*Premila Pov*

I glanced up from the plates I am arranging for breakfast and saw Tajwar pacing in the living room holding his head. For every second, he is glancing at the kitchen before looking away.

I cleared my throat, making him realize that I am standing here, and he slowly turned around before walking near to the table.

"Do you need anything?" I asked, staring at him with a blank face.

"Where is Mridula?" he asked before glancing at the kitchen door.

"She is taking rest." I replied and he immediately frowned hearing my reply.

"I just left my room and walked downstairs. She is not in the room." He said, and I frowned a little before understanding where she is.

"She must be in her old room. And don't disturb her." I said before walking away to bring the breakfast.

When I returned I saw him leaving the house and sighed, thinking how can I even correct his wrong doing. I shook my head before walking into my room to call Abhivanth.

"Why did you not talk and didn't ask them anything when they returned?" he asked the moment, I stepped inside the room.

"Because I know where they were." I replied, staring at his shocked face.

"What? Then why were you shouting at our sons?" he asked with a confused expression.

"I just wanted to shout at them and make them realize how bad things are happening in their lives. Who doesn't know where their wife is for the whole night?" I asked feeling the anger again.

"They are not doing anything right." He said, shaking his head, and I raised my eyebrow.

"They must have learnt from the best." I said and he immediately glared at me.

"Premila! I know it was not fair to throw everything over you before, but now I am learning, knowing well, I must have done something because of which all this is happening in our family. At least don't taunt me." He said, frowning at me.

"Words lost their importance way before, Abhivanth. Anyway, breakfast is ready." I said before walking away from the room but heard him sighing.

"Mridula!" I mumbled, shaking her a little, and she slowly woke up before closing her eyes again.

"Did I overslept?" she asked, before sitting up straight and glanced around to check time.

"No! Have some breakfast." I replied, giving her the plate.

She took it from me and started eating a little by little before glancing at me with a painful expression. I placed my hand on her shoulder before assuring her.

"I know, you always said it is ok to have fights between couples but this is completely new, and I don't know how to lead this marriage with his thoughts about me ringing in my ears." she slowly said after placing the tray aside.

If someone else was in her place, then they would have decided to leave the house or something, but here she is just trying to know if there is a way to lead the life normally.

"The words I am going to say may hurt you, but listen to them. I know my son, and I know he will never think about a girl and that too his wife like that." I said and I waited for her accusation, but all she did was a nod.

"I know! As far as I know him, he would never think like that about me. But my ears are not lying, and my brain is not accepting no matter what my heart is saying." She said before leaning her head over my shoulder.

"You love him!" I stated and she slowly nodded, making me understand it is harder than I thought.

"I am sorry!" I mumbled hugging her, and she lay there before moving away brushing away her tears.

"Why don't you talk to him?" I offered and she immediately shook her head.

"I don't think I can bear his reply." she mumbled continuing to shake her head.

"Don't ask directly, but just beat around the bush." I advised and she slowly frowned before getting down from the bed.

"Maybe I will but not now, when I am feeling nothing, but turn the day and not hear any of it or just not invite any of his friends." she mumbled before walking away.

I too wish for the same, Mrdiula. I shook my head before leaving the guest house knowing well she must have involved herself with the lunch work.

However, to my surprise, she is waiting near the kitchen door for me fidgeting with her fingers.

"Can you start teaching me again regarding all the things I need to know to be the sophisticated daughter-in-law in this family even in the outside world?" she asked and I immediately held her hand.

"You have something which no one had, until now, being part of this family. You are special for this family, Mridula." I said before accepting to teach her everything she wants to learn.

*Tajwar Pov*

I wish she had not invited my friends and I wouldn't have got this headache. No! I wish I didn't have a drink, and then I wouldn't have got this headache.

"Sir, are you fine?" my assistant asked, and I waved at him to leave me alone.

How did I reach my room? I thought and then started thinking more regarding what actually happened as I forgot everything after I had my first glass.

When I lost my touch in drinking, then I shouldn't have done it. I remember them continuously talking about Lavanya regarding how she was there for me at every moment, and how much she loved me.

I even remember them taunting me a little regarding my marriage, but I just started drinking more and more with the anger I am feeling against them, but not on me surprisingly as I always felt anger at myself for the marriage but not yesterday.

The whole day passed with me holding my head for half of the time and started packing the files knowing well I need to finish them at home tonight.

"Hello?" I said, lifting the call from an unknown number.

"Tajwar! We are so sorry about yesterday. We didn't mean any of it and just apologize to her from our side too. We were just being rude thinking about Lavanya, and that's all. She must be so sad after hearing our conversation." One of my friends continued to babble, and I can hear the whispered voices behind him saying the same.

"Wait! What are you talking about? What did you guys do? And what do you mean she heard everything?" I continued to ask feeling confused.

"You don't remember?" he said before I heard a lot of curses in the background.

"Just apologize from our side, Tajwar." He said before hanging up and I stared at the phone in confusion.

What actually happened yesterday? I thought, frowning before leaving the office and reached home to see mom and Mridula sitting on the couch talking to themselves.

I reached my room and started freshening up thinking about what does it mean by their words. Did she get hurt because of them, but how?

If she did, then why didn't she tell me? I continued to question myself before stepping outside the washroom thinking Mridula would be here like everyday, but she was not.

Even during dinner she was completely distant and didn't glance at me for a second. I thought to ask her when she returns to the room along with me, but she started working along with Mom because of which I returned to the room alone.

I worked for some time and waited for her, but due to the headache, I got sleepy and laid on the bed before drifting off into sleep.

I slowly woke up when I felt some presence beside me and looked to see her sleeping in the corner of the bed with her back towards me.

"Mridula!" I mumbled placing my hand over her shoulder, and I felt her stiffen in her position.

