🌹R O S E III🌹

🌹CHAPTER FORTY - ONE🌹

Painfully my eyes open in a hospital bed with memories that are not my own yet my own at the same time. I remember what happened while I was in a coma and I remember Lena. And what she did but it wasn't real. None of it was real. It confuses me and it makes me feel strangely.

I don't think I will be able to look at her the same again after this. I can remember the room that she locked me in and I can remember how she made us get married. All of it. The hospital room I'm in nope only reminds me of that time but that isn't all of it.

I remember what happened. Selena and how she stabbed me. Looking around myself to see that Alexander is sitting down in a chair beside the bed and he holds my hand while I can see that my mom is talking on the phone to someone in a low voice. I squeeze his hand and he looks up at me.

"Rose?" He asks and I smile at him sadly but painfully. My stomach and body are in so much pain right about now that it is hurting too much. Breathing is the worst thing as I need to move my stomach in order to breath. "You're alive. Thank God, I was so afraid" My mom says.

She hangs up on the phone and walks over to the bed. I think I'm getting sick of hospitals and hospital beds since I don't exactly have good memories of that and especially memories of being locked inside there for such a long time. Alexander just stares at me with sadness and I get the feeling that something bad is about to happen.

"I think it should come from me. It's better that way" My mom says and she takes my hand. The tears in her eyes is something that frightens me and I don't know what is going on but I can tell that none of is something that I'm going to like.

I look between them as my mom sits on the bed and the look both of them are giving me is so sad that is tearing me up inside. Tears are forming in my own eyes just thinking the worst. "Sweetie, do you remember what happened?" She asks me and I slowly nod my head at her question.

"The doctor said that the knife fractured a couple of organs but the worst... the worst was your womb" She speaks and I open my mouth but no words come out. I feel this lump form in my throat that I can't swallow. "Honey... Rose..." She trails off as she holds my hand tightly.

A tear slips down from my eye. "You're barren" She tells me and I feel the sadness overwhelm me. I never have children on my own. I can't have children. Not anymore. "But, it's all right. We can adopt if we want in the future" Alexander tells me.

But it won't be the same. I had always thought that I would carry my child and then give birth and then raise it but adopting is never going to be the same but that is something that we may have to do if we want children. "I'm so sorry, I should've been there sooner" He says to me as he stars crying to but I shake my head at him and his words.

No. I don't want him to blame himself for things that he has no control over or could do anything about. None of us knew that this was going to happen to me and no one knew that Selena was about to do that so there is nothing that anyone could've done about it.

My voice is hard to find at the moment but I give him a sad smile as I hold his hand, to let him know that I'm there for him and there is no way that I'm leaving him. We will get through this, like we have gone through so much in our lives. If we're together then we can defeat anything that is thrown at us, even something like this.

"Do you two want a moment alone?" My mom asks me and we both shake our heads. "All right, because I feel like the third wheel right now" She says and Alexander lightly chuckles and I smile a bit. I think she was trying to lighten the mood since it has been rather sad.

"Oh, and I don't have the STD but there is a possibility that I'm the father" Alexander tells me and I give him a confused look which he understands. "She was taken to a hospital for someone with her mind problems and there she said the truth, told us that she used me yet we never did that, however she took from me some and did it to herself and got pregnant" He says awkwardly.

I'm not sure which news I'm more relived about, that she is getting the help that she needs or that he doesn't have that disease and they did not do anything. While I'm glad that he doesn't have it I'm also cornered because there is the possibility that she is carrying his child.

That is something that I will never be able to do, not now that is. Not after this. Not after this has happened to me and to him too since we are going to be married... someday... right? I'm now a bit confused about that still. "The good news is that you're alive and well and soon we don't have to be in this hospital" Alexander says and I nod my head.

Perhaps the best thing is that I'm alive. I've felt the pain of losing a loved one and I would not want them to go through that pain if I had died. However, I get the feeling they've already gone through the pain when I was in the year-long coma.

I think he's as tired of this hospital as I am. It seems that no matter I do I always end up here but that is about to end. "Rose, I need to ask you something and you're going to have to answer honestly because this is going to affect the both of us no matter what choice is made" He tells me and I feel things start to grow serious once again.

I don't enjoy it when things are serious like this but I suppose it will have to be. I give him a nod so he could ask me and for a moment I feel my heart come to an stop before he opens his mouth. "Selena's mind is not stable and even if she would be she is going to spend the rest of her life in jail" He begins.

"She is carrying a child, whether that is mine or not but that child needs a home and I wanted to ask you if we could raise it as our own. We can't have children together but that child needs a home. If we send it to the orphanage and then adopts some other child, it would not be fair nor just. That child needs parents that love it and I believe we can be those parents" He says.

He is right about this and we both know it, even my mom knows it. And that child needs a home and it needs a family and it needs love. Even if it won't be his child or it will, it is still innocent in all of this and it did not choose any of this. Like I did not ask for it.

And since he told me that she was unstable and will be locked up for the rest of her life, I think it means that she has been stripped off her parental rights which means that she can't have the baby and I'm pretty sure that there is no one else.

Besides, I believe this might be a blessing for I cannot have a child on my own and I need a child and that child needs a mother, a real mother and not someone who would possibly harm it. I find myself nodding my head because I want this and I want this child.

Alexander sighs. "I was hoping you'd say that because there is nothing more than I want than to raise a family with you and perhaps marry you. And, yes I know it will happen somewhere in the future. Perhaps after five years or perhaps ten but I swear with your mother as my witness that someday I will marry you" He tells me.

I feel something cold on my fingers and I realize that he's putting both the rings on my finger and I smile to him. He wants to marry me after all and even if it will be a bit long until that can happen. I smile up at him when he does this and I can almost feel the happiness try to break through me.

I'm done crying over everything, I need to be strong and after all the pain that I've suffered, I know that I need to be strong and those things have made me stronger than I was before. Now I just need to embrace that strength that I have and I need to find it within myself.

I'm alive and the ones I love are alive. Crying will not bring back what I've lost, nothing back bring back what I've lost but crying about it won't do anything but bring me even more down. I need to look at the bright side of things. Perhaps this is the drugs that I'm on but I don't think so.

"I'm going to get something to drink" My mom says and then she kisses my foreheads and leaves the room, I think that it's a bit awkward for her to be here while we're talking about this but I think both of us want her to be here with us, I know that I need her to be here with me.

I open my mouth to speak but he silences me by shushing at me. "It's not good that you speak right now, when you screamed you damaged a bit your throat but in a couple of days it will be better" He tells me but while I'm confused about it he doesn't go any further on the subject.

I do remember that I screamed and I screamed louder than I've ever screamed before but I did not know that I screamed so loudly that it physically damaged my throat. And here I was thinking that I would not be hurt anymore but I suppose that will have to wait.

He still holds my hand and I don't mind, I actually like his touch and I like it when he holds me. Makes all of this real. Now that I know what happened to me while I was in a coma and I find it hard to make sense of what truly did take place and what did not.

Somehow I can tell what is real but on the other hand I can't. It does confuse me. Some of the things happened in real life like when Luna hurt herself, she did it to herself and then she did it to herself in that room in the coma. It's like somehow my subconscious knew about it but that doesn't make sense to me.

I suppose there are going to be so many things that aren't going to make sense to me, then the words that the fortune-teller come to mind and I think that she was right all alone. The question that I have in my mind right now is how did she know it? Did she actually see into the future? Though I think these questions are just going to remain a mystery for a long time.