🌹R O S E🌹

🌹CHAPTER TWENTY - SIX🌹

"Is there anything you need, Mr. Knight?" I ask. I smile to him, a fake smile but he buys it. He doesn't know what had happened to me before and how I cried my heart out, and he doesn't need to know. Not that he would care about it anyway.

However, he does look at me strangely, I'm not sure what is running through his head and frankly, I don't care. "Alexander when we're alone" He reminds me and his names brings me nothing but pain and I hate it, I hate hearing his name and feel pain.

"I need you to accompany to a meeting, I believe you will be able to do good" He tells me. He can't help but make me feel horrible and disgusted with myself for ever believing anything that he says. I keep smiling at him, faking smiling. "Of course, I'd be happy to" I tell him and stand up from my chair.

I follow him out of my office and to the meeting. Pretending to be all right and everything is the perfect is a lot harder than I thought. It's weighing my heart down and it hurts my soul so much, he hurt me and he will suffer for it, I will make sure of it.

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I go back to my office, not even talking to him after the meeting. I ignore him as much as possible, but not too much for him to notice it. In order for my plan to work, he has to believe that everything is normal, and that can only happen of I pretend like it is normal.

That is the biggest challenge of them all. I see him get in his own office that for a few minutes we stay that way. Me in my office and he in his. To say that it's better to be without is a lie, somehow I feel this feeling inside me that yearns to be with him, yet the pain inside me is also too great.

The way that he hurt me only shows how ruthless he really can be. And I blame myself for all of this. I start typing on my computer and go over files that are important for the company. But, while I'm reading on the screen and typing on the keyboard, I start to tickle in my thumb.

I pay no matter to it, until the tickle goes over to my hand. My eyes travel downwards and I let out a scream when I see what is on my hand. A spider. A black spider. A huge black spider. Eww. Gross.I throw it off my hand from the fright that it caused me.

The spider lands on my desk and I stand up and back away from the desk, that spider scared the life out of me. Few seconds later the door that connects the two offices opens and Mr. Knight runs inside. "What's wrong? Did something happen? I heard a scream" He hurries himself to say as he runs towards me.

Before I could even react, I'm pulled into his strong embrace and he hugs me tightly and possessively, sort of in a protective manner. My head in his muscular chest. I don't know if I'm more shocked because of the spider or the fact that I'm in his arms.

Does it make me a bad person that I do enjoy being in his arms and I never want to leave? "I'm fine, really" I tell him, after a moment of silent, and we had just stayed there for a while. It's not uncomfortable and it's actually nice. "If you were fine, you wouldn't have screamed" He tells me.

"A spider was on my hand, that's all" I say, I try to break the hug since it's getting rather strange now, we're hugging in my office. He's my boss and I'm his secretary, besides I have a mission to complete that involves hurting him the same way he hurt me.

When I think about that plan when I'm in his arms, it feels horrible and makes me look like him and I'm not as low as he is. "Where is this spider?" He asks, there's something in his voice that I don't understand, like everything that I don't understand about him.

"On the desk, I think it's still there" I tell him. He finally breaks the hug and his eyes meet mine for a smell second. But, then his gaze turns towards my desk and he does notice the spider, and I notice it too. It's a bit smaller than it was when I saw it the first time, perhaps that was because of the shock and the surprise.

He picks up the spider in his hands, I back away from him. "What? Afraid of a little spider" He teases me. "So, what if I am?" I ask, trying to put on a brave face. But, slowly I back away, when he comes closer with the spider in his hand.

I hate spiders, but other insects are all right, I don't mind them that much, there are only spiders that I can't handle and there is a story behind that fear of spiders. "You're so adorable" He whispers, I don't think he wanted me to hear those words but I did hear it.

When I was a little girl, about seven or eight, I can't remember exactly how old I was. Anyway, my mom and dad had put me to bed and kissed me goodnight after they had read me a bedtime story, I went to sleep, like normally. Only this time, I didn't wake up in the morning.

I wake up in the middle of the night, and to my surprise there's a gigantic spider on my face. Ever since then, I've been afraid of spiders, it has scarred me form a young age and there is where the fear began. Then again, spiders are just disgusting and so gross.

