at naiintindihan pa ba 'yon ng utak niya?

Tumingala siya mula sa pagbabasa saka pinikit ng mariin ang kaniyang mata. He looked so stress. He sighed and looked at me. "Yes, please."

Tumayo ako saka pumunta sa likod niya. He stopped reading for a while and closed his eyes to enjoy what I was doing."Thank you for staying even though I'm so busy."

"It's nothing," I assured him.

Napatigil ako sa ginagawa nang tumingala siya. I looked down at him and he was puckering his lips. So I bent down and kissed him.

He sighed. "It sucks that I still have a lot to read." Reklamo niya bigla. "I'm trying to finish this so that I can have a date with you."

Hinampas ko siya, "Unahin mo yung pahinga kaysa sa akin."

Hindi lang yung pagluluto niya ang pinag-aawayan namin. Pati na rin ang paghatid at pagsundo niya sa akin sa university at ang pagpunta niya kapag may free time siya!

Mas napapalayo kasi siya kaya I feel like a burden to him! Yung time na nilalaan niya sa akin, dapat sa readings niya na lang ginugugol.

"I can study with you, Ayel." Sabi niya after driving nearly 1 hour and 30 minutes because of the traffic!

"Traveling a certain distance is tiring, Gahala! You should rest!" pikon kong ani. Hindi ba naman nakikinig sa akin!

"Miss lang kita lagi," sambit niya na parang nangungulila siya! Akala mo naman ilang taon kaming hindi nagkikita. "And it's not traveling, love," he pouts. "I'm going home to you. And going home to you also means resting. So I'm resting."

I sighed, pinipigilan ang sarili kong sermonan pa siya kasi nga pagod na. Ano pa bang magagawa at malalaban ko doon?

"We have a group study later with my friends.” Biglang inform niya sa akin isang araw. "Malapit lang dito. Do you wanna come? I'll introduce you," he invited.

"Yeah, sure." I felt thrilled all of sudden sa invitation niya. First time ko kasing makikita ang mga University friends niya.

"Pre, si Amara, girlfriend ko," proud na pakilala ni Gahala. Nasa isang coffee shop nga kami near our place.

"I'm Theros," the guy with a piercing in the lips introduced.

"Yule nga pala!" the other guy with highlights on his hair said. There's a playful smile plastered on his lips like he's teasing me.

"So you're the reason why he's always rejecting the babes who kept hitting on him huh!" Theros laugh after we sat at our table.

"Now I understand why. Panis pala sila sa girlfriend," Yule laugh. They looked so chill, you'd never guess they were BS LegMa students.

"Sabi ko sa inyo e," pagyayabang ni Gahala sa tonong 'I told you'.

"Kaya pala kahit si Yacey rejected even though she's pretty and persistent," Theros uttered jokingly.

Yule laughed and nudged him, "Gag--."

"What?" I interrupted, which made them stop. Napantig ang tainga ko sa narinig na pangalan.

What rejected? Hindi naman ako bobo para hindi kaagad magets. Bakit hindi niya sinabi sa akin?

Napatingin ang dalawang kaibigan niya sa akin ng may pagtataka. They gasped when it hit them and nervously stared at me. Parang naging tuta sila bigla na nagmamakaawang tumingin sa akin. Their stares were already asking for forgiveness from Gahala.

"I thought... she knew," Alanganing ngiti ni Yule.

I showed them a fake smile and turned to Gahala. I raised my brows at him which made him smile awkwardly and nervous. I shrugged, "I thought so too."

"Babe," Gahala called me, nanunuyo ang boses.

I sighed and avoided his hand when he tried to hold mine. "It's fine. You can study. We can talk about this later."

He fell silent and couldn't say anything. Ang dalawang kaibigan niya ay biglang nagbuklat ng kung libro at nagbasa. I even saw them nudging each other secretly na para bang nagsisihan pa. Napairap na lang ako kasi baliktad pa yung Taxation book na binabasa nila.

