🌹R O S E III🌹

🌹CHAPTER FOUR🌹

Mom, Lena and I are in the room and we are playing Uno and I'm not really winning. My mind has been somewhere else for a while and I'm not sure if I will be able to focus after I saw him. It takes a toll seeing someone you love in that position, then again I am in that position, only I'm not as lost.

"Uno" Lena says with a smile on her face and now it is my mom turn and I hide the smirk on my face from Lena as she doesn't know what is coming or her. When mom has done I use the switch cards card and switch my hand with hers and I see the smile on her face fall.

"Uno" I say as now I have one card on hand and she a couple and they aren't that good either. Then again I've not been paying that much of attention on those cards, as stated before I've been so lost in my own mind to have noticed if they were really good or not but I think they aren't that good.

Lena does and then it is my moms turn and I see that she wants to do something and make me draw but she can't and I smirk. She puts a blue 2 and my smirk grows wider. Lena knows it too as she is frowning but it is a playful frown. "Uno, Uno" I say as I set down the yellow 2 I got from Lena.

I lay back on the bed as I watch in boredom which one of them is going to be in second place and the game goes on and one, none of them winning or losing and for me it's kind of boring to wait. That is all I've been doing in this hospital and I'm growing bored of being bored.

I tune them out as I look towards the window. The blinds are half away, just to make sure that no one can see inside the window from outside as there are people trying to know what happened to me and trying to ask me. Mom told me that there were some reporters that were arrested for breaking into the hospital and they were so close on making it to my room.

Mom freaks out because of that and she was beside me for days, well more beside me than she had been. She did not let go of my hand, and I felt how frightened she was. That is why I hide some of the pain that I feel from her because I don't want to worry her nor do I want her to be frightened, or more frightened than she already is.

"I win" Lena says happily and I break out of my thoughts and look back at the game and them. "You didn't win, only won second" I tell her and she rolls her eyes at me. "Details, details" She says and shrugs. Mom takes the deck and soon starts giving again.

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This hospital room is as empty as it can be. I'm the only one in here with the stupid clock that I'm starting to hate (or have hated from the start) and the beeps that are going to make me insane if they don't stop. I lie in the bed and just look at the laptop on the table.

It has my unfinished novel on it and I just stare at it, I want to write, but my fingers don't want to. I don't have writer's block but I still can't write and I'm not not even sure why. A knock on the door breaks me out of my thoughts and I look over to the door.

Slowly, the door opens and someone unexpected walks through the door. I feel the tears form in my eyes. He's here. "Alexander?" I ask. His eyes never leaving mine as he slowly walks over to the bed and sits down. Unlike me, he can walk but slowly and I can't walk at all.

It even hurts me to stand on my feet and I try not do that. "Rose" He says. My name is only a whisper from him but his voice does sends shivers down my spine like it always does when he speaks my name. Something about it just rolls of his tongue and it sounds so right and perfect.

Neither one of us say a word and I think that we don't need words. We stare into each other's eyes as I take his hand in mine. I let out a sigh as I faintly smile to him. "Why have you come here?" I ask, breaking the silence. As much as comforting the silence was, I want to hear him speak.

I want to hear him speak to me and hear him speak in general. I need him. A tear slips down from my eye and leaks down my cheek. His other hand goes up and with his thumb he wipes away the tears. I'm stunning by this action as he doesn't say a word.

I'm not even sure if he can speak more than my name as that is the only thing he's ever said to me since yesterday, and before that we were not allowed to see each other for reason I don't know. Then again everything has been rather confusion and with bits and pieces out of my memory and the drugs that I've been on and I don't even know the names of.

"This is my room, a bit brighter than yours but other than that, it looks the same. Dull and boring" I tell him, it's a bit awkward and I'm not sure if he wants me to speak or not, I just want to fill in the silence. I do love the silence but this beeping sound is not something that I want to hear, not when he's here.

