Arabella's P.O.V.

Sighing I sit down on my bed getting ready to leave to go visit the cemetery today was the day Dad passed away, and only a week before mom had... Pushing back my tears I grabbed my bag and head out the door. 

Raya never liked to visit them, she couldn't, so she would always send roses with me to lay on Uncle David's and Aunt May's Stone. Wiping my tears that slipped out of my eyes I walked out of the Palace gates, all the wat to the Cemetary.

In the Loving Memory of Kaden Ross Clay

  A loving father, brother, son, and husband. 

January 6, 1971 - September 10, 2010

Right beside him was Mom's Grave

In the Loving Memory of Elena Cassidy Clay

A loving Mother, Daughter, Sister, and Wife. 

May 16, 1978 - Septemeber 17, 2010

Taking a deep breath I sit in between the graves like I use to sit in between them when I was little. "Hi mom, Hi dad... How are you, you guys? Nevermind stupid question, probably having a blast up there right? Watching down on me, right?" 

Beginning to choke up, I take a break, "Did you see what happen to me? Were you watching over me then? Daddy, he hurt me, he hurt me so bad..." My voice cracked, "I still have flashbacks of that night, I wish you were here, to make it better. I wish you were there to help me, save me."

"Mom, did you see me? Mom, I need you, I need you to tell me it will be better, I need you to tell me that it'll get better, I need you to call me beautiful even when I don't feel it. I need you to tell me I didn't deserve it, I didn't deserve to be raped."

Squeezing my eyes shut I pushed back the memories that were rising of that night, "He said, that I-I deserved it, I w-was asking for it. I still d-don't know why. Raya found me in an ally bruised, cut, barely dressed..."

"I felt so dirty, so disgusting...but I didn't give up, I fought it. I got back up just like you guys said, never give up, never give up because I was your hope, hope to something good. But I'm running out of energy, fighting against my brain, it's exhausting. Never sleeping at night, fear of the dark, working all day and then having nightmares."

Letting out a shaky breath I wipe away my tears, "But I'll fight, fight for the both of you. I miss you, I miss you so so much. " Kissing their stones, I stand up "I love you so much," I whisper to them before walking over to Uncle David and Aunt May's Stone.

 In the Loving Memory of David Gray Jackson 

Loving Father, Husband, and Son. 

August 6, 1971 - October 12, 2010

 In the Loving Memory of May Liv Jackson 

Loving Mother, Wife, and Daughter

May 4, 1974 - October 14, 2010

"Hey Aunt May, Uncle David, Raya is fine, she... she is just a little stubborn. I promise she misses you both a lot, I miss you too. I take care of her, she takes care of me, we got each other back so don't worry. Maybe...Maybe one day I'll get her to come with me to visit."

Sighing I put down the roses on their stone, "Shell come around, but she cries at night, every night, for both of you. You can say we are just two broken girls trying to fix each other, but if you do want to know the juicy details, I think she found her prince charming. Eddie, he the royal guard fro Prince Zayn, he is nice, a true gentleman and yes Uncle Davide I'm sure he will take great care of her." Smiling I sit down in front of them, "But there is one thing, Prince Zayn is kind of an ass, he harasses me, takes advantage of other girls and he's just plain out rude, I'm not comfortable around him, but Eddie eases up a little. Eddie relaxes  when he is around him, becomes a normal young adult you know and I think that he  is great for Raya."

"Aunt May, no there is no guy in my life, I don't want one, not after what happened. But Eddie is a handsome young man for Raya, I promise I'll hook them up." Chuckling I stand up but not before kissing their stones too. "I miss you, so does Raya."

Before walking away I gave one last kiss to the four gravestones and walked away with tears in my eyes, it was hard living alone without parents for almost ten years, having memories with them, laughing with them and suddenly they are gone so fast. 

There are times were Raya and I just hug each other and cry when we are in pain, or struggling with something. But we have each other, we always will.

Walking in the Palace Gates again I show my ID and head to the kitchen to see Raya anxiously waiting for me. Confused I walk up to her and ask, "What's going on?"

"You are late." She said

"Yeah so? The King and Queen know what day it is today, I always go to the Cemetary this day. So why are you-"

"Bella and Raya the two girls I was looking for," I froze up, King Noah was here in the kitchen. Turning around I immediately bow, he chuckled, "There no need for that girls, stand up."

Letting out a shaky breath I look up, "Sorry for being late today my King, it's just today..."

"Bella, call me Uncle Noah how many times do I have to tell you both. When we are alone Uncle Noah is perfectly fine, I've known you two since you were babies." He said stepping forward he put his hand on our shoulders. "And there is no need to apologize I know what day it is today."

Raya swallowed harshly, "So Uncle Noah, what's going on why were you looking for us?"

"Oh right," He said taking his hands off of us, "Today is the rehearsal dinner for Miles and Layla's wedding so... Zayn and Eddie needed a dance partner since their dates will not be able tonight so I thought it would be appropriate to ask you two."

Shocked I looked at Raya and then Uncle Noah, "Um it's just that we have to make the food too-"

"Nonsense," Uncle Noah said cutting me off, "It's just a small gathering, the other cooks can handle that."

Knowing we have no way out of it, Raya said, "Then, we would love too."

A smile made its way onto his face, "Perfect see you two in ten minutes."

Before we could say anything he left the kitchen, "He totally planned this before he asked us." I said grabbing her hand dragging her to our room. "Let's get ready."

Throwing on a simple black dress, I quickly touch of my make up and throw my hair up in a ponytail, that is the best as it's going to get, I shrug looking into the mirror and wait for Raya.

Raya came out looking amazing, "Damn girl, still trying to impress Eddie I see." I said teasing her a bit but she shook me off.

"I'm not trying to impress anyone. Everyone leaves at the end anyways Bella, let's just go and get this over with."

Confused with her sudden attitude change I grab her arm, "Raya... I'm not going to leave you ever. What's going on?"

"I just-" She sighed running her hand through her hair, "I don't want to go, I don't like the feeling I get when I'm around Eddie. We've been fine alone Bella, I just can't let him in okay? So please just stop bringing him up okay?"

Sighing I nodded, "Deal now let's go,"

It was obvious she was in pain, obvious she was fighting off tears...

 "That's the thing about pain... it demands to be felt." - John Green