🌹R O S E III🌹

🌹CHAPTER NINE🌹

A couple if days have passed since I woke up and Lena and I have fallen into a routine where we wake up when the sun comes up and eat breakfast, then we play some game, either a card game or a board game up until lunch. After lunch she always cleans me and does something in my hair, every day something different and sometimes it goes wrong and sometimes it goes well, well mostly well.

When I'm clean and have a new hairstyle we either play another game or we lie on the bed and remember the good times we have shared together. Like school and after school. I've also taken to notice that Lena doesn't want to talk about anything that has to do with other people, especially Alexander or my mom, not even Killian who I think she's never even met before.

She's also sometimes angry for no reason and sometimes she does frighten me because of how easily angered she can get and if I say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing, she gets angry but it's not that much, only a little but I don't want her to be that way.

I want Lena to be happy and not angry because she has made me happy for so long, she has always been there for me when I needed her and now she's doing everything for me. No matter what it is or how embarrassing it is. Like I used to feel shy when she was touching my naked body but I've come to realize that it's all right.

She's just cleaning me and making sure that my skin is clean and taken care of when I can barely do that on my own. She has taken the pain but I know that if I were to stand and walk on my own I would probably open some wound and I could die or worse.

I don't know what will happen but I know that I don't want it to happen. "Are you all right? You look so deep in thoughts?" Lena asks me and I look at her. It's the afternoon and we are lying on the bed, she has been talking for some time now about something that I'm not really listening to.

I've been so lost in my own mind to notice it. I lightly shake my head. "I'm all right, just thinking. Don't worry about it" I tell her, she doesn't need to be worried. She shrugs it off. "As I was saying, there are only a couple of more days until I will be able to get it" She says and I give her a confused look.

I have no idea what she's talking about and she knows it, her smirks says so. She rolls her eyes. "The wheelchair" She says and I give her an even greater confused look. "You haven't been listening, have you?" She asks me and the look of guilt comes across my face.

Shaking my head, I look away from her, not wanting to look into her eyes. I don't want her to see me like this, guilty because I wasn't listening to her and I know she will be disappointed in me. I hear her deeply sigh. "I was talking about how I'm trying to get a wheelchair for you so that I can take you to look outside the window. I notice that you are always looking out there" She tells me.

I hadn't noticed that she knew but I have been trying to see outside the window but it's impossible to see outside from this bed, as much as I try, I can't. The window is just too high or the floor is just too low, I can't be sure which one but something is wrong with it.

And there are white bars over the window that don't make it that easy either. I've been meaning to ask her about that. "I sort of remember being in a wheelchair at the hospital and I think you were there too, my memories aren't that good" I tell her.

"You don't have to think of that place anymore, you're not there anymore and will never be going there again" She tells me and I can feel her grow a little angry and as much as I want to change the subject, I can't. I don't know what to say or what to discuss.

I don't know what will upset her and what will not but I'm beginning to learn what to say and not say but I'm still learning. "It's going to take some time to get the wheelchair but I will be able to" She tells me and I nod my head at her.

"The longer that I'm unable to walk, the more I start to believe that I will never be able to walk again" I tell her. We have had this talk before but that was a couple of days ago. I feel horrible that I can't even walk and I can't use most of my body.

And without a doctor to tell when I am able to walk and stand and do everything that I can with my legs but Lena says that I will never need a doctor again. "I believe that you will walk again and even if you don't, I will look after you" She says with a kind smile on her face that I can't help but look at.

There is something else behind her smile, something that I don't recognize and something that does bring chills down my whole body and it shocks me to the core. "But you can't look after me at all times, you must live your life and find happiness" I tell her.

I've found happiness with Alexander, now she must find happiness with someone that can bring her the same love that Alexander brings me. And I want her to fall in love. "But I want to look after you, that brings me happiness" She tells me and her tone shows nothing but anger and I know better than argue anymore.

She smiles at me after a while but there is something hidden in her smile, something that sends shivers down my spine and it's not in a good way. "I'm going to go" She tells me and before I could even say anything she just walks out of the room and I look down in shame.

I shouldn't have started this conversation, now she's angry and upset with me. I didn't want her to be this upset with me. Lena is somehow different from the one that I know her to be and I don't know why. In truth, I don't know why she's like this, I don't think I've ever seen her act like this before and it scares me, a lot.

I sigh with sadness as I feel the tears form in my eyes and I don't stop them from falling down my cheeks because now I've hurt my only friend and the one that has been so kind to me and stood by me when I needed someone the most, when I needed her the most.

Now I want nothing more than to go to her and apologize to her and hug her and tell her how much I care for her and how much I need her, I need her as my best friend and I need her to help me. I do need her and I can't imagine living my life without her.

Lena is my best friend, my only friend and the only person who has ever stood by my side when I needed her the most. She was with me when I got betrayed by my mother and Alexander, she stood by me when I cried so much that my eyes hurt so much that they were hurting so much that it only made me cry harder.

She was with me when I build my own company and she was with me to see how much stress the new company was on me and she was there to help me through it all. And now I need to be there for her and I've failed doing exactly that. I've failed being a friend to her when she needs me the most.

The tears are flowing down my face like a waterfall and I just want to find Lena and apologize to her, hug her and tell her that I'm so sorry for all I've done and I wish I could make it up to her but I can't and it makes me feel so badly. I need to get out of this bed and find her.

As much as I want to do that, I can't because if I do I might never be able to walk again and I might tear some stitches that I have and damage some of my organs. I even did too much when I stood up when I went to visit Alexander a couple of days ago.

In truth I have no idea what day it is today, it's impossible to keep track, I can't even tell what time it is. All I can tell is when it's night and day because of the sun that shines through the bars of the window. I've gotten used to them but I wish that they weren't there, but I don't even know why they are there in the first place.

I don't even know where we are but I know better than to ask, I don't want her to be angry or sad or even upset or any more upset with me than she already is. I sit here not knowing what to do. I want to help her in any way that I can and I feel like I've failed my own best friend and that makes me feel even worse about this whole thing.

I shouldn't be crying about this, I will just have to man up and speak to Lena when she comes and I will need to explain to her of how sorry I am about it and I hope that she will forgive me. I can't live knowing that she might be angry at me or even worse, hate me.

I know very well that I've not been the best friend that she wants or even needs but I'm trying my best. My life is incredibly confusing and complicated and most would be running down the hills by now after learning about my life and everything.

But not Lena, she has stood by me through it all. Even if she was also the one that betrayed me. Killian told me that it was Lena and Alexander that were plotting behind my back and also Ms. Scott who I thought I could trust was in on it. They wanted to get me and him together.

I felt betrayed by my very own best friend and I pushed her away for it and I regret that moment with my whole life and all I want is to take it back but I can't and as much as I want to I can't go back in time and change it all, which I really want to do, to be there for Lena when she needs me the most. I want to be there for her like she has been there for me.

And starting today I will be the bestest friend in the world, even if that word doesn't exist and is not real. I need to prove myself to Lena that I care about her and she is my best friend and there is nothing that I won't do to make sure that she is happy and safe but most importantly my best friend.

For better or worse we need each other, we can't be who we are without one another and I've accepted that fact and I think that she has too. I wipe away the tears from my face and try to find the words to speak to her when she does come. As I sit up more properly I hear a loud ear-piercing scream. Lena's scream.