'I miss everything we do, I'm half a heart without you."

Well it's official. It's the last day. It's Monday again.

Probably the last time I'm ever going to see the boys again. I felt a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach at the thought of never seeing Harry again.

I know that's not true but the little devil on my shoulder keeps telling me it is. I guess I'll just have to wait and find out. The only downside is I hate surprises.

Maria left yesterday after lunch. It was nice having her around. I felt somewhat at ease with her around. Made me feel as though I was doing the right things and not screwing up.

Yesterday as well, I felt like I spent the entire day with Harry. From the moment I woke up to the moment I opened my bedroom door to go to sleep.

But I wasn't complaining. If anything, I longed to spend more time with him. Especially this week where the boys kept kidnapping my source of entertainment, it's hard not to feel lonely sometimes. Or all the time.

Harry was great company. He helped me in the kitchen for breakfast and lunch. Told me his bad jokes that we end up laughing at anyway.

"Ok ok. I've got another one," he said excitedly, cutting potatoes.

"Alright I'm listening!" I said chuckling at his eagerness.

"What did the traffic light say to the car? Hm?" he asked with a smirk.

"I don't know. Enlighten me."

He snorted, then he pretended to cover his body in an awkward position with his hands and exclaimed,"Don't look! I'm about to change!"

I burst out laughing at the expression on his face.

We played Scrabble for a while. After I won the first game, he was convinced that I cheated so we kept playing until he was satisfied.

I couldn't stop the smile that remained on my face at the end of every game when I saw the pouty expression on his face. Which is probably why he insisted that I cheated. He didn't know what I was smiling at. But it was so cute though.

At one point, Mari joined in. So Harry decided that it was the perfect time to tell her about our escapades while growing up. She was quite amused by how animatedly Harry told the stories. It was endearing to watch. I felt that camp fire start up in my chest again and I didn't want it to go out.

Closer to bedtime, we were on the couch watching The Notebook. Well I can't really say we were really watching it because our minds were in different places. He didn't know what I was thinking about and vice versa. When I realised the movie had ended, I muted the tv and we sat in complete silence. So I decided to break it.

"You excited to be going back on tour?"

He looked at me and smiled then looked at the television that was showing the end credits.

"I am, absolutely. I've grown so used to constantly being on the road that I can't help but feel bored when we're not. I like the little breaks we get in between but sometimes I feel like I don't know what to do with myself." he chuckles towards the end and I feel a small smile slowly making its way across my lips.

"Am I boring you Harold?" I teased.

"Oh must certainly not! Who else am I going to get to steal my cereal in the middle of the night," he said with a smirk.

After that we fall back into silence. But this time it wasn't awkward or anything. It was comfortable. It was just like old times. It felt like we were Harry and Mia again. Part of me was terrified of that but the other was ecstatic.

"I'm going to miss you, you know,"he suddenly says, quietly.

I feel my heart skip a beat at his words but I try my best not to let it show.

He turns his head to look at me. His eyes pierce through mine that intensely, I feel like he can see into my soul. I break the intense eye contact first and gesture my left hand towards him.

"Give me your phone."

He looks at me confused and says,"Why?"

I playfully roll my eyes and say,"Well if we're going to be friends and you're going to miss me that much, then it's only fair that I give you my number."

His eyebrows shoot up in surprise and his eyes widen.

"Really?" he says, his tone laced in shock.

Now I look at him confused,"What?"

He smiles shyly at me and says,"You want to be friends again?" His eyes hold a hopeful gleam.

I shrug indifferently and say,"Yeah why not? I thought about it and I came to the realisation that I couldn't let you suffer in your boredom."

I try to keep a straight face when his mouth falls open but right when I thought he had taken my words seriously, a slow smile appears on my face no matter how hard I tried to fight it.

"My my Mia, you've become quite the cheeky one, haven't you?" he says with a smirk.

"Well I'd like to think that you've met your match," I smirk back at him.

It's like a smirking match we have going on, waiting to see you'll crack first.

"Is that so?"

"Mhm."

I turn to look at him again and then all of a sudden we burst out laughing.

When we finally decided to go to bed, he walked me to my bedroom and just like the other night, he engulfed me in hug and wished me goodnight.

Again I fell asleep with a smile.on my face.

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Back to today. Monday.

The car that's picking them up is about 30 minutes away. I haven't seen Harry since after breakfast when he reminded me that we didn't swap numbers.

After we did that, he went upstairs to finish packing.

The other boys came downstairs a while ago. I guess you could say they were keeping me company.

They were really fun to talk to. I can't even remember what we started talking about but somehow we ended up in a debate about if pizza with pineapple was better.

Anyone from the outside would think that we were crazy people.

Our animated debate ended soon after we heard the honk of a horn outside.

I felt my heart sink at the realisation that this was it.

I walked them to the door and we exchanged goodbyes. Harry being the last.

He stood in front the door a few steps away from me with his duffle bag over his shoulder.

"I'll call you soon, yeah?"

I smiled at his words and nodded.

He opens his mouth to say something but stops himself.

"What is it Harry?" I ask curiously.

He hesitates for a moment before a saying,"I uh, I'm going to miss you Mia."

I felt like my insides turned to mush.
Somebody tell me what's happening to me! Please!

I try to come up with a sarcastic comment to cover up the effect his words had on me but surprise myself and apparently Harry too when I say,

"I'll miss you too Harry."

A wide grin spreads across his face making his dimples pop and pulls me into a hug.

"Oi Harold! Just kiss her already mate!" I look behind Harry to see Louis' head outside the window with a smirk on his face.

Does everyone smirk now? Is that the new trend?

My eyes widen when I take in his words and Harry quickly steps away from me, a faint pink appearing on his cheeks.

"Erm. Yeah. I'll just,uh I'll just go now. Goodbye,"he says looking at his feet, embarrassingly.

If it was physically possible, I would be blushing right now.

"Bye Harry," I said behind him as he hastily walked towards the car.

I watch as he roughly throws his bag in the boot and then enters the car still looking down at his feet as a maniacal laugh sounds from inside the car.

I continue to watch until the car disappears from my sight then I go back into the house.

I couldn't help but feel a part of me leave with the car as it drove away.

I can't believe that I'm admitting this, but I'm going to miss him so much.

And it's not like I can go on tour with them. That's a bit extreme and kind of impossible for obvious reasons.

I guess only time would tell.