🌹R O S E III🌹

🌹CHAPTER NINETEEN🌹

The wedding. It is today and I'm dreading it like never before. I can't believe that the wedding is today, I'm getting married today and I'm getting married to my best friend but not the man that I've fallen in love with, the man that I really want to be married to but I'm never going to if this wedding happens.

"You're going to look so beautiful, I just know it" Lena says as she's helping me into the dress that she has picked out for me to wear, I've not seen it and she has blindfolded me as she is dressing me into the wedding dress. "I picked it out just for you, you know and I know that you will love it" She then says and I feel the tears form in my eyes.

I can't do this anymore, I feel myself growing sadder and sadder with each passing day and I'm starting to grow emotionless too which does not even help me at all. I've not spoken a word in a week as Lena has done most of the talking and I'm not even sure if I can speak.

Lena has been telling me that the only words I need to speak are the ones that I will be saying when we get married and I really don't know if I will be even able to say those words which may be few but I don't have it in myself to even speak those words.

"Now, you're all done" She says and then I feel the blindfold being taken off my eyes and the light is the first thing that I'm met with and then when my eyes have adjusted to the light I see myself in the mirror. I am sitting in the wheelchair as I can't stand up at the moment but still I'm wearing a wedding dress.

The heavenly white dress itself is a beautiful one, a dress that I can only dream of and I'm not even sure how she pulled it off. It has an off shoulder neckline and around the waist it is hugging me. When it reaches the hips it stars to slightly puff out into the skirt and that reaches all the way to the bottom.

I wear a veil on my head which is on the bun that Lena has put my hair in and it almost looks like there is a silver crown on my head or is there, I can't be sure. She has already done my make-up which is not that much but does make my sad mood seem happy.

Lena lets out a squeal as she starts to jump up and down with excitement and happiness, though I truly don't have anything to feel happy for. "Don't you just feel beautiful, Rose?" She asks me and I slowly nod my head. It is true, I do look beautiful and when I look at myself I see that I am beautiful.

However, at the same time I'm also a bit miserable and marrying the wrong person is not helping me a lot on that case. "Now, I'm going to get myself ready, you wait here. I'll be just a moment" She tells me and before I could even speak (not that I was going to) she's running out the door and closing it back again.

In the wheelchair I sit in front of the mirror alone, just looking at myself in the reflecting glass in the wedding dress, not even believing that this is truly happening to me right about now. That I'm truly getting married and it's not to Alexander.

I truly wish to be with Alexander right about now, to feel his arms around me and just have him hold me and tell me that everything is going to be all right again because I need that, I need him. More than I can possibly say in words, I need him.

He's the only man that I want and the only one that can make me feel better in this situation, then again if he were here then this situation would not be happening so perhaps I just need him here to make this whole nightmare end, I need it to end.

However, I have to marry Lena because if I don't, then she will hurt someone and I can't allow her to do that, I need to find a way to stop her. When I can walk, since right about now I'm stuck in a wheelchair and I'm the most useless person to ever walk this earth like that.

Fighting back would be impossible when I'm like this but all I need is a weapon which is also impossible to get because she brings everything into the room and Lena knows better than to bring a weapon in this room, I think she knows what I will do with it if she were to bring it here.

Waiting here makes this whole thing worse since now I only have my poisonous thoughts and they make me feel worse and worse about this. The more I look at myself the more I think about the fact that I wanted my wedding to be perfect, to have Alexander standing at the end of the aisle and then I would marry him and we would live happily ever after.

After all the things that we have been through we deserve that. The door then opens and Lena enters, wearing a dress too, a black dress but she is wearing a beautiful one too and she walks over to me. "Ready to get married?" She asks me and I slowly nod my head, even when I'm not ready.

I'm not ready for any of this, I just want to go back to Alexander and marry him. The tears are so close to falling but she will scream at me if I were to cry because she spent a long time doing my make-up because she had to make it look perfect.

"Now that we are both ready, I think we should just do this" She says as she walks over to me and kisses me on the cheek and then she takes the wheelchair and starts to wheel me out of the room and I feel myself grow more and more nervous as we go on.

We're getting married in only a couple of minutes and it's making me so nervous and miserable that I can't even explain myself in words. Lena continues to talk about how happy she is and how excited about it but I feel the opposite of how she is feeling right about now.

She leads me to this sort of room that looks to me to be an old cafeteria that is about to fall apart any day now as it is so old and so disgusting now. "Here we will be married, I know it's not much but it's the only thing that we have right now" She tells me and I slowly nod as she starts to wheel me to a place that she has set up.

It has flowers and roses. Everything that she has planned over the past week is here, the flowers the empty chairs to the altar that she has created from cardboard. I gulp when the wedding music, whatever it is called starts to play and she is wheeling me to the altar.

"You've not idea how long I've waited for this" She says to me as she stops when we've reaches the altar and then she turns me around so that I would be facing her and she goes on her knees so that she is now on my level. I feel my heart start to pound within my chest as this is truly happening.

I'm really getting married and there is nothing that I can do to stop this from happening to me and it makes me feel horrible, I'm powerless and just miserable which Lena is so happy and I don't want to ruin her happiness. She's unstable, that I know and I don't want her to hurt herself anymore.

It breaks my heart to see her like that and I would not be able to handle it anymore. She clears her throat and then she looks at me with the biggest smile on her face and she has this happiness in her eyes when I look at her and that happiness is one that is rare and I can't ruin that for her.

"We are gathered here today to marry this woman and me and when times have been though and hard, we always made it through and the love that we have for each other is eternal which is what marriage is supposed to be. Always and forever and it is a joy unlike any other" Lena begins.

"It is my honor to be marrying us and we are going to live happily in our marriage and when we have been through things that someone have never gone through and we have fought against those things, even when there was everything against us" She says.

The words that she speaks sting my heart in the worst way possible and it makes me feel horrible inside my heart. I don't think we've ever been through that much, I don't know what she speaking about. Perhaps she is saying that about Alexander because she thinks of him as a threat or something.

"But we did make it alive and we are together like we were always meant to. From the moment that we met, I knew we were meant to be together, trust me and we have come a long way since then and we are still together and we will be together forever" She says and smiles at me but I can't find it in me to smile to her.

"I, Lena, take you, Rose Ace, to be my wife. I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honour you all the days of my life" Lena says and now comes the moment that I'm dreading most in the world, for me to say those words. She gives me a knowing look and I nod my head.

"I, Rose Ace, take you, Lena to be my wife. I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honour you all the days of my life" I speak but I don't mean those words and I regret them as soon as they come out of my mouth.

I feel awful inside my whole body as those word come out of my mouth and I just want to take them back as I just want to tell them to Alexander and I really wish that he were the one that is standing there in front of me and Lena beside me when I do marry him but he isn't here and he isn't in front of me. Lena is and I'm marrying her and not the love of my life.

"Now, without further ado, I pronounce us wife and wife. I may kiss the bride" Lena says and I feel my heart come to a stop as she sets a ring on my finger and then one on her finger and I feel myself chained. Like this is my prison and I'm stuck in the chains forever, that is the only forever that will be around here.

Lena comes closer to me as she is going to seal this marriage and we will be forever wed and it cannot be broken, and it makes me feel horrible as she is comes even closer to me for the kiss and the smile on her lips is one that makes me feel horrible because I don't feel the same way about her as she feels about me. Her lips are so close to mine and then...

I wake up.