Wala nang nagsalita pagkatapos. I'm just sipping my coffee while the other guys are uncomfortably sitting in their seats and trying so hard to read. I can even hear them silently praying.

I know they can't concentrate because of me pero naiinis kasi ako. I'm trying my best not to knot my brows and glare at Gahala but I can't stop myself from torturing him in my mind.

Nilayo ko ang kamay ko sa ilalim nang sinubukan niya ulit iyong hawakan. I heard him sighing. I look at him when he put the book he's reading down and put them back in his bag again.

"Mag-uusap lang kami bro," paalam niya saka ako hinigit papalayo sa kanila.

"Sure bro! Talk well!" ngiting kabado ni Yule saka kumaway naman si Theros.

Tahimik lang kaming dalawa sa sasakyan. He kept glancing at me but I'm not looking back at him.

"Love," pagsusumamo niya nang makapasok kami sa kaniyang condo.

I sighed and went to the kitchen to pour myself water. Nakasunod siya sa akin at tinitingnan ang bawat galaw ko. "She's hitting on you? Bakit hindi mo sinabi?" Tanong ko kaagad matapos kong uminom at ilagay ang baso.

He walked closer and cornered me against the counter. He tried to kiss my head, but I turned away from his lips. He groaned na parang batang hindi napagbigyan. "Because, babe, honestly, I don't really care about it. I don't think Yacey is important enough na pagsayangan ng oras at pag-usapan."

Hindi ko mapigilang mas mairita sa reasoning and logic niya. "But I care about those things, Gahala! Just because it doesn't matter to you doesn't mean I feel the same way. Hindi mo iniisip ang mararamdaman ko! Why don't you try putting yourself in my shoes? What if someone flirted with me and you didn't know about it huh? Anong mararamdaman mo kapag nalaman mo?"

"Pagdududahan kita because you hid it from me. Iisipin ko na tinago mo 'yon sa akin because those things really matter, like you're cheating on me in secret," he said with a regretful tone, realizing his mistake. "I'm sorry." He hugged me tightly. "I should have been more open and told you sooner. I didn't mean to dismiss your feelings about it."

"Huwag mo akong idaan sa pagpapacute mo!" ani ko kaagad nang halik-halikan niya ako sa balikat. "Kasi it's not working!" dugtong ko dahil sa totoo lang, nagsisimula na akong lumambot sa ginagawa niya!

"Sorry for making you worry, love. Part of the reason I didn't say anything is because we only have limited time together, and I didn't want to spend that time discussing less important things. Plus, I know you'd be upset about it. Gusto kong sulitin yung mga oras na 'yon na masaya tayo. " He explained at nadala naman ako sa mga salita niya.

I sighed, medyo kumalma na because of his explanation. "Ano ang mga ginawa niya na hindi ko alam, Gahaldon Jammes?"

He pursed his lips when I used his full name. I couldn't tell if he was scared or turned on by it.

"She's trying so hard to get my attention and all, but I'm not paying attention to her. I promise." He confessed.

Nainis ako sa sinabi niya at natahimik. Papansin din pala ang babaeng 'yon. Kairita.

"Babe," nguso niya at hinalikan ako sa pisngi. Ilang ulit niya 'yong paulit-ulit na ginawa. "Sorry na. As much as possible trintry ko talagang hindi siya kausapin o pansinin man lang. There are some instances na hindi ko 'yon magawa kasi magkaklase kami. We do stuffs together, and collaborate. Promise, kung hindi naman importante, hindi ko naman siya kinakausap."

Bumuntong-hininga ako saka tumango. "Fine," suko ko. "May tiwala naman ako sa 'yo e."

He stared at me and forced his lips not to smile. " I love you. Huwag na masama ang loob hmm?" he lovingly uttered and kissed my head longer. "Anong suyo gusto mo?"

I puckered my lips and encircled my arms in his shoulder. "Kiss."

