Alright guys, I'm back on track! Though I tell ya, I cannot WAIT for next week's episode 'Imperial Supercommandos' and you'd all better watch it because it includes THIS MOMENT:

OH YEAH. OHHH YEAH. I have been looking forward to this since July 15th when I went to Celebration, and I will definitely do some writing following that episode, which will include ANY MISSING FLIRTING *looks pointedly at Dave Filoni* (dude - Taylor Gray HIMSELF has spoken, FOLLOW UP ON IT!!! Please? You're amazing!)
Anyhoo, this episode comes straight after Holocrons of Fate, because I don't know if you've noticed but Ezra's mood is back to normal after that hug with Kanan and learning more. :))))) and I'm here to fill in those missing sabezra moments that on a show such as NCIS:LA would totally be put in *looks at Dave Filoni pointedly again.* I've also done some spelling checks on previous fics - tweak, poor attention to detail! Anyway. Enjoy!

Things had changed. A LOT of things had changed. Kanan, blind but slowly healing. Ezra, hair cut and more reckless than ever. Ahsoka, gone, and they didn't know whether she was alive or dead at the hands of Darth Vader. Sabine, armour and hair changed but personality still the same. And like the rest of them, she was concerned about Ezra. He was improving, healing himself, but it was going slowly. Too slow for her liking.
Well, until the holocron exploded.

Darth Maul, that bantha-licking, destructive, vicious monster was the cause of all this. Taking Sabine, Hera and Zeb hostage only added to his list of "How to be a Bad Dude" which was already full to the brim. Heh, Ezra made up that one.

And connecting the holocrons was something that had shocked Sabine to the core. But what concerned her more was how Ezra was knocked unconscious because of it. He looked like a boy again, 17 though he was. Seventeen. Sabine couldn't believe how far things had come. And when he woke up, a feeling swelled in her chest that she only slightly tried (and failed) to suppress. She cared deeply - almost fathomlessly - about him now, and probably always would. Which was dangerous. But hey, when were their lives ever not going to be dangerous?

Bringing him home to the Ghost, he was still a little woozy. But there definitely was something different about him. And Sabine found that it made her much less concerned, because right away he started joking  around - something he hadn't done for months. Months!

Sabine propped him on the stool as he clutched ice to his head. "Whoosh, head rush. There's some trippy stuff going on in those holocrons."
She couldn't help but smile relievedly. "I'll never fully understand all that Jedi stuff but... Did you find what you were looking for?"

Ezra shrugged. "Holocrons are like most Jedi things - they never tell you what's what straight up. I can only guess that one day, somehow and somewhere we'll be able to defeat the empire. Until then, it's all Bantha fodder to me!"

They both laughed. It felt good to laugh, Ezra thought. He couldn't believe he hadn't done it for so long. He hadn't been himself - and he sure wasn't going to lose it now. He needed to listen to Kanan - who was he otherwise? Definitely not Maul's lackey. What Ezra wanted to do to that lowlife piece of scum he couldn't put in words. But, revenge wasn't the Jedi way. And he really did want to be a Jedi.

"Ouch," he moaned as she bounced on the sofa next to him.
"Oh, stop whining you big baby."
He scowled. "Hey, I am totally qualified to whine. Got knocked down by a craaazy Sith guy and a melded holocron. For your information, I have an official Whine Allowance Pass!"
She snorted loudly, and he couldn't help but laugh again. There was a short silence as she brought in the rest of the meds and some chocolate, and he began to feel slightly guilty again.

Consumed with rage, sadness and mortifying guilt, over the last few months he had begun to push everyone away, including Sabine. Bossing her and the others around - what was he doing, trying to be a leader without Kanan to guide him?
He needed to make things right, somehow clear up the air.

"So... Doctor Wren. Miss me all these months?"
Sabine put a hand to her chin and scratched her fake beard, as he held his breath.

"Let me see. Some commando version of you acting like a jerk, strutting around bossing me and everyone else? Who wasn't talking to Kanan and WAS using that crazy Sith thing until what happened back there  knocked a little sense back into you.  We hardly ever saw you all those months, what with your training and being all high up in the rebellion and yada yada yada. So what do you think?"

He bit his lip, expecting the worst, and she punched his shoulder. The Mandalorian surprised him deeply with what she said next.

"Of course I missed you, dork. You haven't been yourself for so long, it's... good to see you joking around again."

Ezra raised his eyebrows, and his mouth spread in a wide, wide smile. "Seriously?"
She reached out and touched his shoulder. "Seriously."

There was a moment where they stared into each other's eyes, and within Ezra's there was an apology.
Sabine knew what he was trying to say without him having to say it. So she mouthed, "It's okay," and took his hand gently.

Ezra seemed to cheer up a lot after that.

"Well then, if that's the case, I'll be joshing around a whole lot more. You like my jokes."

Sabine rolled her eyes, "Okay, that is not what I said. Your head must be spinning from trauma, because I definitely did not say that."

He grinned. "You LIKE my jokes! HA, I knew it!!"
She blew out a puff of air, exasperated.
"Aaand he's back."

The padawan started a little tap dance, "You like my jokes, Hera's not mad at me, Kanan is okay, you like my jokes - it's gonna be alright!"

She laughed in disbelief, and he wiggled out of the room, waving his ice pack around, while Sabine told him to be careful as he nearly collided into the wall. Zeb pulled him onto his shoulders and lifted him up, "You feeling better now, kid?"
"Yeah, even better once you put me down, big guy!"
There's our boy, she thought, feeling that things were finally looking up, even just a little bit. Patches of light shone in the darkness, no matter how small, and made them feel that much better to light up the way.

Agh, that metaphor though. A short little one, but I feel like it filled in the gap! I should really do a series for Kanera too, filling in the gaps 😂😂
So please comment, rate and review, as we get ready for the ultimate sabezra episode on November 5th!! See you guys then!