Night. A peaceful time. Silence. Everything's quiet. But in my head is war. In my head is chaos. The monsters are screaming. Howling. Crying. Scratching their skin of. They are keeping me awake. They keep me away from happiness. From a normal life. I can't get rid of them. They're always there. Always loud. Screaming. They became a part of me. A part I hate but at the same time need. They keep me alive. Because they remind me that I have things to live for. People to love for. With their screams they protect and destroy me at the same time. I want to hate them but at the same time I want to keep them. Let their screams fill my head. Control my thoughts. Because they make the decisions I couldn't. And that's the reason I need them. Without them I would've been gone since a long time.