"Hmm," he hummed and dipped his head down. Our lips met. "Open your lips, Amara." He whispered and hold my chin down para tulungan akong ibuka iyon. As I obeyed, his kiss deepened and his tounge penetrated, making me feel a rush of heat.

I tightened my hold on him when I felt his kisses traveling down to my neck. I looked up so he could kiss my jaws better. I felt him sucking my sensitive place there before looking me in the eyes.

The next thing I knew we are already kissing hard in the kitchen. I moaned his name when I felt his hand on my breast.

"Gahala," I can't even recognized my voice. I jumped on him and he held me in my butt to support my weight. Hindi niya ako tinigilan kakahalik hanggang sa makapasok kami sa kwarto niya.

"Don't you need to study?" I asked him when he gently put me in the bed. He hovered over me and put his knee between my thighs.

"Later, kailangan kitang suyuin ngayon." Nahihirapang sabi niya.

I pushed him and he panicked but I just wanted to straddle him. Mas lalo siyang nahirapan sa ginawa ko.

I could feel his hardness below and he's even growing bigger. He groaned and held me in the waist, diniin ako doon. I gulped when I felt it more. It's making me feel hot and impatient.

"This is torture Amara," he breathes while lovingly looking at me.

I pursed my lips as I felt myself turning crimson. "Please? Torture me more."

Napaawang ang labi niya sa narinig. I dipped my head down to kiss him. He moaned softly and kissed me back. I felt him encircling his hands in my waist and pressing me closer to him until there was no space left between us. It's making me feel his boner more. I can't help but utter a crispy 'fuck' when he rubbed it on me.

"Are you sure about this?" he asked between kisses on my jaw and neck. I moaned softly, gripping his hair tighter as he sucked, leaving marks behind.

"Yes," I panted, grinding against his arousal. The friction was making me wet.

"I don't have any rubbers with me," parang hindi makahingang sambit niya, tinitingnan ang ginagawa ko.

"Pull out method?" I suggested in a pleading tone.

His brows arched. "How did you learn about that?"

I bit my lower lip.

"Amara," he called softly, unbuttoning my shirt. I assisted him and unclasped my bra, revealing my breasts, which made him gulp and curse.

"Nabasa ko 'yon sa... isang smut story," I moaned as he fondled my chest.

"Uh-huh. You read one without telling me?" he asked sarcastically, watching my reaction. He licked his lower lip, a smirk forming at the corner of his mouth.

"Sorr-- ah," I gasped as he dipped his head down and took my nipple into his mouth. I felt his tongue playing with it while his other hand massaged my other breast.

He bit my nipple and playfully tugged it. "Pull-out method is not safe. I might pre-cum inside you." He said after he left my nipples alone.

"How about pills?" I negotiated, hugging his head to bury him in my breast and urging for more.

He chuckled and paused to look up at me. "Alright."

"How about you? Where did you learn things like this?" I asked him, my mind growing hazy.

"I'm a guy, and I have needs," he said seriously but shyly. "Of course... sometimes, I do the miracle."

My lips parted a little and look at him like as if he committed big a sin. So...he does have a perverted side!

"Who are you thinking of while doing it, huh?" I asked him, teasingly. I glanced down as his hand traveled up my legs, reaching the inside of my skirt.

"Shut up, Amara. You really want me to say it?" He looked embarrassed, but his hands betrayed him as he began playing with the hem of my panties. What the hell?

"Who? Tell me, Gahal--ah," I shuddered as he abruptly set my panty aside and began fiddling with my folds.

"You're so wet," he whispered as he sucked my neck. I felt him grinning there, and I gripped his shoulder tighter when I felt him insert his two fingers inside me.

"Of course, you. You look even hotter than I imagined." He whispered in my ears and bite it while moving his fingers below.

I couldn't focus on what he was saying anymore. I'm completely occupied of his hands doing magic between my thighs! It's sent waves of pleasure through my body, setting my whole existence on fire.

