It's been a month.

A month since I was released from the hospital.

My strength was slowly coming back, and my hair was starting to grow back from not having any chemo. Yoongi was proving to be my saving grace. Every morning he would make me breakfast, and help me walk around our house if my body was too weak. He would cook me dinner every night, and call me from his studio around lunch to check on me. It was too sweet. 

I spent my days at home often relaxing. Sometimes Taehyung would come during his lunch break and visit, or sometimes I would go back to the shop with him and hang out there until Yoongi came to pick me up. He didn't want me driving yet. I couldn't help but wonder sometimes what Yoongi sees in me. I put him through hell but he still comes home every night with a smile. He was way too good to me, for me. 

I thought these things as I eyed a ring in the window of a small jewelry shop around the corner from my flower shop. It had a gold band with delicate flowers engraved into it. I sighed as the thought of marrying Yoongi crossed my mind, bringing a big goofy smile to my face. 

"Hey!" Yoongi chirped from behind me, making me jump slightly. "You ready to go?"

"Yoongi! You didn't have to come with me. Jungkook was going to drive me so you didn't have to take the time off of work."

He shrugged, pecking my cheek. "I told Kook he didn't have to worry about it. I want to be there to support my beautiful boyfriend."

I chuckled and pecked his lips as he helped me into his car. 

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"Okay, Hoseok. The blood work seems to be okay, given what you went through. Your white blood cell count still seems quite high, so I would like to perform a PET scan, and possibly a few other tests just to rule out any infection."

Yoongi gave my hand a squeeze as I nodded. The doctor left the room and Yoongi immediately went to grab a gown for me to change into. 

"You'll be fine. You might just have a cold or something."

I shrugged, unsure of what to think. I was scared, but I was trying to hide it from him.

After a few minutes, I was wheeled out of the room, watching as Yoongi sat down and buried his face in his hands before the door to the room closed. I felt my heart break as his shoulders started to shake.

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After getting dressed and sitting back down on the bed, Yoongi came and stood next to me once more, gripping my hand tight. His eyes were a little red, but I could tell he was trying to hide his emotions. 

There was a soft knock on the door before the doctor walked in. "Our radiologists are a little backed up, and we don't want to force you to sit here. How about you can head on home, and in maybe a day or two I will call you with the results?"

Yoongi and I both nodded before thanking her. After she left the room, I immediately turned to Yoongi, cupping his cheeks. "Yoongi, whatever ends up happening, I-"

He cut me off by shaking his head and shushing me. "I don't want to discuss this, baby."

"I-I need to say it."

He sighed heavily, but nodded. 

"If I end up not being able to beat this thing for good, I-I want to be married to you when I go. I want to be able to call you my husband, my lover."

"Need I remind you of the time you sucked me off?"

I rolled my eyes while laughing alongside him. "I want to have more than that. I want to be more than that."

He leaned down and kissed the tip of my nose. "Don't worry, baby. Now, I booked a reservation at De Capo for dinner, so we should head home and get ready."

I felt a blush creep onto my cheeks at his words. De Capo was the brand new, most expensive restaurant in town, and it required reservations at least a month in advance.

"How did you get in there?"

"I made the reservation the day you woke up. It was the earliest I could get."

"My God, I love you so much."

He smiled gently and pecked my cheek, taking my hand in his as we left the hospital room.

"I love you more."

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Lol i really don't even know anymore. 

Maybe a couple more chapters left? I haven't fully decided but I am starting to feel as if I am dragging it out and I don't want that to happen.