I don't say anything to him because he never intended for me to hear him say that. "Please can you take that spider somewhere else, where I'm not there" I say as I keep away from him and the spider in his hand. He doesn't even look afraid of holding it or having it on his hand.

I hate it when they crawl on your skin, it makes me feel horrible and it's so gross. "Take that away, now!" I practically yell at him, ordering him to take that disgusting spider always form me. "Or what?" He teases again, he smirks at me.

Thinking for a few seconds about what I will do. "Or I will quit" I say, it might be a little too much, but I will not be around that spider any longer. I'd rather be fired than stay any longer in this office with that spider or any spider for that matter.

I don't even know how it got inside, the window hasn't been opened since I got here since the ventilation brings inside fresh air and the spider is far too big to have gone through the ventilation, so I keep wondering how it go inside, we're on the twenty-sixth floor, what is a spider doing here?

He does look shocked at my words and doesn't believe that he heard them right, his smirk does fall right off his face, this time it's my time to smirk. "You get rid of that thing and you still have a secretary" I say to him, challenging him. He didn't expect this, neither did I but I will not back away now.

"Fine, fine, the spider will be gone. Wait here and don't move" He says before he leaves quickly with the spider still in his hand, good, it's not gone. It's a huge relief when it's out of my office. My eyes scan the office, looking for any other spider, just so it can be removed right away before it can do harm, to me.

After I make sure that there isn't another spider around, I sit on the chair and continue to work, now that I'm still on the job and I didn't quit. Truth to be told, I wouldn't have actually quit. It was the only thing that came into mind, and I had to think fast before he would laugh at me or do something.

As soon as I sit down, I realize something. While he was here, the idea of hurting him and making him suffer after what he did to me and the plan that I had formed after all the pain, vanishes from my mind. Like if it never even existed at all.

However, as soon as he's gone, I realize that I should have been cruel to him the way he was cruel to me, I shouldn't have been in his arms for so long and even at all. It was stupid of me and I regret every second of it, yet I don't. I did like that hug and I did like the way that his arms were around me.

He made me feel safe and protected and loved? I don't understand it at all, I don't understand a thing about it. The door of the office opens again and Mr. Knight comes back inside, with no spider in his hand, that's good. At least I don't have to see that disgusting spider and I don't want to think about it again.

"It's gone, now. We have important business to talk about" He says and everything goes to being serious all of a sudden. All right, what is this about. I look at him, listening to anything that he has to say. He understands my look because he starts talking to me.

"What are you doing tonight? I was thinking we could go on our second date" He tells me, his words make me almost fall out of my chair, but I manage to keep myself sitting on it. Is this guy for real? After he had a woman in his office and had his way with her, only two hours ago, couple of hours before our first date, he wants to go out with me.

Anger courses through my body, however I don't show him that I'm angry. He doesn't need to know that and I will not show it to him. He can't be serious about this, hasn't he hurt me enough? Does he really want into my pants this much? Because that is the only thing he wants.

I refuse the water to form in my eyes and it takes everything in me to now cry right here and now, I will not give him the satisfaction of seeing him hurt me and seeing me cry. "I'm sorry... A-Alexander, but I'm best tonight. Lena and I have plans. Maybe another night" I tell him.

Lena and I don't really have plans but I'm sure we can make some if I just call her, most of the times she isn't that busy, and she will always make time for me. Besides, I really do need a best friend right now and she's my only best friend, and I need her.

Though, I believe she will murder Mr. Knight when she learns of the things he did and how he hurt me. I have no choice but to tell her, but I will not tell her about my plans and what I plan on doing. He has a look of disappointment, yet tries to hide it rather well.

To say that I'm not disappointed myself is a lie, there is nothing else I would rather do than go on a date with him, yet I can't. He hurt me so much and I will not take another chance on it. Besides, he only wants one thing from me, and I will not allow that. "Tomorrow then?" He asks. "Tomorrow" I agree and we both continue to work, he goes to his office and I keep working here in my office.