He laid me in bed and took my skirt off. He hovered over me, and I was so embarrassed when he set my legs apart and played with my sensitive part again. I groaned when he inserted his fingers for the second time. He bent down to kiss me, and I immediately encircled my arms around his shoulder to pull him close.

Something's tickling my bum, and I can't help but spread my legs wider so he can move more freely. He fastened his fingers afterward as if he took the hint.

He pulled out from the kiss and stared at me underneath him. I looked at him lovingly when the side of his lips lifted and he grinned after seeing my lewd face. He looked so handsome.

I cursed when he dug his fingers deeper within me. The sensation is just so much that I can't help but cry his name as I reached it. My toes curl as I shudder.

"Hmm. That was beautiful," he sensually whispered and kiss me on the cheeks.

Bumangon siya pagkatapos. Hingal-hingal kong tinungkod ang aking siko sa kama para tingnan siyang maghubad ng damit.

He looked so hot. His broad shoulders were perfectly proportioned. His muscles are in the right places and his Adam's apple was undeniably sexy.

I gulped as I stared at him lowering the zipper of his pants. Hindi ata ako mapakali nang ibaba niya ang boxers niya. I looked down at his thing and my lips parted a little.

"Tangina, ano 'yan?" hindi ko mapigilang sabi.

"What?" he asked, parang naoffend sa naausal ko.

"Why it's so big?" I panicked.

He chuckled at my reaction. "How do you know it's big if you've never seen another man's dick?"

I glared at him. "Can't you see the size?!"

He snickered. "Sorry, I can't make it smaller. And it's your fault kung bakit ganiyan 'yan kalaki. Ikaw lang naman ang iniisip ko habang nag..." Bitin niya and grinned at me.

"What? Nagjajakol?" Tapos ko kasi parang hinahamon niya ako kung kaya ko bang sabihin 'yon. Hinampas ko siya sa inis nang matawa siya, quite proud because I really did say it.

He climbed into the bed and I blushed when he spread my legs. Damn fuck. He's looking at my flesh face to face and even staring!

Nakakahiya! I tried to cover it but he caught my hand. I attempted to close my legs, but he held my thighs tighter. "What? Grabe na yung ginawa ko diyan kanina tapos ngayon ka lang nahiya?" panggagago niya sa akin!

"Gago ka!" Mura ko sa kaniya even though I'm already panicking.

He smirked and chuckled. My curses turned into moans when I felt his tongue playing with my folds! Licking them! Nakalimutan ko na ang sasabihin ko saka napasabunot na lang sa buhok niya.

I enjoyed what he did. My back kept arching every time he'll lick my sensitive spot. He explored all of me until I became wet enough for him.

"Are you sure about this Amara? This can't be undone," he asked as he positioned himself and brush his tip in my entrance. He fucking expects me to say no when he's doing that?!

"I am sure of this," I answered while gritting my teeth. I was already anticipating more. "Can't you just make it faster?" Kanina pa kasi siya!

He chuckled. "Calm down, woman. I was trying to control myself so I won't hurt you. Mamaya ko na bibilisan. Let's take it slow muna." He breathes as he slowly pushes it in.

I bit my lower lip hardly after that because it's so painful. It felt like he was tearing me apart.

He panicked after seeing my face. "Does it hurt so much?"

"It's fine," I breathe. "Normal lang naman 'to kapag first time, hindi ba?"

"Amara," he gulped and shook his head repeatedly, mukhang natakot. "Probably the foreplay was not sufficient enough. I'm sorry."

"It's normal for your size," I told him. Pampapabulag!

Huwag niyang sasabihing magbaback out siya ngayon?! Yes it hurts pero God! I'm super horny right now!

"Amara, no. I just can't force it. Baka masugatan ka sa loob. Should I pull out?" he hesitantly asked, hindi alam ang gagawin.

