jaemin woke up because his arm felt numb.

he opened his eyes slowly, allowing them to adjust to the low luminosity of the room.

as soon as they opened, his eyes focused on the figure sleeping next to him.

his boyfriend.

he was there, his eyes closed because he was still asleep, and his head was resting on jaemin's arm which explained why it felt so numb.

jaemin felt his heart threatening to get out of his ribcage at the overwhelming sensation of waking up in his boyfriend's arms.

he didn't hesitate to lean forwards and drop a long and loving kiss on his forehead.

his boyfriend's eyes fluttered open at the sudden affection, and jaemin couldn't keep his smile to himself when he saw him scrunching his nose cutely.

however, once he had his eyes fully opened, jaemin reminded of something very important: his boyfriend was dead.

"what the fuck?!" haechan yelled, pushing jaemin away with all his force.

jaemin lost his balance, falling off the bed right after.

he groaned, rubbing the back of his head and his bum as haechan sat up on the bed, looking at him with anger in his eyes.

"why the hell were you sleeping next to me, angel?!" haechan asked, his face becoming redder with each second.

jaemin cursed at himself.

how could he be so careless?

how could he have let haechan cuddle to him in his sleep?

how could he imagine that haechan wouldn't scream at him the next day?

how could he forget that donghyuck was no longer in this world?

"answer me, asshole!" haechan yelled.

"you pulled me in your bed." jaemin answered.

"i would never have done that." haechan snorted.

"you were asleep." jaemin précised.

haechan rolled his eyes as another detail bothered him.

"and what the hell were you doing in my room while i was sleeping?" he asked, crossing his arms over his chest.

jaemin gulped.

there was no way he told the truth.

'yeah, huh, i wanted to watch at your peaceful face while sleeping, because you look exactly like my boyfriend.'

creepy.

"huh... i am your angel, and i have to keep an eye on you day and night." jaemin explained.

"i don't care about what you have to do! i want you to leave me alone!" haechan screamed.

"you know it's impossible."

"i'm sure it is. i could kill you if you keep refusing, angel." haechan persisted.

jaemin sighed deeply.

haechan looked so much like him when he encountered donghyuck for the first time.

"na jaemin."

"what?" haechan raised a brow.

"my name is na jaemin. stop refering to me as 'angel'." the angel said.

"i don't give a fuck about it!" haechan started yelling again. "i can call you how i want. may it be jaemin, na, nana, angel, asshole, fucker..."

jaemin's breath hitched.

nana

this name.

donghyuck had chosen it for him.

nana was jaemin's favourite name.

and haechan couldn't ruin it.

"don't even dare calling me nana." jaemin growled.

"oh, really?" haechan snorted. "well, too bad, nana!"

jaemin's jaw clenched, and he opened his hand quickly, sending haechan flying into his bedroom, and collide with the wall.

haechan tried unsticking himself, but jaemin's powers were stronger than his weak body.

"listen very carefully to me..." jaemin said, approaching the boy. "you are nothing next to me, and i wouldn't hesitate to crush you if i wanted. trust me, i can be even scarier than your worst fears."

haechan held his breath, feeling jaemin so close to his body.

the angel looked scary, and haechan swears that he saw his eyes becoming red for a slight second.

he was scared.

he could feel his body giving up on him.

he wanted to run away so bad.

he wanted to get away from this monster that was supposed to be his angel.

but he couldn't.

jaemin was a supernatural being.

"you better listen to me from now on..." jaemin finished, his breath fanning over haechan's face as his hand made its way to haechan's throat.

his grip tightened as jaemin completely lost control of his body.

"p-please... s-stop..." haechan begged, feeling the air lacking in his lungs.

jaemin had the power to kill him here and there.

his angel could kill him.

seeing the pain in haechan's eyes made jaemin wake up from his trance.

the angel's eyes widened as he stepped back, making the boy fall on the floor in a coughing fit.

"oh my... i'm sorry." jaemin let out, wanting to help the boy up.

"n-no!" he replied, standing up. "d-don't approach m-me!" he added, running away from the angel.

"wait! donghyuck!" jaemin screamed before falling onto his knees sobbing hard.

he had messed up badly, once again.