i stopped things with guy 1 but we're still friends and we facetimed today

he literally said that he needs to see someone to make a relationship work like we're in a pandemic honey why would u start something that u knew would fail

ugh fuck

guy 2 and i are close still and i'm away from my city but we facetimed and texted and everything

he's super cute

like oh my god

wow

i've kinda given up with guys and whatever happens happens and i cant get mad or sad

i've never cried over a guy that's not fictional lmfao

sometimes i'm like do i even deserve happiness but then i'm like wtf yeah i've been through hell and back i deserve this

and then it never happens and i'm like well whatever lmfao

anyways

how are u guys doing?
how's ur winter breaks if u have them?
how was ur holidays?