HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

I

I AM NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT

THAT I CRIED MY EYES OUT

I WAS FULL-OUT SOBBING FOR ALMOST HALF AN HOUR

I JUST

WHY

FUCKING ENDINGS

*sighs sadly* Let's just get on with the summary, shall we?

~WARNING: SPOILERS. DUH.~

• IT'S THE END

IT'S ACTUALLY OVER

THERE'S...THAT WAS THE END

I AM CRYING HARDER THAN I EVER HAVE IN MY LIFE

• Tho tbh...it...still hasn't totally sunk it yet that MCSM is over...again.

Yeah, there could be more...but for now...

I guess for now I gotta find something else to keep me going

• I'm so happy that I didn't manage to get any spoilers aah

• Something kinda entertaining happened with this episode, and I can't make heads or tails of it.

So Sunday night, I decided I was going to replay episode 4 because I planned to download 5 the next day. I opened up Story Mode, and what do I see?

A little blue button, pointing at the 'episodes' option.

I kinda internally groaned, thinking that something had gone wrong on my inverse playthrough. I figured that I hadn't saved it right, and I was gonna have to redo Inverse episode 4 again

But lo and behold...

I HAD EPISODE 5 TWO DAYS EARLY

BUT

I COULDN'T PLAY IT

ASDFGHJKL

It was Sunday night, remember. I had work the next day, and I didn't know how long this episode was going to be
(also I knew I couldn't be screaming at 10PM)

So

I had to muster ALL of my self-restraint
And not play it until I got home on Monday

But here's the weird bit: Usually, I get new Story Mode episodes on Monday, 24 hours before they're officially released.
However, I was last on the internet on Friday, and had gotten no notification about MCSM updating

So how...? How on earth did it magically download on Alistair without internet?!?

I seriously have no clue ._.

•HOLY FUCKING SHIT
I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR ROMEO NARRATING

WTF

THAT KINDA FREAKED ME OUT

Especially since it was his perspective?!

That was wEIRD

Tbh I wasn't really paying attention to what he said, because I was freaking out too much. Oops xD

• Jack fanboying over Ivor was almost as amazing as Petra fangirling over Jack

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

THAT WAS GREAT XDD

(oh wait...was that a nod to Ivor being a weirdo over the jungle temple in s1 ep 5?? Cool)

• YAAAAYYYY, BINTA!! It made me a bit too happy that she was with us

I kinda adore her haha

• AS USUAL...

THANK YOU FOR THE FUCKING VAGUE TRAILER, TELLTALE

• I freaked out a bit when I saw Beacontown all covered in lava like that

• Is the floating tower just going to stay there?? I mean...I guess it kinda has to haha

• I tried to screenshot that epic map of Beacontown but I kinda failed

It looked so cool though!! EEEEEE!

(I'm kind of a map nerd ^^)

• TELLTALE WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING

ARE YOU KIDDING ME

DO YOU THINK THAT WOULD GO UNNOTICED

BECAUSE IT DIDN'T

YOU

CANNOT

HAVE THE CHARACTERS CONTINUOUSLY SAYING THE FORBIDDEN WORD REPEATEDLY

NOT AFTER THE HELL YOU PUT US THROUGH IN EPISODE SEVEN

They...they said the Forbidden Word like seventy times in this episode

I am very not okay with that 😓

• I...ugh.

I brought Romeo. I technically saved him.

Ugh.

But I did NOT want to make that choice!! FUCKING FUCK TELLTALE WHY

I paused the game and SCREAMED for a good five minutes before I decided to bring him

But the only reason I did that was because it is GREAT karma that now he, the super powerful immortal Admin, now has to live as a lame, dull, human with no friends

*jumps up and points* KARMA, KARMA, THAT IS KARMA AT ITS FUCKING BEST, GO DIE IN A HOLE ROMEO

• Has anyone else noticed that bats hanging around the title nd swooping around the opening credits seem to be becoming a theme??

Oh wait. It's not a theme now because it's over

*starts crying again*

• I missed Xara, I wish she had shown up again ;-;

Oh well, I'll see her in my inverse playthrough

• I like playing and replaying, but honestly, I freaking love playing episodes for the first time. Not knowing what's gonna happen but still knowing that SOMETHING is going to go wrong...it's just great. The suspense and mystery is just awesome aaahhh

• Ivor: "I'm going to find the rest of the Order. Got no clue where Soren is, but I have a few leads."

Me: "haha he's dead."

