🌹R O S E III🌹

🌹CHAPTER ELEVEN🌹

"I can't do this anymore, Rose. I... I have to tell you the truth" She says to me. She takes her arms out of my grip and wraps them around me and pulls me closer to her, but she is careful not to hurt me because of the internal wounds that I have.

I don't care about them, I just want to hold my best friend here and not let her go. She needs me right now and I will be there for her. "All right, you can tell me everything and if I speak in your own words 'I want to know every detail'" I tell her.

Trying to lighten the mood a bit since these are dark times and I don't want her to go through something and feel so bad about what she did that she begins to hate herself for it. She lets out a giggle but I can tell that it's a forced giggle that she made.

"Remember the betrayal that I was a part of?" She asks me and I nod my head as I remember it but I try not to remember. However, since there are a couple of memories that I am unable to remember so I think this might be hard for me. "What about it?" I ask her when she doesn't say anything after that question.

I know that I need to give her time but I also need to know to be able to help her. "I didn't tell you the whole truth of that" She admits and I can hear the sadness in her voice. I look to her with a confused look. I thought I had gotten to the bottom of that and I knew everything about it.

"What do you mean? The whole truth? What does that mean?" I ask her and I regret myself when I ask about it because I shouldn't be pressuring her like this, it could send her further back. I need to be careful with her because one wrong word or one wrong move and she breaks down again.

"You don't understand, I don't want you to hate me" She says and then bursts into crying. "Oh, Lena I could never hate you" I tell her as I still hold her body and make sure that she knows she's not alone. I really don't want her to feel alone in this.

"I swear whatever you have to tell me, you can say so and it's all right. You are my best friend and I can never hate you for anything that you do. No matter what it is, I can never hate you nor despise you. I will stand by your side and we will work through this" I tell her.

I'm not sure if she is listening to my words but I pray that she is because everything that I said is the truth in its purest form and I meant every single word. "It was me" She says to me and I give her a confused look because she already told me the part that she played in it all.

"It wasn't him who came up with the plan, I created the plan. The bar, meeting him again and just everything that happened after that. I told him to take the blame because you would never forgive me but I was only thinking of myself" Lena begins and I furrow my eyebrows.

I don't understand this but I get the feeling that I will understand in time what she is talking about. "I never wanted you to be with him. I told myself that you wanted to be with him and that you wanted to be with him and I tried to let you be with him" She continues.

"I thought that if you were with him than these horrible feelings inside of me would disappear but they never did and I don't know why. All I knew is that I had to drive you away from him no it began when I dug up the contract between your mother and his parents and paid someone to show it to you" She says and I gasp when I hear her say those words.

"I'm so sorry, Rose, but I had to. I had to show that he was playing you this entire time and it worked. You turned to me for the time being but then he approached me and told me that he needed to see so I came up with another plan" Lena says.

I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel about this and I can't believe she would do this to me but then again I can't blame her. After meeting Alexander, he is all I've been thinking and talking about and perhaps she has gotten upset about that.

I can't believe I've never been able to see her true suffering and the pain that I've caused her. I truly don't deserve her as my best friend, I didn't then and I don't now. She's too kind and generous and her life should not be spent suffering because of me.

"It's all right, I forgive all that you've done. I don't care about that. I care about you" I tell her and hold her closer to me. "This isn't all. I planned it all but he didn't know why I did it. No one knew why I did it because I never told anyone. I wanted to keep it a secret from everything but most importantly I wanted to keep it a secret from you, Rose" She tells me.

"What do you mean?" I ask her but before she could answer a loud bang outside is heard that shocks the both of us, but she calms down quickly while I'm trying to figure out what that was."What is that?" I whisper, I'm not sure what that was but I have a strange feeling inside of me that screams at me that I don't want to know what that loud bang was.

She doesn't answer me but she does let go of me and stands up. "Wait! Where are you going?" I ask her but she shakes her head and walks out of the room and closes the door. I'm left alone in the dark in this room and I think it's best that I stay here.

Whatever that noise was it was enough to scare her. I'm sure she knows what it is and is going there. In all the time that I've been here I've never heard that bang before and I can't be sure what it was. It wasn't knocking that we heard but it was enough to scare Lena and she has never been the one that is easily scared.

I think of the words she just said and the information that I've now gotten and I can't believe that she was behind it all. It's not that I'm disappointed in her, but it's because of surprise. And I find it strange how I never figured it out. And I do have a couple of degrees in business and I've always been on top of my class in school.

Well, almost always. There were a couple of times that someone else was on top with their grades but that motivated me into working twice as hard as I had been doing to get me back on top. I am smart but I couldn't figure this out, but then again Lena is my best friend.

It is said that you never see what it's right in front of your nose because you're never looking down and that is what has been happening to me. I was too blinded to see what was in front of me this entire time, that Lena was behind it all but I don't care about that.

None of that matters to me anymore, all that I care about now is Lena's health and safety because I'm terrified that she will do something to harm herself or others. Anyone can tell that she's not in a good place right now and as hard as it is to admit it, she might hurt herself again or other people.

I move closer to the wall to have it support me but this room is so cold that I'm shivering, I have been shivering this whole time but only now realizing it. It has been a couple of minutes since she left and I do worry about her. Most would not want to but I want to panic, I need to panic at this moment but I can't.

Through all of this, I'm calm like when the moon is on the night sky and I want so much to panic. That is in human nature but I don't want to feel the pain so I must give up one thing to not feel that pain and it hurts so badly that if I were not on this drug then I will just have to give up feeling panic.

I don't know how my body is because I don't feel it but there is still a part of me that thinks that I might have done some serious damage to myself and ripped open something. If I were never to be able to walk again it would be worth it because I just stopped Lena from harming herself any further.

Trying to not look at the puddle on the floor as it would bring me more tears and sorrow than anything else because I would be reminded at what had just happened only a couple of minutes ago. But I do look over the room again. I find it strange that this room is so ruined while the room that I'm in is clean and fresh and not ruined at all.

It is strange to see how this one is so badly ruined and mine is not. I do not understand it at all. Then again I don't even know where we are in the first place. I've never seen this place before, or I don't think so. With some of my memories temporarily gone there is no telling what I know and don't know.

This place could very well be somewhere that I've been before but I've forgotten or something but I don't think that is likely but at this point anything is possible. A massive headache starts to appear in my head and it has been going on for a while.

I find it strange how I can feel this headache as it has been building up for some time and I just find this headache odd in general. Then again I could just be overthinking everything too much because my mind has been racing fast with thoughts.

Almost as if my mind is in a tornado and the thoughts are swirling around endlessly in the tornado itself. I let out a small groan when I feel the headache become stronger than before. It feels like someone is inside my head with a hammer and banging on my skull and it's hurting me.

A headache shouldn't be possible since Lena has given me a drug powerful enough to dull all pain in my body which means this headache is not something that my mind should be feeling. My eyes are starting to get a little blurry and this headache is even more serious than I think.

I think something serious has happened to me and the drug can't fix that. My eyes are beginning to drop, slowly but I feel smells growing so tired that it's impossible to keep my eyes open anymore and I let them fall down and close them shut as my body could not keep them open any longer because of the tiredness that has taken over me.

I feel my body slide down the wall until I'm lying down and with my head on the floor as the darkness has confused me whole.