"jaemin?" haechan raised a brow, seeing that the crying angel was frozen.

"haechan..." jaemin mumbled.

"what happened...?"

"i need to go." jaemin said.

"wait, please- "

and before haechan could even finish talking, jaemin had vanished into thin air.

Æ

"jaemin, what happened...?"

as soon as jaemin had stepped through mark's doorway, he had collapsed on the floor, alarming the older angel.

mark had brought him to the couch where the crying angel was cuddled into his side, his many tears wetting mark's shirt.

"d-donghyuck reappeared after almost three months..." jaemin said between his cries. "he appeared when haechan was about to... to fuck some random girl... and... he ran away and i found him in an alley... he... he was barely conscious..."

"what happened next?" mark asked.

"i brought him home... and we talked... and... he said that we should stop everything..."

mark's brows furrowed as jaemin started crying harder.

"why did he say that?" mark asked calmly.

"he claims that he hurts me too much..." jaemin hiccupped.

"does he?"

"he does... but... i love him... and... i don't want to lose him..."

mark sighed deeply.

he knew this was going to happen.

this was meant to happen.

he knew donnhyuck.

and he knew how stubborn and imprevisible he could be.

and he knew he would do anything and everything to keep jaemin happy.

and he knew how living with both haechan and donghyuck was a bad idea.

he had told jaemin about it.

but he couldn't stop jaemin.

not when he wanted his donghyuck back this much.

but now, here they were.

"where is he?" mark asked.

"h-haechan appeared... right after he told me we needed to stop..." jaemin sniffled.

"and we don't know when he'll be back..." mark sighed again.

"n-no..."

jaemin started crying even harder as mark tightened his embrace around his body.

why couldn't everything be easier?

he wasn't even involved in this mess, and yet, he could feel how painful and hard it had to be.

neither jaemin nor donghyuck deserved this.

"so... what do we do now...?" mark asked.

"nothing..."

"we have to do something."

"nothing can be done if donghyuck isn't here..." jaemin mumbled.

"but we need to try something."

"and try what?" jaemin snorted.

"i don't know..."

the room became silent again, the only noise breaing it being jaemin's occasional sniffles.

it seemed like he didn't have any more tears left to cry.

his face was flushed, and his eyes were swollen.

he looked awful, pretty similar to how he felt.

"i regret reviving him."

mark's eyes shot open as he looked at jaemin.

"you can't say that." he said.

"it's the truth."

"no, jaemin. it's not true, and you know it."

"donghyuck is right, i hurt both of us more." he explained.

"jaemin, donghyuck is your boyfriend. you love him. you wanted to be with him."

"and it was a bad idea."

"jaemin..."

jaemin sighed loudly, looking at mark in the eye.

"i don't get why i was chosen to become an angel. i spread hate and problems everywhere i go..." he mumbled.

"the head angel knows what's right. and if he said you could be an angel, then it's because you really could." mark told.

"i'm not convinced."

"you should be." mark sighed.

"mark, do you realise everything i did? you take me for a sÆnt when i'm nothing else than a sinNAr. you all do. and mostly you and the head angel."

silence took over the room once again.

however, this time, it was broken pretty quickly.

"i should end my days. this could be a solution. then end of all this suffering."

"what the- jaemin, are you out of your mind?!" mark exclaimed.

"i'm seizing my words, mark. i know this is the only solution."

"it is absolutely not the only solution." mark shook his head.

"it's the easiest."

"you already failed once, and i'll make sure you'll fail twice." mark warned.

jaemin raised a brow, looking at mark very intensely.

"how do you know that?"

"donghyuck told me." mark explained. "he didn't want you to end your days. and he still doesn't want you to."

"it didn't seem like it a few minutes ago." jaemin snorted.

"well, trust me, then."

jaemin sighed.

"do you have another solution then?"

"i personally don't." mark explained. "but the head angel may have."