I watched my clan on top of the great boulder. I looked down and saw Webkit and Driftkit playing mossball. My paws itched to hop down and play with them but I just sat and watched them.

Nightkit walked out of the nursery and looked up at me. His vibrant yellow eyes pleaded for his mothers affection. I smiled at him and he just shook his head. I sighed and stood up. I looked around for my faithful deputy. Where is he? I thought angrily. Snowywind was sitting next to the newley made warrior, Scarletflight. They were purring and chatting it up.

I hopped off the boulder and padded towards them. Snowywind turned his eyes towards me. "Yes Rosestar?" He asked and shuffled his paws. "I need to spend time with my kits, but I don' want clan to think they matter more to me than everyone else." I mewed. Snowywind narrowed his gaze at me. "Rosestar do you even care about your kits? I mean at all? You would rather sleep inside the boulder than in the cozy nursery with YOUR kits. They deserve better. They don't even know their father and you want to spend no time with them. They need someone to look after them. I think you should step down from leadership for a while to take care of them. They are yours not Gemwhiskers." He meowed, his blue eyes nothing more than slits. I sighed and dropped my head down. "I think your right Snowywind." I meowed, holding back the sound of sadness in my voice. "But I am going to the gathering tonight." I meowed angrily. I turned around and swished my tail, making sure it hit him in the face.

I padded towards Ripplekit and Nightkit, they were play fighting. "Hello darlings." I meowed with a smile. "Have you come to tell us your to busy to play with us?" Ripplekit growled. I gulped and starred into his eyes. They pleaded for someone to curl up next to for saftey yet burned with pure fury. "No. I want to act like a mother and not like a clanmate." I meowed with sadness. He looked at me his gaze softening. "At least our clanmates care about us." He meowed choking on the words. I threw myself at him and started covering his head with licks. "I care about you! Your my kits and no one else's!" I meowed. 

Something pushed into my side. I stopped licking Ripplekits head and looked over to see Webkit and Nightkit climbing on top of my side. Webkit batted at my ears while Nightkit nuzzled into my side. I let out a long purr. Something I hadn't let out in a while. I looked over at the horizon, it was setting. "Come on my loves. Its time to get some rest." I meowed and let out a huge yawn. They protested but followed anyways. 

I settled into the warm nest, my kits scent covered it. I realized my scent was very stale. Sadness pierced my heart. They curled up into my side. Webkit was smiling as she slowly drifted off into sleep. I looked over and saw Gemwhisker smiling at me. She looked very pleased to see me in the nursery.

"Rosestar!" Someone hissed in my ear. I opened my eyes to see Snowywind staring at me. "It's time to go to the gathering!" He hissed. I looked at my sleeping kits, my heart sinking into my chest. I rose from my nest without waking them.

I padded into the clearing, Emberclan was the only clan missing. I padded around looking for Blackice. I padded up to one of his clanmates. The velvet red she-cat stared at me with a a friendly gaze. "Where is Blackice at? He is an old friend." i meowed. The shecat looked confused. "Rosestar, Blackice is dead."

Hello! I know its been some time but i am back! Its sad that Blackice is dead :( Sorry! The kit in the picture is Driftkit. He is just to cute! Have a good day!