🌹R O S E  III🌹

🌹CHAPTER SEVENTEEN🌹

The war inside my head is about to tear me apart as I have a choice that is almost impossible. I know that if I say yes than I have giving up my life, but on the other hand I will be saving the man that I love more than I can possibly explain for Lena plans on murdering him, again.

If I say no then I will only make her mad and then bad things will happen, I'm not sure if something bad will happen to me but I know that she will hurt and try to k-kill Alexander again. I can't let that happen, that is why I have this choice but I truly don't have one when I think about it.

I take a deep breath before I look deep into her eyes to see happiness shine through them like never before. "Lena... if I say yes, I need to you to be honest with me because I am going to ask you a question and I would not be able to bear it if you'd lie" I say to her and she only smiles as she waits for me to speak.

She doesn't say anything and I think that she will be honest with me. "Is Alexander alive? Please that is all I need to know. I will never mention him again but only if you answer this one question with complete honesty" I plead to her. It may have ruined the mood and made her mad at me but I have to know.

He is the man that I've fallen in love with and words will never be able to describe the love that I feel and the feelings inside me. Lena stands up and puts the box with the ring on the table as she starts to laugh, her laughter holds coldness inside it, and almost as if it is cruel and... evil.

"Oh, dear innocent little Rose, don't you get it, I don't need to kill him now that he's moved on. You'd think you're the one that he wants. Get over it, Rose, I'm the only one that could ever want you. He's just a man that wants sex and nothing more. It has always been just a game to him" Lena says to me.

The tears spring to my eyes as her words sting my heart. I have to believe that what she is saying is nor wrong but she is looking at me and all I see is honesty inside her eyes. She's speaking the truth but that doesn't make any sense to me at all.

She walks over to me and goes on both her knees and takes my hands. "Rose, I know it hurts but he's a player. You knew that when you met him. He had a different woman every single day. He only wanted to use your body and then throw you away like you were nothing" She continues.

Hearing her say that breaks my heart. Alexander isn't like that anymore. He does care for me and he does love me. This isn't a game for him. He truly does love me. That I know and that is what I believe. "Yes" I whisper. She raises an eyebrow at me in confusion.

I smile to her. "Yes, I will marry you" I say to her with a smile on my face but that smile is hard to keep up, it doesn't feel like it is a real smile at all. Happiness is the only thing that is on her face as she jumps up and squeals. She takes the ring out of the box and she isn't slow at putting it on my finger.

"This is the second best day of my life" Lena says happily as she has a hard time controlling herself and staying calm, while I need to force myself to be happy. I may have never truly thought of my wedding but after I got engaged to Alexander I had given it some thought and I only thought about marrying him.

Now I'm marrying my best friend which in it self does feel strange and wrong for so many reasons. The ring does look beautiful but the rings that Alexander gave me, both of them are still the most beautiful ones that I've ever seen. "The second best?" I question at her as she finally sits down once again but it is clear that she truly wants to continue jumping.

"Yes, our wedding day will the best one. It is going to be the most romantic wedding of all time and then the wedding night which I'm looking forward to. The planning will start in the morning and the wedding will be in a week so we do have a lot to do in a short amount of time" Lena says with the biggest smile on her face.

While I can only drop my jaw and let my eyes widen when she does say that. I'm not sure that this is really happening or if I'm just finally going insane and seeing things that aren't there. "A-a-a week?" I ask her as I look at her with the most shocked expression on my face.

She wants us to get married in a week? That just isn't that much time, when I think about it, it's too little time. "Yes, we already love each other, so why not wait? I mean we don't need much, only each other, right?" She asks me. Looking into her eyes I see that she's getting angry.

Shivers run down my whole body when I think about her angry as I don't want her to be angry, she might do something and the only reason that I did say yes is because I need to protect him and I don't believe for one second that he has moved on.

I can just feel it, he's looking for me and he will not give up until he has found me. That is the way that his love is and my love will never doubt him or his love. Lena then starts talking but I can barely hear her for I'm lost inside my own thoughts. Thinking that I might be making the worst mistake of my entire life.

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That night when Lena had left me alone to get some sleep, I could not go to bed, no matter how much I tried, I was unable to go to bed. My eyes just would not close and the thoughts inside my head did not want to stop swirling. I kept thinking of this whole thing.

My life has been so crazy since I met Alexander but I would not change a thing. I love with him my whole heart and I pray that he will be able to forgive me for the things that I am about to do because this is all for him, to make sure that he is alive.

If he's alive then it doesn't matter that I'm not married to him, all it matters is his life. He will find someone to love him like I love him and hopefully he will find happiness because it is clear that he will not get that from me if I'm married to someone else.

Marrying Lena was never the thing that I wanted but I know that he has to live, I barely care about my life anymore, all I care about is Alexander and his life. I know that he has been through a lot in his life and even when I don't know the details, I know that he doesn't deserve to go through this.

He will understand, in time he will and when he does he will see that I am doing this for him. All I've done is for him. Before I did not realize that the only reason why I wanted to be top him and his company was so that I could be closer to him.

I did it without realizing it myself, but now that I do know, I would not change it for the world. Even when I was too mad at him, I still wanted to be with him and be around him because I had already fallen in love with him. Sighing, I sit up. It takes some time but I do sit up.

My eyes are too tired to even want to keep open but they just don't want to close for a reason that I don't know and most likely won't know. My body, heart and soul are tired but I just can't rest. Somehow I don't have it inside me to sleep or even rest for that matter.

Groaning I bend down to reach for the wheelchair that is beside the bed but a little bit farther away than I would've liked and it takes some time but I do get it and once I have it close to the bed, I pull myself closer to it and then I allow my body to gently fall into the wheelchair itself.

I land on my side but turning around fixes that and by the time that I am in the wheelchair I am already out of breath. Perhaps because I've barely moved in the last couple of weeks and my body is not used to moving that much. Though I did make it into the wheelchair without anyone's help.

Wheeling myself to the window to watch the night, there is only darkness out there because the trees hide mostly everything, even the light. Wanting nothing more than to be out there in the world, being with the man I love. I only notice now how I miss him more than anything.

Being with my best friend here is the best, Lena has been taking good care of me and I know she cares for me, more than I can explain in words but I don't want to be here. Make no mistake, I do love Lena but only as my best friend and someone that has stood by me for so long, though heartbreak and happiness, she's been there.

However, my heart only longs to be with the man that I love and be in his safe arms. I want to hold him and be in his arms, with my head against his chest so that I can feel his heartbeat. To know that he is alive and that he's mine because as my heart beats only for him, his heart beats only for me.

That is the true love that we share and I know to be true. Lena doesn't understand it but I do love him, truly love him. Watching the darkness outside makes me only want to be there more and more and the longer that I stay here the deeper my longing becomes.

Sighing I wheel myself to the empty table that Lena left as now we will be eating by that I'm not every meal and tomorrow she will be brining wedding books and things like that. Somehow I find myself dreading the morning. Perhaps that is why my body doesn't want to get sleep, because I know that tomorrow I will have to plan a wedding that I don't want.

I want a wedding where I'm marrying the man that I love and I want to plan that wedding, but not this one. Staring down at the wooden table with anger as I suddenly feel it take over me for some reason. In all of this, I've barely been able to get the feelings that I feel deep inside out.

And I fear that soon they will be going out in one way or another and whatever way it will go out as, it will not be a good one and I really don't want to find out what that way is. For now I need to control my anger and just hope that someone good will come out of tomorrow.