I want to hear his voice. I look down at the nightstand where there is a slice of bread that I did not want to eat. "Are you hungry, I can give you bread?" I ask him. Asking him if he's hungry? I must be stupid or something but this man is really intense, even if he weren't in the hospital.

He doesn't answer me so I look down to the floor, not knowing what to do. Somehow he has stumbled in here and said my name and sat down here and now holds my hand, but there is still distance between us. I feel another tear want to slip down but I don't allow it.

He did wipe the last tear away and I loved to feel his touch on my cheek but I don't want to cry in front of him. I need to be strong, strong for him and strong for myself. "Rose" He softly speaks and I look up at him. His handsome face and I look into his eyes to see that there is love and there is confusion in them.

I don't know what really happened to him and a part of me begs to find out but there is another part that fears what truly happened. He did... die, and that must've been terrible. "You know, I don't remember if I have ever told you or not but I love it when you say my name" I tell him.

I'm not sure if those words have been spoken but I feel like they needed to be. "Rose... I love you..." He says and I smile as I feel the tears of joy welcome themselves into my eyes. The happiness soars through me. Not only has he spoken more than my name but he said the words that make my heart race faster in my chest.

"I love you" I say to him. "I can't be without you, I will always protect you" He speaks and I feel the chills on my skin that I don't want to go away. I don't think Alexander realizes how much affect he truly has on me. "You are mine!" He says and I see him grit his teeth.

I'm not sure if he's even speaking to me anymore or himself. However his grip on my hand doesn't change, it's still gentle and soft like I know he is. "And you are mine" I tell him soundly and smile to him. He begins to lean in and captures my lips in his and I let him kiss me.

My other hand travels to his chest and then to his shoulders before I reach his head and play with his hair as I pull him deeper into the kiss. I allow his tongue to invade my mouth. I feel his other hand snake around my waist and pull me closer to him.

Somehow he's careful not to touch where it hurts the most, the places where there are still injuries on and inside my body. The kiss is soft and gentle yet so rough and possessive. His lips feel so nice on mine and they do belong there. My closed eyes slowly open when we break the kiss.

I look into his eyes to see only love and adoration in them and it fills me up with joy. I can imagine that my eyes show the same as his eyes. "That was amazing" I tell him as I feel my lips swollen from his kiss and I like that, I like that my lips are in that state because of his kisses.

"I know. I must go now, but remember that I do love you" He whispers to me before he kisses my forehead nod stands up. He lets go of my hand and I feel like I want to hold on to it but I know that he has to go. We both know that. We are in a hospital, both being treated and he must be in his room.

As he leaves and closes the door, I feel this rush of emotions wash over me all at once but I don't know what that means. I also realize that the beeping had stopped while we kissed, I could not hear them but now they are awake and I can hear them.

However in that short time, it was like they did not even exist at all. I feel the blood rise to my cheeks when I think of the kiss that we shared. I pull the table over to me and move the mouse of the laptop to bring it back to life as it had gotten black from not being used for some amount of time.

I see the novel that I'm writing is still there on the screen and this time I put my hands on the keys and I let them glide like normally and I just write. Somehow one kiss from him was enough to fill me with the will to confine writing as I had begun to give in to the boredom before.

The door opens and Lena steps inside. "Was that Alexander that just walked out of here?" She asks me and I can hear how there is anger in her. For the last couple of weeks I've noticed that there is a little anger in her but each time I ask her about it, she just says that the one that shot me... us is still out there and might try again.

The man, that blackmailed me... I can't remember his name. I've tried so hard to remember it but I can't, just one of the memories that I can't remember. "Yes... he kissed me" I tell her as I feel my cheeks only redden and I'm sure she notices that.

"He kissed you? How? Isn't he supposed to be... you know... insane?" She asks me and I roll my eyes. She's still on that thing that Alexander is insane or something but I think he's just lost but he is trying to make it back, to get back to me.