🌹R O S E II🌹

🌹CHAPTER FOURTEEN🌹

Lena and I are in my apartment having a bit of a sleepover as she called it. She wanted to make sure that my blackmailer wouldn't try it and even when I tried to convince her that whoever it was wouldn't come to my apartment to hurt me. The media doesn't even know where I live and I like to keep it that way.

Growing up, the gates of the mansion were the only thing keeping the paparazzi away and my mother kept me safe inside but now I only have two doors and they aren't that strong. There are some reporters insane enough to break down doors for a story. Still, it's strange how no one has figured out where I live but I like that way for good reasons.

"So, when are you going to forgive him?" She asks once we're in our pajamas and having some candy and cake as dessert and we're in my living room but we didn't watch anything because we didn't want to. "Forgive who?" I ask her confused of her question.

"Alexander Knight of course. I mean I don't like the guy but he's shown so many times that he does care for you even love you and I think he deserves to be forgiven for a little mistake" She says and I glare at her with a lot of hatred. "How can you say that?" I nearly yell at her.

"Little mistake, no he did not just make a little mistake. He made the biggest mistake of the century and there is no way I will forgive him for what he has done, ever" I tell her and give her the look that says don't-even-start-talking and I think she gets the hint because she opens her mouth but closes it straight away.

Lena frowns but then smirks. "Since we both are single and bored, how about going out tonight?" She suggests but I'm sure she has guessed my answer already. "I can't tonight. I mean I would but I haven't got much sleep and with everything going on I haven't done that much work. Besides I will need all the energy I can get to face him tomorrow" I tell her and she frowns again.

But that frown is yet again turned into a smirk. "Then what better way to show him that now you have some other man with you, just to annoy him tomorrow. I mean, what/s the worst that can happen? You get some pretty hot sex and he will be so jealous and when a man is jealous, he's so hot that it makes a woman melt" She suggests.

I sigh, there really isn't much that is going to change her mind and there is also the fact that she literally dropped everything to came to party with me and she got dumped for it and now I have to be by her side. "Fine, but I'm not drinking" I tell her and she jumps up from the couch and hugs me.

"It's a good thing that I took some extra dresses over here, just in case" She says after she breaks the hug and I raise one eyebrow at her. "You can't be serious?" I ask but she just takes their purse and takes out two dresses out of it. How did they even fit in there? Her purse isn't that big, there is no way they could have been in there.

"Now, lets get dressed" She says and squeals, I laugh at how silly she can be sometimes and Lena really surprises me sometimes that it's unreal. "You take this one, I think it will make you look drop dead gorgeous, besides if you want to hook up with someone you need to look like you want it" She says and I ignore that last part.

I take the dress and we both go into my room to dress ourselves and once I'm in the dress I look at myself in the mirror and as much as I do look beautiful, this dress isn't working for me. "It's a little bit smaller than I would have thought" I say to Lena when she comes beside me, to see herself in the mirror and she really looks gorgeous in her dress.

"That's how it's supposed to be, darling" She says with an accent that I don't know what is because she's not very good at it, I think it was a mixture of British and southern accent which didn't come out very well. "How am I supposed to walk in this? Every time I take a step, the dress goes up and nearly shows my behind" I tell her and she rolls her eyes.

I try to hold my dress and pull it so it will be down my behind but then it almost shows my entire breasts, this dress really isn't cutting out for me. "How else are you going to get a man to notice you? Do you want to get back at Mr. I'm rich and you belong to me or not?" She asks me and I giggle at her name for Alexander.

"Yes, of course I do. But, can't I just wear one of my own dresses?" I ask her but she shakes her head, way too quickly. "You're not changing and you're not going to be wearing underwear because you need to get laid and now's the time. Besides, this makes you look hot and coming from a Bisexual person, you are hot" She says and I blush a bit.