She slowly shrugged my hand off before mumbling "I am tired and need to wake up early."

I frowned but took my hand away before placing it in between us. After a few minutes I turned with my back to her before drifting off into sleep thinking to ask her the next day, and it's not like she is living in another country.

"Mridula!" I started saying the next day when she handed over the lunch and all she did was nod before leaving the room saying she needs to look for breakfast arrangements.

In the evening, she again sat with Mom and was distant during dinner. Like yesterday, she seems to enter the room to sleep when I was in a deep sleep.

After one week with no way to ask her regarding what happened, I think it was more possible to do it for the people outside the country.

"I don't care you are tired or not, but you need to tell me right now what actually happened." I demanded startling her when she turned to close the door.

"What happened?" she asked back before turning around slowly and leaned completely on the door.

"What happened?! You are aloof and behaving oddly, and my friends called me last week to apologize to you from their side. I want to know what happened in the party night." I replied, and she stilled before taking a deep breath.

"Nothing happened! You can forget their words." she mumbled before moving to walk away, but I stopped her placing my hands on either side.

"Tell me!" I demanded again to which she closed her eyes trembling.

"You don't remember anything?" she slowly asked.

"No! I lost control of my consciousness after having the first two glasses and just feel like everything went blank." I replied and she slowly nodded.

"You said that you wouldn't have got married to me if not due to force and would always be alone as Lavanya is the one for you." She started saying, and I can understand why I said them.

They were reliving all the moments I shared with Lavanya and I kind of was lost in the past. So, I could say that, and it is not a lie as well.

"And?" I asked, frowning because I know my friends wouldn't apologize for just that.

"One of them said it would have been bad to live single as the needs are there." She continued, and I felt disgusted that she had to hear those below the belt joke we must have had between us.

"And?" I continued to ask.

"And you said they can be fulfilled from outside too." she mumbled and I frowned, thinking why did she hear those things.

"I have never done that and must have said it in a general way." I said and she suddenly gave a humorless laugh.

"What?" I asked frowning feeling surprised.

"And they asked are you getting fulfilled them like that." She continued.

"I am not cheating on you." I mumbled and she frowned, but turned her face away from my view still with her eyes closed.

"And you said... I can't say it." she mumbled, shaking her head before covering her face.

"Was that my reply?" I asked, frowning and she immediately removed her hands from her face.

"No! You just pointed out that you had a personal woman to do that work. You just made me feel something else for myself." She replied before she slowly started kneeling down, and I held her shoulders with my hands which she pushed away.

"I would never do that." I said not believing her words.

"You did! You said yes to them and added, but not from outside. What does that mean?" she asked in a whisper.

"No! Don't you dare to think like that. I would never think of you like that. And if I did, then I would be calling myself the same right? I would be calling my brothers the same which is worse right? It doesn't mean like that at all." I said before kneeling down before her.

"I heard everything, Tajwar. Do you think I would over react?" she asked shaking her head.

I was thinking about her words and her explaining before holding my head. No matter what I would never think like that about any girl.

I continued to think of repeating the words I uttered, and then I got it. I slowly lifted her chin with my hand, which she pushed away.

"Look at me!" I said again, lifting her head.

"I know I talked cheaply regarding needs being fulfilled, but my other half would be like to say I am not cheating on you, Mridula." I said, and she stared at me with her bloodshot eyes with a blank expression.

"Maybe you don't know that you even think like that." she mumbled and I immediately shook my head.

"I would never! And I am certain of it because I respect you. I trust you more than anyone in my family at present. You tell me why would I choose to confide in you, but not with my family if I think like that?" I asked and she just stared at me.

"And the need's part was my fault." I added to which she flinched before leaning her head back.

"Promise me that you would not think like that of yourself. I believe in marriage, Mridula." I said forwarding my hand.

"Then the before words? Are they true?" she asked and then I realized what she is asking me about.

"Yes! I wouldn't have got married if I was not forced." I replied, knowing well my guilt would never make me take a step ahead.

"You know I never lie, Mridula. And I always think about cheating part, so I must have said that in that way. I never I mean not even for a second think in that way." I continued to babble but she didn't react.

"Do you believe me?" I asked, holding her shoulders after a hesitating a little and this time she didn't push away.

"I believe that you wouldn't think of any girl like that." she replied making me frown, and I want to add especially you but kept quite stunned at the way how my drunken mistake caused all these misunderstandings.

"I am a little tired. I want to sleep." she mumbled, making me frown more, but I allowed her to stand up helping her after getting up thinking I can't do anything other than this. She walked near to the bed before laying on it in her usual position for the past one week.

I explained and pleaded and if she can't believe me, then what else should I do. However, I wish I can assure her again, but I know completely well, it would just cause her to doubt again as the truth needed not be told repeatedly and make it a part lie.

I can put my entire life to the point that the meaning behind my words was not that for any girl and especially for Mridula.

I lay at the other end of the bed like her before drifting off into sleep thinking how tomorrow would be and why the urgent need to ensure her the truth today.  

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So, he actually didnt mean that... however one part was his fault which he accepted and he is not forgiven... I think a guy who thinks badly about a girl he knows or not knows could never be in love with anyone during his whole life and could never respect his mother... just my thinking... Tajwar is not like that and knows only to do mistakes but not in this huge case... however, once a doubt takes its place in the head, it is difficult to remove it completely as it always leaves it traces behind...

I hope you got it guys,,, and what do you think... and most suggested about her leaving and any girl would have left for sure but we are talking about Mridula here who doesnt want to disappoint premila just because her mother asked to... she stopped talking to her parents just because they asked her to... then how ill it come to her brain with this pain to just leave everything and walk away... i agree to each and every comment i read on before chap by the way...

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