🌹R O S E III🌹

🌹CHAPTER TEN🌹

"Lena?!" I call out but I don't get an answer, I'm scared but I can't panic since the thing she uses for the pain but I know that I need to find her. I sit up on the bed and with my legs hanging over the side. I hear cries on the other side of the door and I need to find her.

I need to make sure that she's all right and that she's safe and that nothing has happened to her. She is my best friend and I only want the best for her and I want her to be all right. "Lena?!" I call out again when I don't get an answer from her.

I might not be able to panic in the means that my heartbeat is beating faster or anything but I can panic in the way that my head is spinning with thoughts and none of them are good ones because I worry about her and her safety. I'm not sure what is happening but I know I need to be there.

My feet touch the cold floor and shivers run through my whole body. I need to do this, for Lena. With one quick action I push myself off the bed and stand on my feet. But my feet are unable to support my body and I fall onto the floor. With my hands and knees that catch most of my fall but hints of pain goes through me which I'm sure would be worse if I were not drugged by this thing that Lena has given me.

I pray to God nothing internally has ripped open because that would be bad. With my hands and my knees I try to crawl on the floor but my body is weak and I'm having a hard time. I'm glad no one can see me because I look idiotic but I don't care, this is about my best friend here.

"Lena?!" I call out once again. I need to make sure she's all right. The thought of her hurting brings me pain in the heart and this drug that she has me on can't dull that pain. And I keep thinking everything the worst about what is happening out there.

I manage to crawl towards the door, the door that I've been desperate to know what is behind but that isn't what is on the first thing on my mind now. That is Lena and her safety. I feel the tears prick my eyes as I keep thinking of if something happened to her.

Feeling like I can't panic on the inside is so hard but I need this. I take a deep breath before I run my back against the wall and push myself upwards with my knees until my hands catch the handle of the door. I think she leaves it unlocked but I can't be sure.

Her cries are louder now and I feel my tears roll down my cheeks in silence. I push the handle down and the door opens in. I back a bit and then I open the door fully and let go of the handle. The same wall that I've been seeing is there but when I look outside the door with my head that I had peeked out I see a hallway that goes both ways.

I crawl into the hallway but leave the door open. The hallway is poorly lit up but I can see that there are a couple do doors on both sides of the hallway. The curious part inside me screams at me to explore but I know better than that. I need to find my best friend.

I crawl to my right where her cries are coming from and they are from the next room beside the one that I have been in. If I could feel the pain right about now I would be in too much pain and I fear that I have ripped open a stitch or done something that I shouldn't have done.

But none of that matters if Lena is suffering. I groan as I crawl to the door and I can see that the door is slightly ajar and her cry is louder than it was before. I make it to the door and open it with my hand. I'm panting as I've not moved that much for the last couple of months and this is hard for me to do.

Especially when my body is so weak. I see Lena rocking back and forth in one corner. The room looks exactly like the one that I'm in but the wallpaper is ripped, as if done by fingernails and bed is there on the same place that mine would be, only this one is broken and ruined.

This room is dark and gloomy and the hair rise on my neck when I crawl inside. Lena hasn't notice me but I see. That she's crying and I can see the tears staining her face as she cries and I can see the tears that are still leaking down her face.

She's staring straight into the wall and it would appear that she's muttering something under her breath that I can't hear or even understand. But that's not all I notice. She's holding on something that catches the light from outside and it shines into my eyes but I don't care about that. In her right hand is a razor, a razor with blood staining it and I see fresh blood on it.

I gasp when I see her left hand. Her wrist is bleeding and I feel a sob escape past my lips when I see the blood still leaking. She looks at me and I can see the broken look on her face and it hurts so much to see her like this. My heart feel so much pain that I can barely breathe.

Lena doesn't say anything as she continues to look at me with that look that will now forever haunt me. I crawl over to her with blurry vision and sobs coming past my lips. "Lena" I softly say as I crawl beside her. I take the razor out of her hand and throw it into one of the corner.

I can't believe that she would do something like this, especially to herself and it's my fault and I don't think I can ever forgive myself for what I've done to her. I take her bloody wrist and see how bad it is. With all this blood I can't tell. This is tearing me apart and it hurts so badly to see her like this.

I can feel my heart breaking because of this. I don't say anything as I rip a piece out of my own clothing and wrap them around her wrist as people do in the movies. She doesn't flinch but she does continue to cry and look at my every action. She has stopped rocking back and forth.

When I've wrapped it around her, to at least try to stop the bleeding I wrap my hands around her body and hug her. I can't do much for her but I can be there for her like she has been there for me because right now she needs me to be there for her.

"Lena, I'm so, so sorry" I whisper to her through my cries and tears. I can't stop crying about this and the fact that she did this to herself because of me is even more painful. I never wanted to be the cause of her suffering. All I've wanted from her is be happy.

I never wanted this to happen. "I'm sorry" I whisper to her again. I feel like I have to continent to apologize to her, I know it won't do that much but at least that is something and I feel the words need to be spoken, for both our sakes, not just to ease my guilt.

However the guilt is real and I feel so badly for having done this to her. I don't think I will ever be able to forget the look on her face or her wrist sliced up and bloody all over. There is a small puddle of blood on the ground but some of it has been smudged and soaked into her clothes.

"Lena?" I ask her and she looks at me once again. She has stopped crying but I can see the broken look on her face and in this moment it doesn't matter why I made her this upset, all I care about is trying to make it up to her. Make her smile again and make her feel safe and protected and most importantly loved.

"I don't know if you're listing to me but I need to say something to you... I-I've been the worst best friend in history and I will never be able to forgive myself on how I've treated you but I can tell you this, I'm going to be here for you when you need me. I will stand by your side and I will help you get through this like you have helped me" I tell her.

There is a look in her eyes tells me that she was listening to everything that I said but I can't be sure if my words were being soaked up into her brain, I can't know that. "But I need to promise me to never do this to yourself again, okay? Promise me?" I ask her with seriousness in my voice.

I hold her tighter against my body and I'm not letting her go. I can't let her go. Not now or ever. This is something that she needs someone and she needs me and I will never leave her. "I-I promise" She whispers quietly but it is enough to make me breathe in relief.

I don't know if she will keep her promise but I need to have faith and believe in her that she will keep her promise and never do that to herself again. I wipe away my tears and try to control my breathing as I calm myself down. I might be rather calm because of this drug that she has given me for the pain but I can still feel pain in my heart.

"You know, I've been worried about you. You are my best friend and I can't bear seeing you like this and in this state. I want you to be happy and not sad and that will never be achieved if you don't talk and deal with your pain. I kindly ask you... what has compelled you to do this thing?" I ask her.

I feel like she's going to say that this is all my fault and a part of me is terrified of even asking her this but if she wants to get healthy and be happy then I need to know what makes her do these things and hurt herself this way. I need to know so I can help her and I want to help her.

And not because she has been so kind to me or she has helped me, that is only a part of the reason. Lena is my best friend and she has been there for me when I needed her the most, she's seen me at my worst and my best and I her. But I love her and I will do anything for her and to help her. I care so much about her.

"Rose, you would not understand if I were to tell you" She says and she looks at me but I take her hands into mine and look at her into the eyes and smile kindly at her. "Try, Lena, try. I'm here to listen" I tell her with a smile on my face, a reassuring smile to help Lena explain a little bit better.

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