"Thank you, and I suppose I can deal with this just for tonight" I tell her and she jumps up in delight like a child or something. "Now, for the make-up" She says and drags me to the bathroom but I still feel slightly uncomfortable in this dress but I need to get laid and if that dress is what it takes then I have to wear it.

I need to take my mind off Alexander Knight. That man is taking over my life and my mind and just everything around me and I can't handle and I need to get laid tonight. However, I don't think Lena know but I'm a virgin. I've never done anything and I'm a little afraid of but maybe this night will be the night I will do it and lose my virginity.

Lena puts on make-up on me and herself and in no time we're ready to go. "I'm picking the club tonight because last time did not end that very well" I tell her as the memories of the time when I met him in that club rushes into my mind. "Fair enough" She answer and we head down the stairs to her car.

I seriously need to get for myself because it's getting hard to not have one but I don't know if I want to get one even if I do have a more money than most people do, I have more than millions, I'm sort of a billionaire. I pick a club that I'm familiar with and if I do get a drink it's not that long of a walk home.

We arrive at the club and the music rushes through my body like a thunderstorm and as I listen to the music I allow myself to forget everything. Lena is quick to disappear into the crowd while we are dancing. I try to look for a guy that I would like but none of the ones that are here are guys that I want.

One is too tall, one is too fat, one is too short, one is too hairy, one is too strange, one is too drunk, one is not drunk enough and each one of them do have some sort of problem that I don't want and that's when I realize something. That this whole time I've been comparing them to Alexander because he's the only guy I want.

Suddenly I don't feel like dancing and I go to the bar. I'm seriously thirsty but I don't want to drink. I need to keep my head straight and normal because I need to think normally and not insanely. I sigh as I sit alone at the bar. I move one seat to the right because the couple on my left were with their tongues deep down each other's throat and moaning.

I have no idea how Lena always manages to convince me to come to these things when I don't have as good time as her and I really have no idea what I'm doing here. I think I should just head home, I've been here for about forty minutes and that's enough for me, besides I really need my sleep and I mean it this time.

I'm sure Lena won't mind that I left, she should be kissing some guy or girl or doing something else with him or her that I don't want to know. The music is making me have a headache and I don't want a headache right now, I need to have a straight head. I walk pats the crowd and the dancing people who are grinding themselves to each other.

I wonder if those people know who they are grinding to, I some of them look like strangers and are too drunk to even notice anything that is around them. I get the feeling that they have no idea. While I walk past the people, I see Lena up against a wall in the corner and a guy kissing her.

Well, at least she's having a good time, and that makes one of us because I'm here miserable. I can't help but feel like there is something missing and I already know what that is or rather should I say who it is? Somehow I find myself fantasizing about him standing in the middle of the club floor.

But that would be insane, he's not here and he doesn't even know we're here. I'm not in his club anymore and I bet that is where he is right about now because he's sad and needs a woman to keep him company. That thought burns my brain and heart, and this sting in my heart forces me to stop walking.

It breaks my heart in a million peaces to think about him and some other woman and I don't want to think about it, I refuse to think about it but I know that I need to face the reality, he doesn't care about me at all and he's probably with a woman that can fulfill his every need, something that I can't do.

I feel the tears sting my eyes but I refuse to let them fall. Lena thinks that he cares about me but he doesn't care about me. He's using me right now, like he always does. The sooner I accept that, the sooner I can move on with my life. But the question is, do I want to move on with my life?

Right now, I don't know how to answer that question and I don't know if I want to. I mean, I fell in love with a man that betrayed me and even now after all the pain and hurt and betrayal, I still love him, even when I try not do. It's so hard not to love him and I can't ignore the feelings any longer. I love Alexander Knight but it will be a hard time pushing those feelings to the side because I need to face a man that I love but he doesn't love me back.

I continue with my plan on going outside of this club and walk to the exit of the place and I open the door to the fresh air outside which makes me breathe a little bit better. As soon as I'm outside, I freeze when I see what is out there in the darkness