He was really about to pull out when I pushed my body forward so his length will fill me to the brim. I groaned because of what I did. It hurts but I felt pleasure as well.

He looked at me with wide eyes dahil sa ginawa ko. Parang may pinatay ako sa harapan niya dahil sa tingin niya.

All of him is inside me now. He's pulsating that I could feel its veins. It's making me wetter and sloppier than earlier.

"Are you fine?" halos siya yung maiyak sa aming dalawa. Kaya kahit medyo masakit ay natawa ako sa tanong niya.

"Yeah, it hurt less now," I chuckled.

He's really trying not to move even a bit. His eyes watered a little like a lost puppy. "Bakit kasi pinilit mo?" paninisi niya pa." Are you sure it doesn't hurt?" nag-aalalang tanong niya.

"Oo nga," tawa ko.

Bumusangot siya nang makitang tinawanan ko siya. "Ugh," he moaned when I grind suddenly.

"See? It's okay now." I told him, gulping. Fck, I want more.

"Shit, ang daya," he said while biting his lower lip so much and his face looked so pleased. "Sabi mo okay na ha?" Paninigurado niya before he pushed slowly inside me which made me moan.

He did it again to watch my reaction. He looked down at our intersection and bit his lower lip again. He looked so turned on dahil sa nakita niya. He moved slowly at first but he fastened it when he noticed that I'm not feeling hurt anymore.

"Gahala, shit," I cursed when he pushed so hard inside me. I covered my mouth to suppress my moans as he thrust faster.

He removed my hands from my mouth and kissed my lips while still moving. I unintentionally bit his lower lip when he found my clit and applied some force there every time he reached something deep within me.

He kept doing it until I feel like I was about to reach it. He stopped kissing me to watch my reaction as he pound hard inside me.

"Hmm. Shit, Amara." He whispered in my ears. "Ang sarap."

I was so focused with my upcoming climax pero bigla na lang akong natawa sa sinabi niya. That was so cringe.

"Yeah?" I teased.

Nawala ang ngisi ko nang bigla niyang diniinan just to get back on me.  I can't help but spread my legs more so he could move more freely. I clenched his bedsheet when I felt my release. My toes curled and my back arched.

I thought he'll stop but he didn't. He continue moving inside me and it became more sloppy because of my release. He cursed and bite his lower lip as he moved faster than earlier. I was already moaning loudly.

"Gahala, it feels so good," I uttered unconsciously which make him chuckle a little.

"Hmm. I love you," he said as I felt him ramming harder like he wanted to chase something. Then, he shuddered and pulled out.

He held his thing at pump it a little as he came in my thighs. "Fuck," he cursed and looked up to close his eyes. I just stared at his pleased reaction.

Pagod na pagod akong bumagsak after going for another round. Ang huli kong naalala ay ang paglinis niya sa akin.

I fell asleep and woke up after a few hours with him burying his face my breast. He was even breathing peacefully.

He's not wearing anything on top and I can feel that I'm still naked beneath the blanket. I moved and hugged him. I kissed his head and smiled.

"Hmm, are you awake now?" he asked sleepily, burying his face there even more.

"Hmm," I just hummed in response.

"What do you feel?" he hoarsely asked and I felt him leaving a kiss on my breast.

"Sore, below."

"Yeah. Those rounds are too much for a first-timer," he chuckled, nagyayabang.

"How about yours? Is it also sore? Since it's also your first time," pang-asar ko din.

He groaned shyly and hugged me tightly. "Lovee.." reklamo niya.

I laughed a little. Panis pala siya e. "Bakit? Ang wild mo kanina tapos ngayon nahihiya ka."

He pulled out from the hug para lang ngumuso sa akin. "Iba naman yung kanina," I can't concentrate on what he was saying because I was astonished at how handsome he is. Naging blooming siya bigla amp. "Do you like the wild me?" he teased.