• oh Radar

His whole "I'm finally going to put on a shirt!" thing, I laughed so hard

Because yes

No more armor for you

Just be a normal boi

• I also chose the 'friend' title for Radar. He deserves it 💙

• I decided to wear the Golden Goliath armor, to go with the new gauntlet ¯\_ツ_/¯

• Okay and WHOOAAAA, THE GOLD GAUNTLET

WHOOOOOAAAAA

THAT WAS EPIC

I MEAN, I WAS EXPECTING A GOOD BOSS FIGHT

INSTEAD, I GOT LIKE S I X

THAT WAS FUCKING AMAZING

• Okay and just...the terminal space???

THAT WAS SO FUCKING COOL OMFG

I FUCKING LOVED THAT

THE SPACE BACKGROUND...IT WAS FREAKING AMAZING...THAT WAS EPIC...I LOVE THE DETAILS OF THIS GAME ASDFGHJKL

• I'm starting to really love Stella

And Lluna, I guess

I mean Stella was irritating at first, but she's come a long way. I'm soooooo glad I decided to be nice to her in episode three, it made me so happy that she ended up on the right side

• *sighs sadly again*

I guess that's it guys. Luktra has crashed and burned almost as hard as Mintron.

I mean...sure...they finally spoke...and freaking looked at each other...but...that was it.

We didn't even get a Luktra hug.

We got a Petra-Olivia hug (that made me really happy lol)

We got a Axel-Petra hug (poor Petra, I know how it feels to be crushed by happy friends xD)

And we got a great big Order group hug (which I didn't completely appreciate because I was crying my eyes out)

But Lukas-Petra??? No?? TELLTALE, HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN THAT THESE TWO USED TO BE BESTIES?! EVEN IF YOU DON'T SHIP THEM...THEY'RE STILL A TEAM...they still need each other...

*sobs*

I just...

They did speak to each other...but it wasn't the same

It will never be the same now...because it's over

(oh fuck I'm crying again.)

• Me: *frantically wipes teardrops off screen so I can continue playing*

• Y'know, I kinda like Olivia's new VA. She's definitely very different, but I like her.

I was generally just way too happy to have Axel and Olivia back...replaying s1 is reminding me how much I missed them.

• IM SO GLAD NURM IS OKAY OMG

• I legit had no idea what to do on the puzzle in the Primary Terminal lol

I just sat there for a little while like 'uuuuhhhhhh what am I supposed to do'

I figured it out in the end tho

• I only died twice! YAY, ME!

I'll...I won't be able to beat that record now...

• Can I just say that the mutant-snowman Admin was creepy as all fuck

• freaking hell Cat did such an amazing job as Admin! Jesse

• DID YOU SEE STACY DOING A NINJA POSE IN THE BACKGROUND WHILE LUKAS WAS CONFRONTING JESSE

THAT WAS THE BEST THING EVER XDD

• OMFG OMFG AND DID YOU GUYS CATCH THE HINTS ABOUT AIDEN AND CASSIE

HERE, I MANAGED TO SCREENSHOT:

(again...me catching characters mid-word -__-)

SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

So now if I do write that Aidesse fic, I think I'm gonna have it set after s2.

BECAUSE COME ON

THAT WAS GREAT

I screamed so loud lol

• Hey so I'm crying again

Remember this??

(nov. 20th) 

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CALLED IT

I FUCKING CALLED IT

I KNEW WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN AND IT STILL MADE ME CRY LIKE MAD

• Seriously...I was a mess at the end. Tears everywhere, I couldn't see. I started crying at the beginning of the end scene, and continued crying all through the credits, and for an additional half hour.

Then I started crying again while writing some of this

I'm a bit of a mess.

• So I watched an 'alternate paths' thing on YT...

XARA DIES IF SHE LEAVES IN EP 4

OMG

SHES GONNA DIE IN MY INVERSE PLAYTHROUGH

THAT MEANS ALL THREE ADMINS ARE DEAD

OH

• Also WHOA ROMEO

If you leave him, he SACRIFICES HIMSELF!?

I guess that's kind of a slap in the face to anyone who says it's a kids' game lOL

• There are SO MANY FREAKING alternate paths in this one!!!

I think I'm gonna end up playing this episode like a million times, just so I can find out all the different endings lol

• I...yes...I stayed in Beacontown. 😓

I mean...

Jesse's the leader there...the place needs to be rebuilt...she needs to get the trust of the Beacontowners back

But Petra looked so sad...and I said I'd be there with her...but...

😭

• And...

*breaks down into even more sobs*

LUKAS

YOU COULD'VE GONE WITH HER

That option broke my Luktra heart EVEN MORE

I was so happy for a second, and then I was crying even harder than before

Why

They're...they're split up for good now. I will never have my happy, adorable, OTP together anymore. They're gone.

