*Amrin Pov*

"We are not going to get you slaughtered, Amrin." His statement reached my ears, but I do not want to react to his hand over mine or even to his words.

"How did you know that I am living with my friend?" I asked him the question which is revolving in my head but didn't glance at him.

"It was more than easy as it seems you didn't try to be hiding from me." He replied, and I can hear a little accusation in his voice.

"Why would I hide from you? I just made your work easier by going away myself, and I thought you would be relieved." I said shaking my head.

"However, the only mistake I did was to choose a cowardly way by writing a letter and now the direct words because of which I am now on the way back to your place." I added frowning to myself and saw that we are about to reach his place.

"Atleast you stopped crying." He mumbled, making me wish I got some more tears, which stopped the moment, we entered the city.

The tears were more for making the people who were nice enough to give me shelter thinks bad about me. I wish they had a nice opinion of me or hope they still do. They didn't say anything to me, but I know they didn't expect this from me.

I apologized a million times to Janani even though she said I didn't have to. At least, she is not angry at me, but I know there can be restrictions regarding our calls to each other.

"I wish I had the money to stay somewhere and even bear your determination except returning to you." I said to his face when we stepped inside the elevator.

"You have money!" he said with a confused tone.

"No! It finished with a doctor's appointment and then the traveling expenses." I said frowning at him.

"What? You have so much money in your account." He stated opening the door.

"That is yours and not mine. I used the money which I earned from my previous job." I said in a small tone when I took a step inside the place where I didn't think I would return ever again.

"You took care of my house, and you earned it. Anyway, I will leave for the office as I missed few meetings because of you." He said glancing at his watch.

"Because of me? Do you even know what is going on around us? I left the place because it was for best, and you made me return." I said, raising my voice getting all the frustration I ever felt in my life towards him.

"I didn't force you to return." He said shrugging, and I gasped.

"You forced me saying those blackmailing words that you helped me when I need the place, and I should return as you asked me to." I said remembering his words, which pushed the decision to return.

"I can say whatever I want, and I wanted you to return. Like I said I didn't force you here." He retorted.

"Why do you want me to return? It's not like I am the last woman you can get. Before the time your Mom gets you married, you can have as many relations as you want and no one would say anything to you Prince." I said with the jealousy I am feeling even to think about him with another one but used his title to let him know I am serious.

"I do not want another woman for now." He said with the rage he showed hearing my words.

"I never thought you were this low. Now I am feeling sad for the woman who will marry you." I said honestly.

"Think before you say something to me. I have every right to have relationships when I am not cheating on someone by doing these." He said fisting his hands.

"What you are doing is cheating, Dileep. When you know you have a future wife who will definitely not be from the woman you choose for relationships then it is cheating." I said showing the disappointment I hid for his actions in my eyes.

"I do not want to marry." He shouted, making me take a step back, but I heard his words.

"What?" I asked him frowning.

"I do not want to get married. Not now and not ever and I will make my Mom wait as much time as possible to give any assurance that I will get married." He replied stepping near to me.

"But why?" I asked him more confused.

"Because I do not believe in marriage. It is just an act for the society, and the people will continue to live together even when they do not want to like my parents." He replied holding my shoulders tightly in a daze like he is not here.

"My parents had a love marriage, but that left them soon when they got married and wanted to get separated even before they had the first born, but they couldn't because of the status and the way they have to hold themselves before the society." He continued with ragged breath, and I didn't utter a word.

"We were born because they must have heirs. How sick is that?" He questioned no one but was showing his disgust.

"I decided not to get married when I get to the maturity after having enough of the act around me. So I will stall my Mom until as much age as I can, but if I had to, then I will marry by her choice. However, that will be a marriage of convenience, and I think that I will be older when that time comes." He said shaking a little.

"Now do I have to live alone and celibate until that older age where I get married for convenience? Do you still think I am cheating even though I know I will not cheat on my wife no matter what?" he asked staring into my eyes expecting me to answer.

"No!" I replied in a small whisper, and he pulled me into his arms hugging me tightly.

I slowly took my arms lying aside and placed them around him, hugging his back while letting the tears flow with a fate that says I will always be weak when he is in question.

"Love will go away so you do not need to worry about that. You don't know the world, but I know." He said confidently before releasing me, and I wanted to believe him.

"You are getting late for the meetings." I said to which he nodded and left, but not before giving a chaste kiss.

Why am I in this situation? I should be angry at him like I am at myself for falling in love with him. However, I couldn't help but feel sad for his views about the matters of love and marriage because of his parents. Who knows what happened between them, but it must have affected him too much.

What should I even do? I thought and then saw food on the table. I frowned, but walked near to the land line when it started ringing.

"Hello?" I said not looking at the called ID.

"I had a maid to clean everything this week, and she left food. She will not return again to work as I just canceled the term with the agency." He replied, and I frowned.

"Ok?" I said not understanding why is he saying all this.

"You can do the work like you wished, but try to use the money too. It is not in your account for nothing." He said and hung up.

"What should I do with that money of yours?" I asked, staring at the receiver and placed it back.

Now I need to have few clear things in my mind before doing anything! I thought sitting on the couch.

I love him, but he will never be, even if he wants to as he has some stupid views about it. He will marry someone else, but that will never be me because I am not suitable for his society in any way.

He can toss me away whenever he wants to, and I am not strong enough to fight with him to leave him without his wish or even stay against his wish.

Even though he gets married for convenience itself, I will be here with heartbreak, which will be more than now with nothing to change. To escape that pain I need to do something and get my feelings strong and shielded.

And I need to fall out of love with him soon, which will never happen if I stay in this house the whole day with the memories of both of us at every corner. I need to go out of the house and have a life of my own instead of revolving around him.

With that he will be happy, and I will also get to feel happy for a new life and also to spend the last moments with him everyday until I stay with him.

Though walking away seems to be the best and easy option I know I cannot move forward with a thought of what if for every second. By staying here, I get reality flashed for every second and also with the behavior of his family helping me to fall out.

"Hello!" I said, lifting the land line from unknown caller ID.

"You are still there? But I was told you are not." I heard his Mom's voice.

"He is in the office, Aunty." I said after a few minutes of silence, which were the words that came out of my mouth to her after the sorry I told her when I met her.

"I cannot believe he is still entertaining you. It will be good for you if you remove your clutches over him and leave." She warned making me smile.

"I will let him know, Aunty." I said hanging up.

If I had any doubts regarding my plan, this phone call solved all of them. She will always show me the reality which I need at every moment of my life.

At present, reality is my best friend, and I will clutch to it to leave the love. 

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there may not be a second update today... going to watch for dilwale in evening but if i get the idea for next chap then i will update writing it but not much of a chance...

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