I rolled my eyes at piniling manahimik. I can feel my face blushing as I felt him staring.

"Sus. Gusto mo 'no?" Panunukso niya and laughed so hard when I pushed his face away.

I tsked and told him to shut up. I pushed him off and sat up. Bumaba tuloy ang kumot ko saka naging visible sa kaniya ang aking dibdib.

He looked down at my breast. May mga hickeys doon, and I can't count how many they are.

Nakita niya naman kanina kaya wala ng saysay kung itago. I raised my brows when he suddenly hugged me and buried his face in my breast.

"They're so soft," he laughed and kissed them.

Hinampas ko siya, "Manyak."

"Are you going to shower?" he asked as he followed me using his eyes when I stood up. He lowered his gaze and licked his lower lip. "Love, you're so beautiful. It's making me angry."

"Ikaw ba talaga? O 'yan?" Nguso ko sa ibaba niya.

"Dalawa kami," ngiting aso niya.

Napailing na lang ako saka hindi siya pinansin at pumasok na lang sa cr. Minutes later, he followed. Pumaloob din siya sa shower and I felt his kisses in my shoulders.

"Is this an invitation?" he whispered in my ears as he held me at my waist. "You didn't even lock the door so I'll take it as yes," he chuckle and started to do me in his ways again in the shower. I don't even know how many times we made love.

Kumain kami ng hapunan after and cuddled in bed. Tahimik lang kami as if we're savoring the moment. He played with my hair while I lay on his chest, hugging him. I could feel him kissing my forehead multiple times.

"I love you," he whispered. "Sobrang mahal na mahal kita."

I formed a sleepy smile as I felt myself getting contented.

"Should I help you with your hair?"

Tiningnan ko si Gahala sa salamin. Pumasok siya sa kwarto habang nag-aayos ako. Napatigil lang siya bigla nang tumunog ang cellphone niya.

"Who's that?" Tanong ko nang makita kong kumunot ang noo niya matapos mabasa ang message.

Kita kong kinalikot niya ang phone niya saka ngumiti ulit na lumapit sa akin, planting a kiss on my shoulders. "Si Yacey. Hindi ko alam kung paano niya nakuha ang number ko. And!" Agap niya agad nang makitang ibubuka ko ang bibig ko. "She's already blocked and deleted. No need to worry. "

Inirapan ko siya para itago ang ngiti ko. I appreciate it though. Hindi ko na kailangang pagsabihan.

"Are you done? Let's go?" he asked after I stood up.

Tumango lang ako saka inaayos ang damit kong bahagyang nalukot bago tinanggap ang kamay niya.

Today's our 3rd anniversary at ayokong masira dahil lang sa isang text. It wasn't important anyway. Gahala made me feel that.

He drove until we reached a lake Napangiti na ako nang makitang may nakahanda ng blanket doon saka mga pagkain. May mga lights na din sa paligid as a design. So we're going to have a picnic dinner, huh?

Our celebration was just like any other day. We talked, ate, and laughed together. We reminisced about our moments from years ago and burst out laughing. Grabe. Hindi ko inaakalang magtatagal kami ng ganito.

"Lanterns?" I asked, confused, when I saw him holding two white lanterns.

"Yeah. Para maiba naman." He gave me one lantern and a pen. "Let's write our biggest wish here and let the heavens read it."

Kinuha ko iyon sa kaniya saka nag-isip nang isusulat doon. Gano'n din ang ginawa niya at nang may maisip na, seryoso niya iyong isinulat.

We lit the lanterns nang okay na. We waited until they floated, then released them. He encircled his arms around my waist as we looked up, watching the lanterns light the dark sky. They flew high until they disappeared from our sight.

"I hope our wishes reach the Gods and they make them come true," he whispered. "Ano ang sinulat mo?" he asked hopefully.

I smiled and shook my head, refusing to answer him. "Secret."

I hope that whatever happens in the future, we'll still find our way back and end up together.