Rochelle: Oh for the love of- would you STOP BEING DRAMATIC?!

Naomie: *through her sobs* I CA-A-A-A-AA-AN'T

-Please stand by. Rush is having another breakdown but will hopefully return shortly-

• Okay, okay, I'm back. Still sad, but let's continue.

• There were several times when I literally thought Jack was going to die and I spent a lot of time panicking

• At least Stella and Lluna are happy now ^^

• I wonder what actually happened when Romeo went back to the Underneath.

I'd kinda like to think that Xara was angry, but then he helped her start fixing the Oasis, and she slowly began to forgive him, especially since he was no longer an Admin.

Maybe they even moved back into the cabin

• Everyone was crying at the end, wow. Axel, kinda Petra, Radar...and me. Mostly me.

• Something I've really enjoyed about s2 is how freaking unpredictable it was. Naomie was crying like mad, but Rochelle was trying to puzzle out what might happen next, and getting nowhere. It was great aah

• When Jesse was up in the bizarre tower trying to talk to Romeo, I swear I thought he was going to push her off the edge. It would've fitted with the characters-falling-off-of-tall-things theme, sooooo...can you really blame me? xD

•DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT

I KNEW PETRA WAS GOING TO LEAVE

I WAS 100% SURE OF IT

AND I STILL CRIED LIKE MAD

• Tbh...endings make me cry in general. The end of s1 made me cry pretty hard too, but not as much as this. It's just the whole...knowing it's the finale, waiting for the feels, mentally preparing myself for the Final Battle...I make myself sad pretty easily

• I feel like I already said this...

MY GOD THE BOSS FIGHTS WERE AMAZING

The Admin when he was losing his powers and glitching...*shivers happily*

IT WAS JUST SO FLIPPING COOL OKAY JUST LET ME BE A TECH NERD

• I also just need to repeat how great a job Cat Taber did

Wow

She's rlly talented

I really like Ashley's voice, I couldn't imagine anyone better for Petra. But seriously, I think Cat is a bit underrated. She did an amazing job as Admin Jesse, and generally through the whole episodes. Jesse's kind of a dorky character, but Cat sells it

Aaah

*insert more nerdy Rush insanity*

• Stampy with his million parrots x)

• I hope Harper's alright

• Nina just remembered that last season finale, I had Romeo to comfort me while I was crying

My Romeo. My precious huge kitty that I loved even more than my fandoms...

Okay fuck off Nina, I'm sad enough already without your help

• When the Admin started bedrocking over Beacontown, I swear to god I felt my heart just drop

I kinda screamed like mad and now I'm all hoarse

Again.

• I know that a lot of people have gotten out of this fandom in the gaps between seasons and episodes, but I don't think I ever will. I mean, I respect their decision of not wanting to be associated with the fandom anymore...but personally, it doesn't make sense for me. Story Mode has become my creative lifeblood- even though it's over for now, I'm staying as strong a member of the fandom as ever (probably much to the chagrin of my IRL friends)

Oh yeah, and that means new Shattered Souls chapter coming soon

For FD, I dunno. I think I need a bit of time to bounce back before turning my attention back, since I take that one so seriously. But we'll see.

• Me yesterday afternoon: *happily writing Luktra fluff cuddles*

Me yesterday evening: ...*crying a river*

• Like the fool I am, I forgot to clean off my mascara before playing

It was quite fun to scrub the black streaks off my face -_-

• Aw poor Fred ;-;

*whispers* I'm sorry I called you weird-looking

• Tbh I never really started shipping anyone new in s2.

I mean I kinda shipped Admella, and I definitely think Radar has a crush on Jesse, and I sort of shipped Jack and Vos (before we found out that Vos wasn't Vos), but other than that, I didn't really consider many ships. I guess Naomie decided the whole scene was too somber for shipping

• I cannot believe Romeo actually destroyed Champion City!!!!!!

How many people did that kill?!?!

• I'm pretty thankful that none of our poor children got killed tho

• Dude I was a wreck at the end. During the credits, I was just lying on my side on the floor gasping and sobbing and getting tears all over my face. I don't think I've ever cried this hard over anything, at least not in a long time.

• I guess that means the Order's really split up now...since Petra's off figuring her life out, and the other four already have their paths...

"Didn't take long for the 'New Order of the Stone' to fall apart, did it?"

*more muffled sobs*

• And then I decide to listen to 'Youth' and 'Mars' and I end up crying even more

• it's actually over oh my god the realization is hitting i think im gonna-

-Rush left to probably cry really hard for a long time-