"i cannot undo

what i have done;

i cannot un-sing

a song that's sung."

Evan let out a ragged moan as Tyler thrust into him with a rapid pace. Evan hid is flushed face in the sheets and melted into them.

There was a mix of pain and pleasure in his voice as Tyler dug his nails into his hips and left marks on his back.

Soon enough, Evan could feel his climax approaching, he bit his lips, panted mercilessly until Tyler's name struggled to escape his mouth and he finally came.

Tyler wasn't long behind, with one last thrust he gave out; landing right next to Evan as he did.

They both laid there underneath the covers. The room smelled like alcohol and cigarettes. They had rented the room seeing as though they had no where else to go for that night.

"Why do we keep this going?" Tyler asked after what had seemed like an eternity.

"Because we've gone too far to stop."

Evan's eyes shot open, gasping as he did so. His breathing was quick and raspy. He was gripping the sheets as sweat ran down his face.

His partner, Jonathan, was awoken by the sudden change of peacefulness and silence in the room.

"Are you okay babe?" Jonathan asked, slowly sitting up.

As soon as he was sat up, he rubbed his eyes to get a better look at his boyfriend. He was concerned about his partner seeing as though this had never happened before.

"Y-Yeah.. I just had a nightmare. It was weird and I don't want to talk about it. Can we just go back to sleep?" Evan asked and Jonathan nodded.

The two laid back down and Jonathan cuddled into Evan, hoping that would somewhat comfort him.

It did the opposite though, causing one of the guiltiest feelings in Evan's gut.

;

"Are we still seeing the movie with Luke and his girlfriend later?" Evan asked, eyeing his phone every so often.

He was wondering when Tyler would text him back. He sat on the couch next to Jonathan, watching one of the later seasons of The Office.

"Yep. We're seeing Civil War, is that okay?" Evan nodded as Jonathan intertwined their fingers.

"Ah, I'm excited." Jonathan smiled softly and Evan wanted to throw up from the guilt he felt.

One day Jonathan would find out what he's been doing and that day, Evan would break his boyfriends angelic smile.

;

"That was awesome!" Jonathan yelled as the four walked out of the movies.

Luke and Jonathan had begun their own conversation as Evan and Luke's girlfriend walked next to each other in silence.

"So, Evan right?" The small girl asked and Evan nodded.

"Elena, correct?" The girl's eyes lit up at the fact that he remembered her name.

"Y-Yeah! Anyways, what did you think of the movie?"

"I liked it, but I've been out of it all day so I couldn't really pay attention."

"Ah that sucks. When everything clears up, maybe then you could see it again? It was awesome!" She grinned, hands behind her back as the four walked through the parking lot.

"I'll do that. Then I'll tell you how it really was."

"Sounds like a plan." She giggled and the two had stopped upon seeing their partners stop in front of them.

The two couples had said goodbye before parting ways and going to their own cars.

"That was fun." Jonathan commented and Evan hummed, mind thinking about Tyler when he didn't want to.

"We should do it again." Evan replied, feeling a sudden tiredness.

;

The two were lying in bed when Evan's phone dinged from beside him.

"Evan, where are you going?" Jonathan asked, noticing that his boyfriend had gotten out of bed and was walking out of the room.

"Ah.. My mom is calling me. Her birthday is coming up soon after all." Evan chuckled and Jonathan nodded.

Evan felt bad for lying to his partner but this text from Tyler was more important than sleep.

;

"So, what do you want?" Evan asked, standing on the deck in the back of his house.

"I want to talk about what the fuck we are." Tyler whispered harshly.

"I don't know. We've seen each other more than once." Evan had noticed that there was an unopened beer on the table. He took the cold drink into his hands and opened it up as Tyler talked.

"So we're not a one night stand. But we aren't in a relationship." Evan took a sip of his beer while on the other end, Tyler had lit a cigarette.

"So are we fuck buddies then?" Evan wondered out loud, staring up at the sky as the stars twinkled.

"I guess we just may be."

"If I'm being honest, I don't want to stop. I mean, I have a fucking boyfriend for fucks sake but I find some sort of comfort in what we've done." Tyler continued.

Evan stayed silent, trying to think of an answer.

"That was weird, wasn't it? I'm sorry." Tyler whispered out quickly, almost dropping his cigarette.

"No, I feel the same way. The only thing is, the regret I feel with it hurts."

"Can we promise something?" 

"What?" Evan asked, finishing off his drink.

"Not to fall for each other?" 

"Yes. Fuck yes." Evan breathed out as if they were still in bed.

"Calm down there." Tyler chuckled.

"No just, you get what I mean? We've already betrayed our lovers enough we can't go any further." Evan whispered and Tyler hummed in agreement.

"I'm heading off to bed. Night Evan."

"Night Tyler." Tyler hung up and Evan turned off his phone, staring up at the sky.

What the fuck had he gotten himself into?