Gemma

It had been raining non-stop in London since I'd arrived here a week ago. Tom's flight was delayed due to the storms so now he wasn't getting in until tomorrow morning. I had one last scene to film with my red hair before I dyed it dark brown for the rest of the movie. So I was up early and in hair and makeup. Callum came into my trailer to talk about the scene. It was a really important one. The one where Archer and Livia's world wind romance goes sour. The one where she realizes it's always been Coriolanus Snow. As a Snow girlie I had to agree with, no one stood in comparison to my man.

Archer catches Livia talking back to him, disagreeing with his opinion.Coryo often welcomed a difference of opinion from her. He loved to fight with her, sometimes if she made a valid point he'd even succeed and let her win. Archer did not, he wanted a proper Capitol girl..one without so many views and opinions. Livia couldn't be that girl any longer and was finally starting to push back from the advice Coriolanus had not so kindly given her in passing about how much she had changed for the worse since their last meeting. Archer pushes Livia up against the side of the balcony to enforce his dominance in their relationship and it caves. This is the scene where Coryo gets to play the hero. Something Tom was more than excited to do...playing the villain 90% of the time. Not to quote queen Taylor again but "he's so bad and he does it so well." 

Tom and I were facetiming about the scene last night. I kept telling him I was nervous about it. But I really did want a stunt double do such an important scene in the film. I knew it had to actually be me so the audience could feel Livia's pain as Archer turned on her. He was threatening her to give up her point of view, no wife of his would have one. But she pushed him back, making him lead her with force toward the balcony edge. She's pushed so hard by Fawn, the guard rail caves and she falls over it. Coryo finds Livia right after this scene, laying unconscious in the fresh snow. Tom and I are suckers for symbolism. All at once the hate they both had in their hearts for each other fades. He wastes no time in picking her up in his arms, carrying her across the Capitol grounds and into the Citadel. He repeats the sentence "Don't die on me Livia, Please don't die on me." with baited breath.

Tom and I had worked on the scene over zoom for days now, trying to grasp the right emotional level he was looking to achieve. But every time we would go there he would stop. I knew why, I'd put him in that position before, he almost lost me. And I may not remember that moment...but it was written all over his face. I could only imagine what it felt like to relive from his point of view.

Tom tried to convince me to use a stunt double, especially because I was so hesitant about doing the fall myself to begin with. But I loved our stunt coordinator, she had kept me safe through all of Bloodlines and I had way more stunts in that movie, than this one. So I decided to go ahead with it, that morning we rehearsed how I would fall on the mat over and over again. I had it down. But the rain was making it a lot more difficult that we had thought and the grounds were slippery.

Nevertheless we ran the scene through, and the only reason I think I was able to stick the mat landing before the lightning started was because Callum was there to support me. He assured me he'd fall over with me if he needed to. That got a laugh from the entire crew. It was nice to have another scene partner I trusted. We all rushed inside soaked from head to toe and I was so relieved the scene was done because of how anxious it had made me over the past 24 hours. Callum wrapped a blanket around me while hair and makeup fixed me up for the next scene indoors.

"So you never told me, did you ever find out if Chase was the one who sent in the photo?" Callum asked. While we were waiting for the rain to let up earlier he and I went had a heart to heart with each other about our personal lives. We definitely had that sort of brother sister relationship I was hoping for. And I was so thankful Callum wasn't the type to automatically assume I'd date him because he was my romantic interest. Tom was my number one and I made sure he knew that right off the bat.

"Honestly...no I never found out. Their all going to be at the premiere next Friday though. So that will be the first time I see him since Tom and I had that very public fight at the PCA's. Ugh it was so embarrassing. I hate crying in public, especially when there was really no reason for it." I said back to him.

"I had a ex who got jealous when I started dating someone new, she started a rumor I was cheating. Unfortunately my girlfriend at the time chose to believe the rumors..." Callum said. "So I'm happy you took Tom's side."

"I love him, and I know his character and that should've been enough to prove to me he'd never cheat. I can't imagine how Tom felt knowing it wasn't true, but also knowing there was nothing he could to prove himself innocent. All he had was his word and that really should've been enough for me. I'm honestly still trying to get over all my trust issues Chase caused. It's made being in the spotlight increasing difficult and I second guess everything I do and the people in life all the time because of it. Somehow Tom just puts up with it, I'm not sure why." I said.

"Because he loves you, anyone who looks at you two together can feel it. When I was in the audition process for this role, I watched an interview you and Tom did promoting Hunger Games: Royal Bloodlines. He couldn't take his eyes off you the whole time you spoke. You can see it in your characters...how Coriolanus speaks to Livia. How Tom looks at you Gemma. It's obvious he loves you and a lot people would kill to have that. And the jealous ones will do whatever they can to destroy it. So the best advice I can could give you is to have to block all that shit out or it will destroy your happiness. I wish I had learned that one a while ago." Callum said as one of the PA's grabbed him for another scene. 

I sat there and thought about our conversation. He was right, Tom was the last one I should've been doubting, even Callum could see in Tom's eyes how much he loved me. I could see it too, because he looked at me the same way I looked at him. The way Chase never looked at me. All of this couldn't have happened at worse time. The only time Chase and I were going to be able to talk was the movie premiere.

Tom arrived early next morning and snuck into our bed, planting a soft kiss on my head. I opened my sleepy eyes and smiled. "I missed you Snow" I said as I moved over and laid my head on his chest.

"Not nearly as much as I missed you Cherry. I'm so happy I got to see it in person before you dyed it back for premiere week. I swear you look great in any hair color or style." He said as he wrapped his arms around me.

"I've had a week ,so I'll take all the compliments I can get." I said as he moved his hand from my waist to my ass.

"How's that?" He smirked.

"Perfect. Where it belongs." I said back.

"How's filming with Callum been? Is he being nice to you?" Tom joked.

"Yes! I swear he's been a perfect gentleman, I told him you're very protective." I teased.

"I texted him and let him know myself. He's a nice guy. He's definitely scared of me." Tom laughed.

"Good chemistry for you two to have on set." I said as I ran my hand through his hair.

"Yeah just on set..." He teased me. 

"You're more like Coryo than you lead on.." I said back as I stared up at him.

"I lost you once, I'm not ever going to let that happen again Gem." Tom said as I intertwined my fingers with his. 

"It won't, we have trust...and love, that's more than enough to keep us going for the next hundred years." I said smiling into our kiss. Tom and I really needed this alone time because for the next week we were going to be surrounded by cast, crew and cameras. Our filming schedules were going to be crazy and that was going to lead us right into premiere week for Hunger Games: Royal Bloodlines. Our first was in LA, from there New York, Paris and then London for the last one and the return to a our filming schedule. It was going to be a hectic time but Tom and I always found ways to have fun in between. This time even with all the drama that surrounded us, would be no different.